I woke up in sudden. The sun beamed in bright. I rubbed my eyes and sat up. Finally the night was over and it was a new day. I looked around and I wasn't in my apartment with Chan-Yeol, I was in my dorm. I was almost afraid to even pick up my phone. Nonetheless I grabbed it and prepared for whatever was there. When I tapped to turn it on, the first name I looked for was Chan-Yeol name. 9 missed calls, 4 messages. There was a sense of excitement that he was riled up. For the first time in weeks, I felt an urge to feel that excitement again. It made me feel better. I opened his messages.
Ha-Yun, where are you?
Ha-Yun you better be on the way home.
I'm coming.
Just come home when you wake up.
The sudden switch in text left me disappointed. What happen last night? I don't remember much. I started to pick through the night. Jae-Min. The Handsome mystery guy. Who was he really? I saw some messages from Jeong-Min.
Don't worry we told Chan-Yeol we took you to your dorm because you threw up.
Let us know when you get home.
Don't give Jae-Min a hard time.
What? Jae-Min took me home. What were Jeong-Min and Eun-Ae thinking. I guess they don't really care about Chan-Yeol anymore. As I stood up, I noticed I wasn't in my clothes from last night. Wait. I looked around for my clothes and I couldn't find them. I started to feel a wave of anxiety. What happen when he dropped me off? There is no way I opened that much up. I don't have a text message from a random number or any number labeled under his name. Oh no, what did I do. I opened my shorts and stared down, I didn't see any blood, nor do I feel pain in my legs. Maybe I didn't. That still didn't explain my missing clothes. I can't believe I got drunk on a Wednesday. What do I do now, I have no ways of contacting Jae-Min, I guess I could look around, but that might take too long. I checked the time and I had to be to class in 20 minutes. I ran to the shower.
## Jae-Min POV
The stars looked a little brighter tonight than usual. I should be celebrating getting my own studio with my friends but I can't feel any relief. I hope I find time to even start working. picking up jobs for sculpting isn't too popular, but this city pays more. As long as I have enough money to send to my mom and little brother, I'll be satisfied.
"Hi, Jae-Min ssi." Some girls said as passing me.
I flashed a smile of course. College is basically an all you can eat buffet of hot girls. I guess I can benefit selfishly from the city at least. As my eyes follow the girls into the bar, I was going to follow but I was distracted by an auburn copper headed girl who seemed to be halfway in her mind. She was on the phone and looked like she was going through a break up. I was going to mind my business until I heard the word wife. I turned back to get another look. She looked so young to be married. Did her husband do something bad? After the yell she fell quiet. I stepped in with some words.
"You sure told him?" I said approaching.
What was I thinking. Did I feel bad because of how my mom was left to suffer when my dad left. Left to do whatever we could have imagined. I guess it would have been a lot more relieving and easier to cope if we had an exact answer. Instead he left without a trace. It sounds like he cheated. Should I help her? Then again, they are married and who knows if this is the normal. When she turned to me she had these bright purple eyes that were so soft looking. I wanted to take her at that moment. What ruined the thought was the fact that tears clung to her lids, as if she was refusing to let them go. I stared for awhile. I wanted to be involved with her. More of an intrusive thought. I might look bad because she is a freshman I believe, I never seen her around before.
I eventually left after seeing how downhill it was going, and went back into the building to find her friends. I walked up to a table where at least 4 of them was in her same condition.
"Park Ha-Yun, she is outside, she looks pretty drunk." One of the girls that still looked in her right mind stood up.
"How am I going to take care of her and Eun-Ae?" She said placing her hand on her head.
"Well, I don't mind taking her back home, we are acquainted now."
She looked at me with suspicion.
"Aren't you Chun Jae-Min?" She asked.
"That would be me." I said with a smile.
"Yah, make sure you give me a call when she gets home, and by the way take her to this dorm." She typed a room number and her number in my notes.
I started to walk out the door, but was stopped.
"Jae-Min, don't try anything on her or the next time I see you, I'll make sure you'll never do anything ever again." She said making a hint.
What a weirdo, why would she think I would be a pervert, I'm not even drunk, I should be worried about her friend. I heard when women get drunk they turn into different creatures. Honestly with my time in college, I believe it. When I went back outside she was throwing up. I grabbed her hair and pulled it back and grabbed her from wobbling around. She must not do this often. She started to turn to me and went a little limp in my arms. Well this isn''t a good position to be in. I picked her up and walked to my car. As we pulled up on campus, I dropped her off at a different building than where I am. I was grateful that no other people were outside to see me. I forgot she needs an ID to get in, I started checking her pockets, I found her ID. Even on her ID she was pretty cute. So innocent looking. I scanned her and took her inside, It still looked bare in her room, little decor here and then but I remember she mentioned being a wife on her phone. Maybe she was moving out.
"Ha-Yun, you need to get in new clothes." I stated trying to wake her.
She was halfway up and looked around. She started snatching her clothes off. I turned around immediately and. Started making my way to the door.
"Wait!, I need help. Don't leave yet Chan-Yeol." I felt a jolt of disgust.
"How cruel" I said With a smirk.
## Present - Next Day
Walking into class I somehow felt saved from all the at home bullshit I had to deal with. I can focus on something that will actually help instead of hurt. I made it with almost 2 minutes to spare. I sat down and started going through my book. Good thing this isn't a class that heavily works my brain. I heard a loud rowdy bunch of people come through the door and I turned to see what was going on exciting to be that loud. I saw a broad chested man with athletic clothes on. I looked up and He has black hair with gold eyes. Oh no it's him. Chun Jae-Min. My heart started beating extremely fast. I was nervous. But why. I tried within minutes to recall the night. What was he doing here, was I going to have to explain myself. Did he remember what I was saying on the phone? I'm losing it.
"Ah, Ha-Yun." I heard from a pretty husky voice.
I looked up to see him standing directly in front of me. He had a bright smile.
"H-hi Chun Jae-Min." He turned to a look of confusion.
"What's with the formalities? I think we are passed that." What did he mean?
"Huh?" I felt like I could break sweat.
"How did you sleep? I'm sorry I left in a hurry, things were getting a little hot." He wasn't being clear.
Did something happen between us? Oh no. What did I do? Who started it. Is that why I was in night clothes? Did he put them on me? I think I might lose it from all these unanswered questions.
"Left in a hurry? What are you talking about?" I asked.
"Well I left your dorm in a hurry this morning, I didn't want you to think I was ditching you." Ditching? Huh?
"Um I don't-" I was cut off from the professor walking in.
"We will talk about it after class." He whispered.
I couldn't focus. Did I do something with him and forgot? No way I would have broken my virginity to him. I mean of course he was handsome and word savvy, but I don't know him.
## Chan-Yeol POV
I woke up glaring at the ceiling, wondering why my life has become a shit show. Could I be mad at her? I definitely heard a guy voice in the back, but that's not possible. Ha-Yun doesn't have male friends. It's not like she will do anything with them anyway. She will never do anything to hurt me. Yoo-Na. I'm grateful that Ha-Yun didn't see me when I was with Yoo-Na last week. It's starting to get comfortable seeing her while Ha-Yun is at work. Last week I got to caress Yoo-Na's firm body in my hands. The face she made while crawling for the pillow while I thrusted the way I imagined any woman would appreciate. We were so tied together that hours passed and I almost forgot to pick up Ha-Yun on time. Yoo-Na was a sense of freedom, she dressed the way she wanted without a thought of who was watching or judging. She has her own car, and is almost done school for physical therapist. Other than Ha-Yun who was going for a writer job. Nothing to provide our family with future wealth for when she leaves us. I should be enjoying the married life. Ha-Yun was still fresh and untouched. A Virgin with an incredible body, supple breast, and firm butt. She was curvy like enchanted characters people drew because they couldn't find women like it in real life. BUT, she was conservative, never wanted to live life on the edge. Barely wore makeup, and didn't want to show me any skin that made me want to lose it in the moment. Yoo-Na. For some reason I couldn't get her out my mind, she was different than Ha-Yun. I think I'll enjoy this for a little while longer. Ha-Yun will come back, Maybe If she changes her approach to things, I'll get to experience sex with a virgin. Maybe life is better than just sitting at home.
## Present
I anxiously was watching the clock. I was scared yet excited to hear what possibly could have transpired. I found myself staring at the back of his head and wishing he would turn around so I maybe can read his face. I watched his neck, then his shoulder and arms. They were all fit, proportioned. There is no way I would have forgotten a night with him.
"And that's all today! Do not forget your outlines next class!" I straightened up to try and focus. Everyone started to leave, but me…..I couldn't move. I was stuck between pretending not to care and waiting for him to acknowledge me. Am I acting pathetic by waiting? I started gathering my books, maybe I was overthinking and It's not that bad. I quickly tried to walk away.
"Ha-Yun." He said my name.
I turned to see His mischievous smile. He walked up to me. He took a finger and touched my hair.
"It's still wet, did you rush to take a shower today?" He leaned into me.
He's not even telling me what is going on. He's teasing me. I felt my face heat up.
"I didn't rush." Was all I managed to say.
He smiled and began walking. I thought he had something to say. Why is he beating around the bush, It's making me feel more anxious.
"Well, are you coming? Unless you wish to have your night explained out in the open." He flashed a sinister smile.
He seemed to be getting excited from playing around with me, to see me so desperately interested in only something he knows the answers to. I followed beside him. We made it to an open area where there was a nearby bench. There was still people walking around, but I imagine no one was eavesdropping into our conversation. He sat and waited for me. I sat down awkwardly.
"Ha-Yun…..If you keep making that face, I might do something bad." He stated as he covered his face.
I saw his ears turn red. What is he thinking about?
"What?" I nervously said.
He leaned towards me.
"What would you like to know?" He asked.
I didn't know what to say. Maybe I should pretend not to remember the whole and night and have him tell me from the moment he met me what happened. Honestly I remember everything up until I started throwing up. I don't know my mind d was spinning with instant regret.
"What happened?"
"Be specific, happened with what?" I shuddered.
He is having way too much fun I wanted to pop his bubble.
"Well, I know nothing happened between us, so what did you hear me say on the phone?" Something in his demeanor changed.
"Are you sure nothing happened between us? I am the one that brought you to dorm XX." I started to feel less confident.
"Jae-Min, What happened, hurry and tell me before I just leave. " I stood up.
He reached out and grabbed my hand. When I looked at him his face was down and It seemed to be a little gloomy.
"Ha-Yun, you're really no fun. I was going to tell you, but I decided to have fun when you confident that we didn't do nothing." He was playing.
"What's so fun about a drunk girl who can't even remember a drunk night, with a random guy when she has a husband." I blurted out.
I might have said it too loud because I was getting some weird faces from people around. Jae-Min started to explain the night. The more he spoke the more I got a little excited, as If I was reliving this moment over and to just hear how he saw things in his eyes. Was I a little crazy for thinking like this? In the end he explained that I undressed myself which was a relief for me. Before I thought about anything else, I remembered that Chan-Yeol was suppose to pick me up. I started to get nervous a bit.
"Oh, I have to go." He had a look of disappointment.
"Of course, busy woman." I looked a bit confused.
"Well, it's just-" He cut me off as I was about to explain.
"Let's go together, I'm going in that same direction." I didn't think this was a good idea.
"Oh no need it's ok." He shot a look of frustration to me."
"Now what kind of guy would I be if I sent a lady off by herself?"
I was hesitant, but I guess I'll allow it for now. As we walked I felt a bit wrong, that I was walking with another man.
"How are things?" He asked.
Should I tell him? I don't know if it will be wise, then again he heard our conversation.
"Well, I kind of didn't talk to him yet." I scratched the back of my head.
"How do you know he's even coming to get you?" He made a smirk as if he was hoping for different.
"Well I don't know really? I guess I'm use to him always being there." I didn't really have a right answer for this.
## Jae-Min POV
From the moment I asked to walk with her she seemed nervous. Will I make things more complicated? From what it sounded like last night, he cheated on her. Maybe I'd be doing her a favor by standing by her side.
"How are things?" I didn't want to walk in silence.
"Well, I kind of didn't talk to him yet." She stated nervously.
Good. Maybe he needs to feel what it's like to betray someone. Though I don't know all of their problems, She seems to be an ok girl. Beautiful, innocent to response. She didn't even try to use me as an excuse last night to get revenge. I wish she had kind of.
"How do you know if he's even coming to get you?" She seemed to be relying on faith.
"Well, I don't know really, I guess I'm use to him always being there." She said casually.
Dummy. You who was hurt so bad last night, still rely on someone who has shown you he can't be trusted. I don't know if I should praise her humility or scold her for her blindness to neglect. I was kind of interested in what this guy looked like, what major he was, what girl could he have possibly found better. As we got closer to the front of the campus she stopped and froze. I stopped and turned to the direction she was facing. There was a group of people who were just hanging out. Her face seemed numb, that it was sad. As if life was stolen from her that very second her eyes set on them.
"Ha-Yun?" I asked.
She never broke view. The only ones that were touching was this guy with brown tinted hair and a girl whose face wasn't special and her clothes were so tight breathing must be abnormal. Was this her husband? I can't see her with someone like him. How shameless, he's not even worried if he is caught or if Ha-Yun is walking around in between classes. Pathetic.
## Ha-Yun POV
There he was. On campus but not for me. He was with that girl again. What's this feeling. Embarrassment, a sink into despair. Before I forced my mind to forgive. To believe it was a mistake, and that he was sorry. That maybe life was uneasy for him and he messed up and lost himself. But this…. This was disrespect. I felt frozen, like I didn't know what path to take now. What makes this all the worst, Jae-Min was beside me watching. Did he think I was an idiot? Did he think I was a sad case? Chan-Yeol didn't even look scared or nervous. No remorse for my pain. Maybe because I didn't make it home, he thought it was over. I can't believe myself. Coming up for excuses for him. I can't just accept that the guy I have known for a few years would have done this to me. Pathetic was what I was. So lost in thought, my vision of those two was sheered away by Jae-Min his black hair eclipsing the sun so that I had a good view of those rich golden eyes. In that small moment I was captivated. He pulled my arm and walked us forward. I didn't have any strength to pull away, and neither did I want to have any against him. I looked back one last time to see Chan-Yeol's lips pressed against that girl. What a mess my life has become.