18th May
Greetings. It has been a while since I have last conversed with you, but a lot has happened. For the past couple of nights, I have been envisioning (as well as planning) my experiment.
I won't be able to start as large as these new "humane" guidelines that were invented a couple of years ago limit me from vast exploration. Such rules that are placed by us humans have brought about shackles onto science. We continue to live, one hand behind our back, minds filled with rubbish moral, and people trying to please themselves with such empty principles.
However, the matter at hand has been completed, and I have acquired enough leeway that I can conduct my experiment to the best of its ability. I have been granted permission to use a few candidates who are human for this experiment. If my hypothesis is indeed correct, I will be on the brink of the greatest revolution in all of man's history. So, I will write down the type of procedure that I will be conducting here. In case my memory begins to fail me- which I add is impossible- so that I can not always have something to work with.
The people will be kept inside my lab for a couple of months. They will not be able to have contact with one another but will be told of the presence and whereabouts of each other, so that they can continue to hold onto the hope of knowing another soul is near, making them much easier to manipulate. Next, I will put through each one of them from minimal to excruciating pain. Pain is the easiest way to trigger fear and also the easiest way to control them. Depending on the reaction, I may or may not have to alter my methods, but for now, this is the best solution. They will remain in this confined laboratory with no sign of the sunlight, but I will have created an artificial substitution.
Money is not the problem, for I am gifted enough to have inherited a vast amount that could not be wasted even if I continued to spend endlessly till I die. I need people. Ones from different ages and gender. Being granted only five people to conduct on, I must choose my participants carefully. I have decided to split between three females and two males. Two children, one teenager and two adults. This is the most optimal way I can conduct my experiment.
Furthermore, I have also begun to read much more into the human mind and its relationship with fear. Fear can interrupt processes in our brains that allow us to regulate emotions and other information presented to us, reflect before acting, and act ethically. Such an interesting component of our daily lives that, in a matter of seconds, brings forth the drastic of changes. To harness such power will be profitable.
I must continue to thank and reflect on my unusual experience that has triggered such thoughts into my mind. For countless years, I have been living like a mindless animal, following the crowd and continuing my role like a good dog for the bigger society. Not anymore! As scientists, we are urged to break free from such shackles and continue to press forward never looking back, because if we do, all we will see is that bloody trail that follows us wherever we go.
To explore is to kill. And to kill is what defines us. We are all sinful creatures that have plagued this world with our stench. It is time to make use of our true nature.
Forward!
19th May
This will be a brief conversation as I am in a constant state of hurry so far. I have started the building of the artificial substitution that will, in contrast, be only a ball of light with no purpose to its existence. It will only be used as a means to bring comfort to my participants as creating such an artificial substitute is near impossible and will take up time that I do not have.
Time. Our mortal enemy. For all the money in the world cannot be enough to subdue it. It is killing me slowly as I pass through space with it, and I must complete my work before it has taken me over.
Instead, I have decided today to hide in pills into the subject's food to provide the vitamins that are necessary. I must hurry. There is no need to continue to extend this work. It must be completed now. The next time we meet will be when I begin my experiment. May god be with you, and hopefully me.
Goodbye.