*Seven months ago*
!!!!!!!!TRIGGER WARNING!!!!!!!
Paige POV:
I clutched the pregnancy in my shaking hands. No. No. No. No. But the truth is undeniable. Two pink lines clear as day. I can't let this happen to a bay. Trevor's temper has gotten out of control and I'll be dead before he hits my child. I have to get rid of this test. I can't let him know. I love him so much but I can't tell him. He said he didn't want children, he only wants me. He said having a baby would make me fat and ugly and he would divorce me. I can't let him leave me. He is all I have left.
But, I want this baby. Maybe, I can make him change his mind about having a baby. Maybe, if I promise not to get really fat and work out every day after I have the baby. Yeah, yeah. That will work. But what if he gets upset with the baby? Ugh! What do I do? I gotta keep this to myself for now. I'll make him dinner then talk to him about it.
I take the test and wrap it in toilet paper. Then I go stash it in the vent behind the couch. Once it's secure I head to the kitchen. It's 5:30pm Trevor will be home in an hour and I still have to make dinner, and lay out his clean clothes. I go to the fridge and read the note scribbled on the pad.
-I want chicken alfredo casserole with rolls.-
Ihead to the fridge and pull out the chicken breast, and the cold ingredients for Alfredo sauce. I place everything on the cold marble island. Then retrieve my KitchenAid mixer and the attachments I'll need. The last thing I grab is flour from the pantry and a box of penne pasta.
It takes me thirty minutes to put everything together and clean up. I've gotten it down to a science so I can be as efficient as possible. Then I go and lay out his clothes while the casserole is in the oven. I quickly placed everything in the bathroom the way he likes and place a clean towel on the hook in the wall beside the shower.
I scurry back down stairs and set the table the way he likes. Leaving me just enough time to hit the hardwoods with the Swiffer. As I place it back in the closet I hear his truck pull in the driveway. I quickly rush to the door and open it for him. "How was your day master?" I ask sweetly with a soft smile. He looks me over and is apparently satisfied and smiles.
"Just fine. I have a surprise for you after dinner." He winks and sits down on the bench so I can take his boots off. I kneel to take off his boots but he stops me. "Strip naked." He instructs. I do as I'm told because I don't want to get beaten. It might hurt the baby. OnceI remove the last article of clothing he rakes his eyes over me. I hope I look okay.
"You look good. Your boobs and ass look a bit thicker. I like it. But don't get out of control. You know I don't want you getting fat." He says smiling. "Yes, sir I know. I won't." I say looking at the ground. "Now take my boots off and get back dressed. I'll enjoy you later." He sneers taking out his phone. I do as I'm told then when he disappears upstairs I go to make his plate, and wait.
15 minutes later, he comes down the stairs and sits down in his spot. I have everything waiting for him. " Looks good." About halfway through his meal I decided that it's time to maybe approach this subject. "May I ask a question? " Trevor hesitates his fort halfway to his mouth. Then he finishes his bite lowers his fork and slowly wakes up at me. "What is it?" He asks slowly.
"Can I please have a baby? I promise I won't get too fat. I'll work out every day after the baby comes and I'll make sure you're not disturbed during the night. Please, Trevor, I just want to be a mom." I plead going to kneel in front of him. He looks at me for a moment bewildered then recovers quickly. "What would I get in return? Sleepless nights? You growing a big fat belly? Plus, no s*x for six weeks?"
My face falls as he scoffs. "No, I already told you I wouldn't give you children. Not even one." He sneers and throws his plate across the room. Oh, f**k. I shouldn't have said anything. I should have waited until after we had s*x when he was happier. He grabs me by my hair and drags me to the hall. "I'm sorry! I'm sorry! I won't ever ask again. Please!" I shout.
"I know you won't." He takes me to the bottom of the stars and throws me down. "Please, master. Please, I'll be good. I'll be your good girl. I'll never want a baby again. I promise." I continue my line of om sorries as he begins to kick me and beat me. I tried but I couldn't protect the baby. He took my sweet baby's life that day. But for a while I thought I still loved him.
Thank the Moon Goddess for sending me Nikolai and Kaelen. Now I know what love is meant to be.