Paige POV:
As the flash back played in my head I told Nikolai everything. By the time I finished the story I was emotionally exhausted. He on the other hand was burning with rage. I could feel it through the mate bond. Was he angry that I had gotten pregnant?
I had been looking at the floor but he lifted my face to look at him and he had tears streaming down his face. My handsome big bad Alpha was crying. "I am so f*****g sorry! I'm so sorry I wasn't there to protect you or your baby. I'm sorry I didn't find you before he could hurt your child. I'm so sorry my Luna."
His voice cracked as he spoke and the tears continued to flow. He pulled me into his arms. "It's not your fault Nik. It's mine. I should have listened to my father. He knew Trevor was manipulating me and when he told me I flipped. I was young and dumb and Trevor had his claws deep. I should have left when he started abusing me physically and mentally but I didn't."
"So it's my fault that baby died. Not yours." I say my voice cracking and fresh tears springing to my eyes. "No my Luna, it's his fault. He knew what he was doing from the first moment he met you. He is the one who decided to do these things to you. If you want to see him and get your vengeance then fine. I'm coming with you though. I want to see the look on his face when he sees how happy you are." Nikolai whispered.
"You mean it? You'll really let me?" I asked hopefully. "Yes. I want you to be able to heal fully. Not just physically but also emotionally and mentally. I love you Paige." He said and I could feel the pure love radiating through the bond. Nikolai swiftly picked me up and my body came alive.
I captured his mouth in a kiss full of need. The need to be loved and healed by my mate. Not s*xually, emotionally. I poured my heart out in this kiss. Every touch sent waves of sparks through my body and it felt like it could heal any wound. When we parted we were both breathless and panting, our foreheads resting against one another.
We finally gathered ourselves and he put me back on my feet. "I... I don't want to go right now. It's just nice to have the option." I said sitting down in the coushy office chair that was intended to be mine. Nikolai sat in his chair and then I saw the door open. Victor and Michelle walked in,and beared their necks in submission.
We nodded and they slipped into their seats. Next was Natiri who just gave us a huge smile and a nod. We nodded back and she sat in her seat. Finally as always Rose comes barreling in with Keegan. They give a nod then sit as well. "First things first. Thank you for giving your Luna and I a private moment."
"Second the next full moon is in six days. The Luna ceremony and the mating ceremony need to come before then." Nikolai said pausing for a moment. We didn't talk about a day! "It will be four days from now. We will get back to you with details in the morning when we have had time to discuss it." I quickly finish his statement.
We descussed other pack business and then went to dinner. I ate what I could but I was so exhausted from the day. "You ready for bed my love?" Nikolai asks taking my hand gently and kissing it softly. "Yes, but that requires me to walk so I think I'll just sleep here." I say smiling. "No problem. You never have to walk again if you don't want to." He smiles cheekily at me.
Then he swoops me up from the chair and heads out of the dining hall. I chuckle as he carries me up the stairs. "You're so tiny little mate. It's adorable." Nikolai whispered. I just smiled and laid my head on his chest. I breathed his scent in deeply letting it calm me further.
I must have fallen asleep because I woke up to Nik laying me down on the bed. "I got you my love. Goodnight." Nik said then kissed my forehead as sleep took me.