Sometimes I wish that I could sit and talk to you.
But I would never put you through,
The type of things that you would do.
I'm not the vengeful type.
I wish naught but the best for you.
And I pray that all your sleepless nights
Become a bit more restful, too.
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I still love you.
I can't
And will never again
Lie to myself...
But that love was forged in hell,
Shit, it's still jarred upon that shelf...
I thought I could bring the light to you,
Sneak in with all my stealth...
But your darkness snuffed that starlet out,
It robbed me of my health...
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I cried this morning
As I read those older texts,
Because I realized
You never wanted me,
You only wanted rest.
Then I realized again
That I was better than your exe.
I didn't deserve all those beatings,
I survived with what was left.
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When you said that you were sorry,
It was three years past too late...
Why the fuck did you even bother
Throw that shit upon my plate?
I was nothing but a giver,
You just ate, and ate, and ate
And
In the end
You only said sorry
So I would fucking stay...
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I try so hard to be over this,
I know I'm over you.
I just get so lost in thinking
Of the shit that you would do.
All the questions in my head
They keep me coming back to you.
Only because I need answers,
Please...
Just tell me it was true...
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Tell me that the fuckin love I gave meant something to you then?
Tell me that you cared a little bit, at least there, near the end...
Tell me that it wasn't me, that I was more than a good man!
Tell me that you know that you were wrong, and that we can't be friends!
Tell me that you fucking never loved me, that you were just alone.
Tell me that the shit you blamed me for was always in your phone...
Tell me that the love I gave you wasn't wasted...
That you saved it...
That you still have it...
All that love I gave.
You have it there, for me.
Tell me that it's not all useless, even though you never used it!
Tell me that it still can breathe through all the ways that you abused it!
Tell me!
Tell me!
TELL ME!!!!!!
Tell....
Me....
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Sometimes I wish that I could sit and talk to you...
But I could never face you again,
I don't know that I could control my tongue.
Even you don't deserve
All the pain you put me through,
But I just like to think
That we were dumb,
Yeah, we were young...
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I wish you nothing but the best, Joanna...
If you ever see this,
Know that my last gift to you
Was walking away forever...
I will always love the you that I met when I was 16.
She was the best friend that I always wanted,
And the love that I never knew
That I never needed.