Ria
This morning I could very much tell something was up. As far as I knew we weren't due to have another visit from a nanny prospect for 2 more days, so I wasn't sure what was going on.
I ordered, or rather Victor ordered for me, a twin bed to put in the nursery. I love the tower room and would like to move into it. However, I am getting anxious being a floor away from the girls, just like I knew I would.
Probably the minute I start getting comfortable being further away from the girls,, this new baby will be here, then I will have more feedings and sleepless nights, and anxiety all over again. So, I figured I would just have a bed put in the toddler room. I will sleep in here and that will fix it.
I can keep my clothes and things in the closet in the master suite, that's not a big deal and I don't have to occupy that room to get my clothes. If it becomes a thing I will address it then.
Just a few minutes ago all the guys and Natalia came up to the nursery. Natalia is watching the girls while the guys take off to see something. I don't really have a choice so I get up and follow them. They led me to the empty office next to Drago's. They had wanted to give it to me, but there was no reason I needed an office. They won't even let me use a computer for fuck sake.
As they open the door and usher me in a woman is sitting on the love seat in here. She's dressed professionally, and I know immediately what this is. I had heard them talk about this before and I told them not to bother, but once again, they have disregarded what I had to say about it. I'm not sure if she is the shrink or the therapist, but I guarantee she's one of them.
"Ria, this is Monica, she's come to talk to you. We'd like for you to sit and have a chat okay?"
I sigh, "We both know you're not really asking me my opinion. You are just trying to frame a demand all nice and pretty." I roll my eyes and go sit in the armchair facing her.
The guys leave and shut the door behind themselves. I just look at this woman, and I know, she has no clue about anything. She would be lost and I would end up being her shrink if I ever opened my mouth and told her about anything of my past.
"Thank you for agreeing to speak with me Ria, your mates seem to be very worried about you and wanted you to have someone to speak with about how you're feeling."
"I am being kept here against my will, I have been kidnapped, and I have been a victim of rape." That's all I say, now I watch to see what she does.
She blinks a couple of times, looks down at the notebook in her lap, and then looks up at me, "So how does that make you feel?"
"What are you going to do about it? I ask her straight out.
Again she blinks and tries to gather herself, "I am going to speak with you and help you work through your feelings about events in your life. That's what I do, I listen."
She just failed the test big time. So I just sit in the chair and stare at her. She asks me several more questions and tries to get me to talk to her, but I am silent and just watch her squirm. This woman is clueless.
After an hour of my silence I hear a knock at the door. It's opened and all the guys pile into the room. I get up from the chair and walk out of the room without looking back. The guys don't bother asking me how it went. I'm sure she told them how it went. Not sure if she told them what I asked her and her response, but she's just another dirty cop to me.
The next nanny is a nightmare. She's like the bride of satan or something I swear. She's talking about schedules and discipline and punishments. The second she starts talking about punishments for a baby, I tell Drago to get her the fucking hell out of the house before I rip her head off. He wisely does as I request on that one, but I think he was shocked as well.
The next day, we have another meet and greet. This time I can tell right off the bat that this guy is a shrink. He screams it with his suit and his briefcase, and his notebook on his lap. I internally roll my eyes.
I go sit dutifully in the chair just like I did last time. This time though he tries to wait me out for a few minutes to see if the silence will make me cave. I have to internally laugh at that.
"Your mates have expressed to me that they think you are suffering from depression, and have thoughts of possibly harming yourself. They wanted me to speak with you about it." he just watches me.
"I'm being held here against my will, I have been kidnapped, and I have been and continue to be raped." Now I leave it in his court.
"I'm not a law enforcement officer Ria. So I don't' need to speak with you about what someone else is doing. I want to speak with you about you."
I have to sigh at that, "Dear god when did so many people lose the plot. You are required by law to report crimes that are being committed. You are required to report if I am trying to harm myself, or if I am being harmed by anyone else. You not reporting this is a violation of your license. So Dr. are you prepared to lose your license because you'd rather kiss my mates' asses and play good little boy with them, or are you going to obey the law and report them for what they are doing to me?" I wait.
"I think that will be all for today Ria. You can leave now." I laugh hysterically. Then I walk out of the room past very confused mates.
Hopefully, this will be the last of these stupid attempts to get someone here to "fix" me for them. That's never going to happen unless by some miracle they find someone who actually cares about what's happening to me. Of course, they won't be able to do anything, but even attempting to would mean they were honest, and doing their job. I would actually talk to someone like that.
Now, we see what they throw at me next.