I started the vedio with an apology.
" I am really sorry to disappoint you guys with my scandal ," I bowed to the screen ," I feel like you guys deserve a proper explanation only from me ."
' We are getting livestreams in two consecutive days from this angel , so lucky !'
' It's not your fault Autumn , the media invaded your privacy '
' Protect this angel of all cost .'
' I hate the irony of scandal between male and female idols '
'Shut up , shut up , why didn't you clear the misunderstanding sooner .'
" You are right , I should have come clearer earlier ," I told them as I dragged a cleansing tissue across my face ," It is just that I did not want my brother to feel pressured by suddenly getting internet famous."
' So only YOU are allowed to be famous, huh ?'
' Don't listen to the haters , baby .'
'We support you !'
' Yeah , suddenly having unwanted attentions from the strangers might be suffocating '
Atleast some of them were agreeing . I rubbed some cleansing oil on my face as I talked ," My brother was just back from studying abroad , I wanted to spend some time with him "
' Is that why you were on leave for so long ?'
'Why lie about an accident then ?'
Ah , there it was ..
" You see .. I have been sick for a while .. I should not have lied about it to you guys ," the truth rolled out of my tongue so easily that I could not believe myself," There was no accident... But I was hospitalized after getting beaten by my father ."
'WHAT THE HELL IS SHE TALKING ABOUT ?'
'ISN'T SHE FROM THE DANE FAMILY ?'
' I HEARD HER FATHER RUNS SONE CHARITY NOW'
' IS IT ANOTHER WAY TO GET ATTENTION?'
' AUTUMN ARE YOU OKAY ?'
The chat had started to blow up , I stopped reading it .
" I had thirteen fractures, for the first month I could not walk at all ," I put a clay mask on my face. The familiar routine was calming , I could pretend that I was just talking to myself," There is hospital reports on everything. But considering our family reputation, I could not report anything. It took me sometimes to finally run away from my father's house ."
I closed my eyes and took a deep breath .
" Walking was not as something hard as trying to see myself as human being , at some point there ,I would wonder if a world outside the pain ever existed ," I blinked and let the tears fall down ," Even if I am out of that hellhole , at night I would if the next morning I would wake up and find myself before my father again ."
I took my time to go to the bathroom to clean my face and come back .
" I still wonder ...if I could dance again . I still wonder if I can sing like before cause after everything it is just being hard being myself again ."
The door of my room bursted open .
There was my new manager with two more co-workers.
" Turn off the livestream now ," she hissed .
I noded .
I knew that they were eventually going to come for me . But I had said enough on the internet.
It was a two hours of shouting from the CEO of our agency, then from my manager and then from Summer.
Everyone called me selfish and ridiculous and said I would pay for my stupidity.
" WHY DIDN'T YOU TELL US ANYTHING??Do you think that you are children or something? Does that husband of yours even know about it ?," Rain was the one who cried all through the call ," What were you going through to do a livestream like this ?"
I could not really answer her .
I told the manager that I needed to sleep .
" Mr. Anderson is calling me , do you know him personally?," my new manager who was still unaware of my marriage life asked me.
Well , not that she needed to know more about us , now .
" No , not personally but he must be asking out of politeness," I answered her.
It was not like he would be the only celebrity to call me . I had made some friends through my years of work . He would be just one of those faces now ....nothing special .
When I was alone again , I called Daniel.
This time , though , it was Mr. Hunter who picked up the call .
" You understand that you broke our deal voluntarily, right ?"
" Yes."
" Then you are aware that your vedio will go online ."
" Yeah , I helped you , didn't I ? A vedio without proper explanation to the netizen would have been confusing ."
" It would have been easier for you to accept my offering."
" I know ....and I gave you my answer already."
I was the one who cut off the phone this time .
I knew that I would be going viral again and I did not want to be awake to watch it .
I brought out my sleeping pills that Dr.Ravesh had prescribed. I did not think that just one pill would work on me now .
I never exactly counted how many of them were there .
Four or five maybe ?
I wanted to sleep for a long time , again.
It would be better if there was no more morning for me