In this world magic exist and proficiency is believed to depend on the bloodline. Nobody knows why that is believed to be but some bloodline have been said to have greater potential at birthing a high mage or even a grand mage. The dumont bloodline is one that had a high mage 4 generations ago unfortunately no mage of importance has been born since so they were demoted from a duchy to a county. Everyone speculated that Clark could end up as a grand mage but he has been stuck as a 7th circle mage for the past 6 years.
The count once mentioned during one of his 'educating sessions' that my birth was the reason why Clark's magic stops progressing.
I guess that was another reason for him to hate me.
No one knows exactly how many bloodlines possess this great magic as the master of the magic tower has been people from both a duchy,county ,barony, imperial bloodline and some have been commoners. So no one can even proudly say that bloodline has anything to do with magic but here we are I guess.
This book basically talks about the foundation of magic. It talks about magic like we see in fairytale. It almost sounds too good to be true.
I spent the next 4 hours reading about magic and it got me wondering allot. Since I come from a bloodline with strong magic maybe I could be able to use magic too. Maybe i could be the one to become a grand mage, im sure the count would turn on his head if he found out i had the potential to be a mage. I want this book. I need to speak to the attendant maybe he will let me borrow it and return it on a later date.
"My lady it's almost dinner time, we should head home"
Sarah and I walk towards the carriage leaving the stunning and lavish palace in hindsight. Till the end the prince didn't come back. I wonder what father will say when he hears this. I guess I can expect another education session tonight.
"My lady, I'm really sorry about today. I'm sure prince callus would be so happy to have you over next time" the attendant looked like he was about to cry as he fidgets.
"That's fine, everyone has their bad days. Oh I took a book from the library I'll return it on my next visit. I hope that is okay?"
"Yes my lady please the library is yours to use whenever "
Saying the last farewell we head back to my own personal hell.
"Welcome back my lady, the count would like to see you in his study" i hadnt even been past the front door when the counts aide came looking for me. I hand over my book to Sarah as she wears her most forlorn look but I smile sweetly trying my best to reassure her.
" please lead the way" the maids we passed on the way all had a grim look on their faces like they all knew what was coming. Even in the face of adversity I put on my bravest smile and try not to break down.
" my lord, the lady has arrived" the door open i step in and i hear the door click shut.
"How long will you make me look stupid?" Ahhhh so I cant escape it today too. I'm so used to this now, all I need to do is keep my head down keep my mouth shut receive the slap and stay down when I'm hit.
Just like clock work I feel the familiar warmth of the counts hand strike me across the face. I get slammed hard onto the ground as he continues his rant about me seducing the prince and making him mine. As usual after he is done, his aide walks in helps me up and out of the study, murmurs a pathetic 'I'm sorry my lady, I wish I could help you' and the maids waiting outside the study help me to my room. And just like always Sarah comes in fuming, helps me apply some ointment to my face and i go to bed without dinner.
Laying in bed I glance at the clock it's just barely past 8pm.
"Another cursed day, happy cursed birthday to me"
i look at the magic book I brought home with me and decide to buy into its delusions.
Normal magic requires you to chant a spell or for you to do some calculations to get the right magic circle. I was never taught magic like Clark so I don't really know the details.
this book says in order to use magic you need a clear mental image of what you want, sense the magic around you, imbue that magic with mana and then bring your mental image to life.
It sounds like pure rubbish but I want to try it. It might be something to distract me from this wretched life.
Closing my eyes I imagine fire in my hands burning hot and bright. Silence and nothing. Do I even have mana? What does mana feel like? I know I'm not a female lead that's for sure, so what makes me so sure I even have mana. I should just give up family, love ,magic I should just give up. I'm so tired, I just want to sleep. I want to die, I'm so tired I want to die.
But I don't want to, why should I? Why should I be miserable alone ? If I can't find happiness then maybe just maybe i could drag others with me to the pit of hell.
The book said mana feels warm, it doesn't burn nor freeze. Closing my eyes again I imagine something warm, warmth? Sarah's warm hands against mine. The feeling of freshly washed sheets, a warm tea on a cold winter night. My hearts starts to beat violently as I feel my veins expanding like I'm about to explode. Cough cough as blood pours out of my eyes nose and mouth.
It hurts, it hurts so much. My insides feel like they are burning up, my vision is blurry and tinted red
"H..e...e..l.p" i try to scream but it's too painful. My heart is still pounding loudly. I'm scared I feel the tears mixed with blood trickle down my face. I don't want to die, I don't want to die, what if I'm reborn in a worse world, I don't want to die, I'm scared please someone save me. And then I feel it a burning flame It quickly enveloped my insides as my body began to burn. I'm going to die, I'm going to die, was it black magic? What crime did i commit?
"Sarah I'm sorry I didn't keep my promise" I say as my vision goes black.