What is pain?

Chapter 1 Today I am lying on my bed and trying to fell asleep. Omg! it's already 12:16 am now. I can hear it's raining outside and it's actually disturbing me. You might be thinking why I m disturbed? My house is not made up of bricks and cements. I am already 16 this year.I am passed my school level too. My friends are planning to enjoy their college life. Here only I am thinking about to have part time job. It's pendemic time caused by corona virus. I am staying at home during lockdown. But I want to join some part time jobs quickly . You might be thinking why I m so eager to work? Actually I also want to enjoy my life but I don't have time for funs. As elder daughter of poor family I must support my family ,I must be something . I couldn't sleep still. May be because I am thinking so many things. But I couldn't stop my brain to think and play words in mind. what can I do??