Laughing at Kazuma's pain felt good, but my mind is full of thoughts. It hasn't been long since I joined the group chat, but Kazuma is a good person. Even if he wanted to do something to me, he wouldn't have the strength, or I'd have a counterplan.
What I'm upset about is that I was going to ask him to send me some items, but it happened so quickly. I didn't know he'd die that fast.
I have to rely on the makima for all the items, but I don't trust her. I already have 50 plans to destroy her, but the system will probably stop me when I attack the group chat members.
That's why I have to wait for Denji to handle it.
Killua, on the other hand, was never a problem from the start. Since I have Zeno's memories, I understand an assassin's mind. They don't kill unless it's necessary or they're paid for it.
Gilgamesh is the one I fear the most.
I don't think the Mystic Eyes of Death Perception could cut through Enuma Elish, at least not at my level.
Even so, if she bombards me with A-rank Noble Phantasms, I'll probably lose a few limbs because this isn't a Servant—it's a real-life Gilgamesh.
The best thing I can do is befriend him, so I'm ready to support her as much as I can. After all, we're both kings. I can understand her loneliness.
Sometimes, even when you're surrounded by people, you feel lonely. That's what loneliness is, at least for me. For me, the solution to this loneliness is Morgan and my children. Nothing else matters to me.
If I knew Orkney would be destroyed, I'd resign, flee from Britain, and go to Attila's side. After all, her nickname is the Scourge of God.
I'd take Morgan and my kids with me.
But right now, I'm facing the biggest problem because, due to my dragon lineage, it's only a matter of time before I have to go to the Reverse Side of the World. What keeps me here is probably my mind, or rather, my memories.
Even though Artoria only has the dragon's core, she doesn't understand human emotions, but that's mostly Merlin's fault. Still, we can't ignore the dragon factor.
But in my previous life, I was human, and memories shape who we are. So, when I become an adult dragon, I'll have to make a choice: either hide in the Reverse Side of the World, the Land of Shadows, or Avalon if I fully transform into a dragon.
But if I stay on the human side, I'd be accepted by Alaya. Turning completely into a dragon form is impossible in this era. I can only form dragon scales and claws.
For example, if I became a full dragon, I'd be something that defines the sun.
But if I accept my human side, I'd be something like a super Karna or even greater, or if we're talking about normal humans, like an upgraded version of Ozymandias.
Weaker than the full dragon version. The only being comparable to me would be Albion if I embraced my dragon side.
Or I could make a deal with Alaya and ask for the empty Grand Saber position. I doubt she'd refuse, especially since I have Yamato's memories, so I'm sure she'd want me, and I am one of the best swordsmen, at least in this era.
I am sure she saw me fight with Scathach.
Why did I share all my secrets with the group chat? Simple: to build trust and use that trust. Even though it makes me feel like a scumbag, these things piss me off. I'm constantly surrounded by dangerous people.
Even though I have a slight attachment to Scathach, I never thought of anything beyond a student-teacher relationship.
I could have destroyed her with my eyes, but the problem is, if I had, she would have played a crucial role in the war against Goetia. Even if she wasn't shown much in the anime, that doesn't mean she was insignificant.
At that moment, I was live-streaming. Those eyes are my greatest trump card, even more important than Ryujin Jakka.
My feelings for Scathach were real, no doubt about it, but if I said there wasn't a tiny bit of scheming involved, I'd be lying. Because what I told her was a reminder for myself.
I haven't seen her since we fought. After all, she needs time too.
While I was lost in thought, a servant mentioned that Morgan was calling for me.
I went to the bedroom. Morgan was in black lace, inviting me from the bed. Lately, she's gotten even wilder. Every time, I feel like she drains me dry.
Then, like any man would, I undressed and approached Morgan. She pulled me into her chest: "What's wrong, my husband? You're more thoughtful than usual. Let Mommy give you her milk and make you feel better."
Ah, here we go again.
(This section, I hope, answers all your questions and addresses your complaints. I wasn't joking when I said I was planning something. If you have any other issues, don't hesitate to let me know. The achievement system will get an upgrade, like those in classic chat group fanfics. There will be tasks, but our MC won't take rewards from the group chat. Instead, he'll get rewards from his own primary system.)