With trembling hands, Yugh began reading the first page. đ„
31 January 2023
I'm pregnant because of Zayan. But I can't lose this child. Last time, when I got pregnant because of Yugh, I told him and he said he didn't want to take responsibility right now⊠he told me to get rid of it. So, reluctantly, I did it. I felt uncomfortable and filled with regret for a long time after that.
This time, I've found my happiness again because of Zayan. I need to tell him about this. I believe that because he loves me, he will sort everything out and take care of me.đ€°
Where the page ended, Yugh felt as if someone had tightly squeezed his chest. Breathing became difficult.
"IâŠ" No sound even came from his mouth. đ
That day's words, his evasion of responsibility, the fear in Zahra's eyes⊠everything came to mind at once. He now understood how much pain she had endured because of his decision. But there was nothing left to change that now.
Even as his chest tightened further, with trembling hands, Yugh picked up the second page. Though afraid to read it, the need to know the truth overcame that fear. đ«
01 February 2023
Today I met Zayan. I told him everything. He was very happy, knowing he was going to be a father. Knowing that he too is very fond of children, just like me, surprised me even more. đ
His wife Anisa doesn't want to have children right now. He said she would get upset, so he has always avoided the topic. What a surprise⊠she and my husband Yugh are just alike.
But Zayan doesn't want to hurt Anisa all at once. So he promised to explain everything to her slowly and take me to him. So I too need to somehow tell Yugh about this. đ
By the time the second page ended, Yugh knew tears were welling in his eyes. Not letting them fall, he lay down on the bed. As Zahra's words burned one by one in his heart, a feeling of guilt completely enveloped his mind.
"It's me⊠it's me who's the cause of all this," he muttered to himself, lost in thought. đŁ
The path that led her into an affair was not paved by Zayan⊠nor Zahra herselfâŠ
He now understood that it was he who had paved that path.
It had now become an unchangeable truth for him that the decision he made that day had led to a life without Zahra and to his own eternal regret. đ