"I LOVE HER"
"You keep getting more deep and deep, you don't sound like somebody who wants to escape this love", Angel #2 said, Theodore smiled and chuckled softly, "I know how it sounds, but it's just out of my control, even the dreams", he said.
"Theodore, I picked up a part where you said you don't want her to erase your memory, throughout this conversation, you sound like a guy who wants to save a relationship instead of sounding like a guy who is trying to move on", Angel #1 said.
"I'll say this, I have the most purest love in my little heart for this beautiful person and I can't stand the thought of living in a world where she doesn't exist or where I don't give a damn about her, I love her so much and..", Theodore said and paused as if he imagines her face.
Angel #3 stepped in and asked, "How do you love a person who hasn't showed you any kind of love in almost 2 years?", Theodore scoffed and nodded his head, "That's the part my Angel, I hate how I love her unconditionally", Theodore said and then he flipped a page with dismay.
HE PROCEEDED TO READ..
"UNCONDITIONALLY "
Woke up with a racing heartbeat, tried to catch a breath but it felt like I had been crying internally for the entire night, I'm like the lost part running around in bad places without the best parts of me.
Sometimes I'm doing good in my own world without a single thought of her, sometimes she haunts me in my sleep where I can't even wake up and then, I open my eyes to a reality that I prefer less than the dream, I hate how I love her unconditionally.
If I could, I would write the perfect piece to illustrate the depth of this shit that I'm facing, how can I explain the part that when a man is stuck in love with a woman he no longer can have, his world turns upside down and he just never finds peace? He can distract his mind with meaningless things but he will never find peace because every single thing leads him back to the starting point.
I just hate the way I love her unconditionally, even though we barely talk anymore and she's moved on, I still love her, I still hold the best interests for her and I still enjoy the pleasure of having her presence in my dreams at night, I hate how I love her unconditionally.
Until I'm done loving her, these are the emotions I'll be facing.
"HEAVENLY"
What is she made of, what's in her lips and what kind of perfume does she wear? She's got the perfect body, softest skin and the warmest embrace, everytime I hear that voice, it soothes every ugly emotion and it awakes my undying love, it's like everything about her is heavenly.
She was created perfectly, God took His time and devoted His full attention when He had her in mind, with all of our history, I feel like she's the only key to my heart and anybody else interests just my sexual appetite.
I'm tryna find peace in her absence, even though the reminiscence of her presence haunts me in the middle of the night, she's just so beautiful and a one-of-one kind of a girl.
She glows beautifully in her element, she speaks life, she exudes a calming effect and she feels like a Godsend that I lost but that's not the point..
What is she made of, what's in her soul and what kind of heart does she love with? Her spirit is so beautiful.