Five years before Encounter.
Beating red lights, swerving off his lane, not signalling his intentions, illegal turns, was what he could be convicted for by the traffic police under reckless driving. Though that thought never cross his mind because Hamin had to drive as fast as he could back to their apartment, "Yah! Hamin! Where the fuck are you the show is about to start! Your fans are waiting! Where the fuck are you going?!" His manager at the time huffed out.
"Sorry, manager-nim. I need to rush home something happened. Please postpone the show please I can't think anymore. I'm sorry okay I'll call later..." He couldn't even hang up. "Fuck why are there this many red lights?!" He huffed. Hamin was about to start his comeback show when he received a text from Si Woo.
SI Woo Hyung
'I cant take this anymore. Lets break up.'
Hamin, who whipped his phone out to text Si Woo so that he wont miss the live a was beyond flabbergasted when he saw the text. "No... No.. No this cant be happening." He breathes out in disbelief. He began hyperventilating, moving around frantically around the room, began to get attention from his stylist.
She was the first to notice him having trouble breathing which she then rushed to him. "Someone go fetch me water!" She screamed. Hamin is now crouched down, eyes wide, hands on his chest trying to regulate his breathing.
No, no, not now. Not when I haven't let you hear this song.
He looked up, with his palms to his face while everyone made a commotion around him. Trying to make him relax. Hamin started getting dizzy and looked around the room. "Why am I here?" He said which confuses the staff and his manager. "Hamin breathe!"
Hamin started tearing, histears rolling down his cheeks. This is not the first time Si Woo asked for a break up, but why? Why does he feel that he would really be gone this time? He scans the room once again, and finally decide to take a leap of faith and rushed for his bag. "I'm so sorry I really have to go."
He rips his in ear monitor off his ears and took off the receiver before tossing it on the sofa and grab his car keys.
Which brought us to him driving frantically, missing red lights and honking every car obstructing his way. Once he reached his apartment complex, he threw his car keys to the security and told them to park for him. He bolts to the staircase and climb the stairs as fast as he could until he reached their floor. Damn, he's fucking exhausted. His schedule has been pack for a month, he's barely eating and he sleeps like its a nap.
Then, his only breath of fresh air just demanded that they go separate waysnd his only breath of fresh air just demanded that they go separate ways to whichAnd his only breath of fresh air just demanded that they go separate ways to which he didn't even reply because he was busy rushing to their newly rented apartment. Which they just paid for its lease. Hamin suddenly thought off the day they were preparing the house. It was so good then, so why now?
He barges into their two-room apartment and rush to their bedroom. He was so glad to see SI Woo, until his smile drop when he scans the room to see multiple luggage. "Hyung, what happened?"
"Did you saw my text?"SI Woo asked while packing his clothes into a big luggage. Hamin sees that Siwoo seems to be in a rush. Hamin remove his hands from the door handle and walk to SI Woo slowly. "Yeah! I saw. What was that about cause I was about to text you that I'll be live. What did I do this time?" As he walked closer to Si Woo, he reaches his hand out to hold his hand. SI Woo shrugs his hands off and shouted,
"Don't touch me!"
Hamin, who was so stunned , took a step back and looks at SI Woo wide eyed. "Hyung...". Hamin remove his hands from the door handle and walk to SI Woo slowly. As he walked closer to Si Woo, he reaches his hand out to hold his hand. SI Woo shrugs his hands off and shouted, "Don't touch me!" Hamin, who was so stunned , took a step back and looks at SI Woo wide eyed. "Hyung..."
"Fuck!" SI Woo cursed and rummage his hair in frustration. "Don't you fucking get it?" I don't love you anymore!"
"No hyung don't say that..."
"NO YOU LISTEN! You know that's true. You knew my feelings faded and you still tried okay I fucking get it. But I don't see this going anywhere! We have our careers, our projects, our needs, and- Fuck! I just cant stand you anymore." SI Woo screamed. Hamin, who was just looking at him, screams back, "But I told you I will be taking a break!"
"Its always about you. You! Hamin-ah! I don't love you anymore don't you fucking get it?" Hamin, with tears all over his cheeks and swollen eyes, "Take that back, you don't mean it right?" He walked closer, this time he crouches down to look at SI Woo in his eyes. Hamin reaches his hand out and hold SI woo's face gently, grasping on it hard. "No.." he sobs. "You dont mean that."
SI Woo, who could feel his own tears welling up in his eyes, knew this was the final thing to be said, "I don't love you anymore, Please just let me go." Si Woo pulls his hand away and zips his luggage. Hamin, just stood there, stunned, couldn't say anything anymore. Watches Si Woo leave with clothes on his back.
Hamin knew he had to turn around and catch up to Si Woo. He ran out and yanked Siwoo's left arm so now the other male looked at him wide-eyed. "Was all the time you told me youIove me, a lie?"
SI Woo remained silent, couldn't even look at Hamin in the eyes which made him scoff, "Answer me. Was it all a lie?!" Hamin screams. "Yes! Yes it was!" The black haired male huffs out. "Is that what you wanted to hear? I fucking told you. Let me go!You're so fucking persistent, damn it."
Hamin shocks at the answer, pushes SI Woo back, "Okay! Okay go! You bastard. Guess what, while you were fucking packing your bags, giving up on us, I was about to present the song I wrote for, you! I rushed here, left my career behind to get to you but apparently, its still not enough for you! What more do you fucking want, hyung? I'm sorry but-" Hamin retorts.
"Of course I knew. I knew I was the only only trying and the only one putting in the efforts. The understanding one who fucking kept quiet when your parents kept setting you up on those dates. I was fucking patient and ignored all that because I love you." He confesses. "I drove as fast as I could to hear this bullshit. This was the comeback show I wanted to show the world before I go on fucking break."
Hamin, in anger, decides he'll let Si Woo go. He grabbed the whiskey from the table and went to their living room. He sat down in defeat, pops the bottle open. SI Woo was just watching him, yeah, this was the only way. He thought. He had to make Hamin hate him.
"Leave."
Hamin then pops open the whiskey bottle and swigs the drink in his system. He wince and wiped his mouth, while looking at Siwoo. "Leave before I stop you." He said softly. Si Woo took this opportunity to go and didn't say a word. Hamin, who was looking down at the bottle, looks up in hopes he will see Si Woo standing there. However, he watches his lover's back, walking out on him. Walking out the door, leaving him alone, in their cold apartment.
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