Distance- loneliness that does all those means, ever since O left that institution I have never met him again which still pains me. The only clue I have is our letters we write sometimes. Even with all our intelligence we have we still can't be together even tho that is what I want. The irony in my heart hurts so bad but I must endure if I want to meet him again.
When I arrived at my birth parents place although I feel at peace I want to be with him, his eyes and figure are still the things I have in my mind all day. The horror of the Nexus Institution also still remains in my mind day to day. Even as one of the three top students of the institution I still can't track him down.
Then as I sighed on the couch watching my shadow on the wall my little sister approached it. Yuki; why are you her sighing like it is the end of the world, the question hanged in the air without me answering. I responded that I was thinking about someone who was close to me. Jesmel( Yuki's little sister ) teasing asked: did you have a crush on him. And I blushed a little and said of course not while looking like a red tomato!. With a loud voice I said to her to stop but she still kept teasing me, and for a moment I wondered if I should knock her out before I die of embarrassment.
With the teasing going our parents thought that we were having a sibling moment not knowing I am being teased at. And with all that having been going on this moment are the things that really keeps me going on without fail.
The family I have here is wonderful and my dream is not being fulfilled yet but I promise to keep fighting no matter the circumstances. And with this will was made to keep fighting for my loved ones and to protect them with all my strength. Then a day later, when I walked to the mail box and saw his letter that he wrote to me. And the content of the letter shocked me to the core. The letter he wrote was contested with information about a governmental school owned by the previous Chair man. The man who beat my father in the race of the chair man, making him create the institution. And now we will be using him as a shied for us because since it is a government school his power doesn't reach there. So he can't expel me if he wanted to and it will be 4 years for now, so what it still pretty early for him to bring it up. Or maybe his father is still trying to get him back to the institution.