I kept hearing the gathering's outcry. But I can't see a thing. I am hearing everything. Pulling me on a cart, rushing through the ambulance, the CPR, Oxygen mask. I felt like I am there totally fine but can't see anything.
I understood that I am not giving up in my life. I want to live. I don't want to die yet. Not that fast. I want to hug Johan again. Live somewhere happy, there will be no one. Just me and him. I want to see him again. I can't let him die for me. For my deed, by my enemy, for my sins.
I stopped hearing everything. Just the sound of the life support. So, my heart is downing. So, I am dying, right?
I found myself somewhere so beautiful. I was feeling so light weighted. I am standing in the middle of an ocean where's no end. I was floating there, as my feet drowned in the water. So misty winds. Then I saw few memory taps surrounded by me. Every memory, everything of mine. Meeting Johan, all my past bad deed's record, scoffing not to enter this underworld and after a while all those vanished. Everything became dark.
I am landing somewhere. In a hospital. I am seeing myself in an operation theater. How the doctor's trying to stop bleeding. Nurses screaming, the pulse rate and BP's getting low. I tried to reach out, touch thing's but I can't. I couldn't even touch my body out there. I understood I have no time left, beside someone's cart leaving front of me, face covered. After I saw the hand, my heart shattered into pieces. So, it's Johan. They are taking him to the morgue. I ran after them. Just last one glance. I want to see him. Touch him again. Hug him tight. As they running forward, I couldn't reach anymore. My soul leaving from there. Like something vacuuming me up. I am trying my best to stay there. But it's out of my strength. I gave up. It's time for leaving then.
Thanks God. At least I don't have to live with this burden. I don't deserve living. I am preparing for the hell.
I found myself standing in a seashore. I felt I was there before. Maybe I lived there before. I am walking forward as my heart leading me. A mansion. So old and black. The door was locked. Seemed like no one stays there. I touched the entrance door. My head stroked like with a thunder. I am remembering something. I lived there. It's that Island. So, this is my that house. Leaving with my parents. There is accident.
My head was bursting in pain. Like someone hitting it with an axe. I couldn't take anymore. My heart pounding as it will explode. I tried not to fall, so that I reached to grab the front staircase I felt I am not in the surface. I can't touch anything anymore.
Before I could understand I felt two mysterious all black and tall like sky touching people grabbed me to take up. My eyes couldn't believe what's happening. If I am dead, then I am supposed to be at hell. But what is happening with me. My mouth like sealed. I can't even say a word. Just seeing everything with surprise. Then I became bound to them. Like they are taking me somewhere, Underworld?
A beautiful bridge. Two of that mysterious man standing beside there. Now I could see their head but that also covered with black bamboo conical cap. Though I could see it, but They are still taller than any tall tree from earth. One came to me with a bowl of water. Signing me to drink. By their scary black appearance, I couldn't help but obey but before that another came near gave me a flute, That jade ceramic flute. Maybe I seen it somewhere. Then I felt an awkward squeeze in my heart. Tear's dropping on the ground. I took it, as I touched it in a minute I fell on the ground. It's his.
This is my Xiao Lin's.
I looked at them as they reached for me with that bowl. Then I looked around, I understood it's the River of Lethe flowing under this reincarnation passing bridge, and the water they giving me is that Lethe water.
I remembered every single thing about my past lives. About me being Chen Jun.
I denied drinking it. I started to walk through the bridge and in the middle of there I felt I am disappearing. Then I looked back just said,
I will bear this time not to live for myself, just for him.
I knew they couldn't pass this river. As I crossed the bridge, I vanished from there in an instant. That flute left there. And there...
It also crossed the bridge.