Hahhhhhhh
Fucking why everyone in the world was so obsessed with my marriage?
First my father , and now Liam's - everyone threatened me to talk about it on screen.
Just why ? Fucking why ?
And every fucking time , it was me , who was getting picked .
" You know that a conservative country like ours can never accept you after watching something like this ," he pointed out ," This would be end of your career , daughter-in-law."
Daughter-in-law, my foot !
" I did not do anything wrong here ," I crossed my arms .
" You know that netizens don't work by that logic ," he smirked ," You are in a small bathroom wearing nothing but a wet nightgown with your father in the picture. Do you understand what I am saying ."
I knew that he did not mean that I was just a child getting abused .
" Someone might say , it is how your father-daughter relationship goes ," he said ," I have watched all of the tapes and I will help you notice something."
The screen behind him had now frozen the vedio and various pictures were popping out .
All of me in a different position , getting beaten . Some showed with no clothes at back , some had front pictures with barely few strings covering me . One picture had me lying unconscious in my father's lap with bruises all over me , but red circles pointed out how my brain was torn and you could see the color of my underwear and you could clearly see that I had urinated on myself.
" This will give people enough fantasy ," he said ," You don't look well , why don't you go home and think about it ? But remember your livestream...unless you want to go viral next day at eight o'clock."
All I could see was darkness as I walked out of the restaurant. I did not remember how exactly I got home .
When I realised that I was standing infront of the mirror in our bathroom, I threw up everything I had eaten in the evening.
My head pounded like there were tiny hammers working inside it . I was shivering . I was sure that I was catching a fever soon.
Where did it go wrong ? What did I do wrong ?
I wondered again and again. My thoughts were running in circles , until I fell deeper and deeper into my own misery .
The pictures....if they got out , they would not just end my career , they would end everything.
I could be coming up , every time someone searched for some porns or worse .
The man who claimed to be Liam's father was absolutely right . The pictures would still be there even if I killed myself.
Going to the police felt quiet useless . A man who could kidnap me from the parking lot of the mighty Sunshine corporation, certainly had his hand on the authority..
So he damn knew that , I would have no choice but do what he wanted .
I picked up my phone , there was a sticker with a number on it .
I rang it twice and it was picked up .
" It's me Daniel , have you decided on Mr. Hunter's offering ? ," he asked .
" Yes , I will do the livestream ," I told him.
" As soon as you can , remember the clock is ticking," he sounded pleased .Then the phone cut off .
Now I could see that there were a hundred messages and missed calls from my team.
Thankfully, Summer was on a trip in Paris and Rain had probably passed out in her studio .
I was going to do something that would be like throwing them into a hurricane..
Today would probably be the last day they cld sleep peacefully.
And it had not been even a year since Winter had left us . Me , who swore to never betray my teammates and hated her for becoming a traitor just for a guy , was going to do the same today .
I called my new manager first to ask about my schedule tomorrow. Thankfully I had only classes since I had just started to work again .
I went to sit infront of my mirror and turned on my phone .
I already knew that the dream of buying an apartment with my brother was long gone now . I would not be even surprised if the agency sued me for jail time for breaching the contract .
And Andersons ? Well , I had no doubt that this would cut off their relations with me . God forbid that they got their prestige solied by my life again.
I turned on the phone screen and started the livestream.
Within just a minute a hundred of people were watching me .
" Hello lovelies , I waved at them . The city is sleeping , why are you guys still awake ?," I asked the camera .
' I couldn't sleep '
' I LOVE YOU '
'BEAUTIFUL AUTUMN '
'MARRY ME AUTUMN '
'WHY AREN'T YOU SLEEPING AUTUMN ?'
' WHERE IS WINTER ? WHEN CAN WE SEE HER?'
' DID YOU SEE PICTURES OF SUMMER IN PARIS?'
' DID THAT BITCH PALMER REALLY THREATEN YOU ?'
' YOU LOOK LIKE A DEAD BODY.'
Hundreds of messages started popping up , too fast for me to go through all of them.
I only concentrated on the messages that I could answer .
" Right ? I look like I am back from dead ," I said , putting a hand on my cheek ," I don't think that I can keep up with your expectations like this , Lovelies ."
' Lovelies ,' was the name we had decided to call our fandom two weeks back with a quote that ' All our fans are precious and they deserve love '
Somehow the fans loved it .
' NOOOO , you are pretty as an angel '
' God , even your tired face is blinding me '
' Hang in there , the industry is so tough '
' Stop being cringey on a livestream '
' You are such a pretty babby '
' Show us your ass !'
' Did something happen again ?'
' When are you going to do a fan meeting '
" Hmm , let me think , I will try to arrangea fan meeting as soon as possible cause I can't just wait to meet you guys ," I told them ," It's just that it is hard to be back again after resting for a while . But I would try my best to not disappoint you ."
' You are failing already .'
' Stop blaming Palmer for everything!'
' Hang in there , Autumn !'
' My heart is there with you !'
" Thanks for wishing me well," I bowed at the camera ," I had never felt like I had a family before meeting you guys . You guys are my whole world."
That was true . Noone loved me as unconditionally as ' Lovelies,' even when I was deep in scandal, few of them still did not forget to send wishes . Maybe that was why their expectations of me was high , cause something as previous as blind love is deserved only by those who are worthy.
Today , I am betting my everything on that love . It was mixed with desparation and faith in them.