Why did all that energy suddenly vanish? I had that bastard where I wanted. This useless body couldn't just last five more minutes.
I really am a fool. I've spent so long believing in karma. Not only did that belief get shattered but it was by those who I thought I could trust my life with. Who am I kidding, with what I've done it's probably my karma coming back to bite me… Maybe I do deserve this. I've survived this long, even a toddler would understand how much blood and tears I've used to last this long in the game, plus it was getting kind of frustrating to begin with.
But still, it sucks to go out in such a pathetic way. If mom or dad was watching from beyond, they'll definitely be sad. I wanted to leave with a bang so they won't be too upset in the afterlife. But knowing their characters, they'll probably not get over it for a while.
What's going to happen to me now? Now that I'm dead. All of a sudden I felt my life flash before my eyes and as if it was reminding me again, it was anything but pleasant. I'd hardly call that a life at all. But even if it was that bad, I didn't want to die, and I certainly didn't want to see my mistakes repeating in front of me, over and over again. This is messed up, why did it turn out like this. Maybe it would have been different if I had listened to dad from the beginning. I probably won't have invited those guys to join us… maybe dad would still be alive then.
Ack! Why did mom have to raise me in such a delicate way? I don't want to blame anyone for my shortcomings, especially them. But still I can't help but feel foolish for not seeing it so clearly.
Dammit!, how long am I going to be trapped here? I don't know where the hell I am but it feels like I'm floating in a dark abyss. Is this how the afterlife is meant to be? it's not what I was expecting, it's also kind of sad now.
But I don't feel sadness. I don't want to feel sadness. If I'm to feel sadness then I would have already lost to those bastards— They won't get away that easily not with what they've done. I promise this rage will not not flicker even if a million years is to pass, even if I'm to reincarnate to that of a beast I will find whatever creature your soul may have possessed, and I'll make sure you die gruesomely, in the most horrendous way possible. I'll kill you! I'll kill you!!, I'll kill you f**king bastards!!!
[I'll definitely get my revenge]
[Mr Preston, I don't suppose there's a problem]
[Eh! Where… am I?]
My senses… I can feel them. They are all back, I can also move my body unlike before. Strange. I could have sworn I lost everything just a few minutes ago. All I had left was a heavy feeling in my chest that was… hold up am I in a classroom right now. Weird, how did I wound up in one?Does one even still exist?
[Leonard Preston— is something wrong]
Who keeps calling me… that's my name but everyone hardly use it, I don't know if anyone even remembers it anymore. Although I kind of recognize her for some reason. It's fuzzy from what I remember but she does look like my high school teacher, wait up now that I think of it. This classroom?… why does it look so much like my highschool's?
This is really freaking me out right now, it definitely looks like my old class but what's going on. Am I in some kind of weird hallucination or something?
[Mr Preston if there's not a problem I suggest you sit back down]
[Uh!… right]
That's certainly Mrs Dowsky, even her expression is gotten to the finest detail, but out of everywhere I start to dream about, why does it have to be in one of the most boring classes in existence. Is this death way of welcoming me to hell? Well it doesn't matter I'll snap out of it sooner or later…
At least that's what I thought would happen or maybe some freaky shit was going to jump out and pull me back into the abyss but nothing strange happened. It was crazy how it felt like a normal day in class. That I began to think maybe this might actually be reality. Everyone reacted like the world wasn't just in its final days and possibly, their expressions and reactions made it look like I was the only one acting a little out of it. You got to be kidding if this keeps up I might actually go crazy. Hold on, let me try.
[Ack!]
I feel pain like I normally would, plus I'm bleeding like a normal person. I'd say I could have found simpler ways to get a grip on my situation other than poking my finger with a pen. But since I didn't wake up even after this. Does this mean… I'm not dreaming.
[You going to be sitting in daze all day?]
Uh, this's supposed to be my classmate right, she's the vice president if I'm not mistaken… shit how should I act, I don't remember how I interacted with others during my school days. Would they figure out something is wrong with me? What could she want from me?
[The bell rang thirty minutes ago… look everyone's already gone]
Ohh, I see, the whole place is empty now. I was thinking to myself all day that I probably lost track of time.
[Thanks. I'll be heading out now]
Seriously I don't get it at all, time flows like it normally would, not to mention the way everyone is interacting without a care in the world. Should I just go along with it?
[I'm telling you the dude's been acting weird all day, he practically looks like a mummy now]
[Hmm,Talk about fast aging. Maybe he couldn't handle how bad his results were or something, you should have seen the look on his face when he stood up in class. I thought he was actually going to murder someone]
[Scary!, maybe he might actually go through with it. I mean loners like him tend to do some wild things, isn't that the reason why he only has one friend]
[Yeah, I'm kind of feeling sorry for the poor guy now]
Or maybe not. How stereotypical. Honestly, you can't go a day without running into one of this bunch; it's like they've got nothing going for them. Still I normally wouldn't care about what others say about me, but this time, they've certainly got my attention. I can't believe I almost forgot— that he's supposed to be around…
[Hey, Reo, where you running off to?]
And there it is, even without having to look at his face, I can already feel my blood boil, from just his voice alone my heart's darkened with unbearable hatred. Afterall, that was the only noise I had to listen to, every single time I heard myself scream. Right now, I want nothing more than for him to experience that pain I felt. It's a miracle I haven't lost it yet, but I have to control myself now. It's agonizing, but I have to hold back. This Luke is not the one I remember, I can't do anything to him until I get a better grasp over what's going on— so pull yourself together.
[I, was just heading home early this time]
[For real. You know, I've been waiting outside all day, what took you so long?]
It's not as hard as I expected. I thought the moment I saw his face, I was going to snap but if anything, it made me calmer. That's good I can't give myself out too early.
[Don't mind me, I was having a rough time clearing my head that I lost track of time]
[Did your test score's suck that much?]
[Sorry?]
[Uh? Everyone's been talking about your reaction all day and how bummed out you've been acting. Damn, I didn't think a single test score could change someone so much]
Hmm, is that what everyone's yapping on about, guess the rumors have been spreading that I failed some test, where the heck did they come up with that. I don't remember failing a grade during my school days, much less moping over it. Nevertheless, how can he already know about that, he's supposed to be three classes away from mine.
[Say, why don't we cheer you up. I happen to know just the place. C'mon let's branch by the store for a bit… I heard they've got the new series released today]
[You mean, the store my mom owns]
[...What's with the look Reo? Is something bothering you?]
I guess people's personalities always have some similarities regardless of which life— here he goes feeling sorry for me, when he's obviously trying to get ahold of free things.
[I'll be heading home— I have something important to do so you don't need to bother yourself with me... See you around]
I've got a better control over my emotions than I expected. That's good, it's also good to know he's still the sadistic maniac I remember— no matter even if you've yet to commit your inhumane thoughts, that won't stop me from getting my revenge.
[See you around… I guess]
I'll be sure to make you suffer in the most unimaginable way first. Before giving you the most pathetic death you can ever imagine...