I died.
Yeah, I know, that's bullshit, how can I monologue right now if I really died?
Well, I don't really know.
But I do know that I truly died.
I mean, I'm pretty sure you would know your life is forfeit if you suddenly got impaled by a knife straight to the chest on your way home from University.
My life even flashed before my eyes and all that shit.
Damned robbers, they were pretty stupid too, thinking I could stop them when I was only one fragile dude, besides, I didn't even try to stop them but they still stabbed me. They even did it in broad daylight and in front of a police station at that.
Well, at least they'll rot in jail for life... I hope.
Sigh.
I was just a normal college freshman, and didn't really have many friends but those I made were true ones, we were homies. I had a normal family, with a younger sister who is really sarcastic with me but we loved each other.
Thinking about it, my life was actually the most ideal life I ever wanted.
Maybe it was because I died that I finally realized that all I ever really wanted was a normal life and that I was already fulfilling it.
I truly feel sad that I died, I'II never get nagged by my Mom ever again, never being able to talk about Dad about Anime or Video Games ever again, and never having conversations with my stupid little Sister... I feel anguished.
I'II never be able to talk to them again.
Unless heaven or hell does truly exist then I'll never be able to see them again.
But, seeing that I can still think but can't feel or see anything, I doubt it exists. Maybe death really was just us being all alone for all eternity with only our thoughts as our only companion.
That's a very scary thought, maybe I was just in the waiting list of those who will enter heaven..? Maybe the one working there is still checking all the good deeds I did in my short life and if I was qualified to be in Heaven?
Yeah... That must be it.
And so, I kept waiting.
But... No matter how much I waited, nothing happened... I feel like I've been here with only my thoughts for weeks now...
Can't a Rob or any other All-Powerful God come and reincarnate me somewhere, anywhere? That seems like the most common troupe around these days anyway... Maybe give me a really overpowered ability at that, too.
Well, I can't really do anything here except to wait.
And so, I kept waiting.
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It's been a few months.
That's how long it felt like anyways, I can't really count the time that accurately. I tried doing what a certain scientist student that was turned into a stone did to keep my sanity intact and started counting but I soon got bored of it.
My patience wasn't that of an anime MC, I don't have the patience of a buddha, how can you be so patient and count for thousands of years anyways?
And yes, even now, I still can't see anything, and as you may have seen coming, there's a very huge BUT coming.
BUT!
It started a while ago but I started being able to feel something, I felt myself... Shit.
Yes, I did what any ordinary human does when nature calls and I pooped. It might sound disgusting but confusing to someone as pooping was a very normal occurrence to anyone hearing it but after being only with my thoughts as my source of entertainment for so long and without feeling anything, even such an ordinary thing such as pooping was very exciting to me.
If I can shit then that means... I was still alive!
I don't know how or what kind of bullshit miracle happened but I don't care. I survived after being impaled by a knife straight to the heart! That meant I will still be able to see my family... I would cry if I could.
Whoever treated me, give that man or woman a raise!
W them!
I am very excited and I hope I can wake up soon... If I still can... I-I miss my Family and friends I truly do.
Anyways, that was all the progress there currently is for now, I'll keep waiting and see if anything changes...
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It has been a few months again.
Well, again, that's what it felt like anyway, my mind has been getting messy by the time lately, so.
If I didn't know I was still alive and could still see my family, I really would've gone insane. They were the only reason my sanity is still intact after all this time after all.
There were even countless times I wished for me to just vanish and end this unending torture.
'...'
Anyways, let's recap the events about this long isolation.
There's a good news and bad news.
Well, let's first start with the bad news, yes, let's make everyone suffer first before the very good news.
The bad news is that I still can't see a single thing.
And again as you've probably already foreseen, another huge BUT!
BUT!!
I can feel my whole body now!
Yes, I can move my entire body a little now but not so much, mostly only some twitches and that's it.
That's very good news, it probably meant that I'm getting closer to waking up from this long coma!
Though I don't know why I still have my thoughts if I'm in a coma... But, whatever!
I'm alive baby!
And now, I'm willing to wait as long as it takes, but I'll definitely wake up!
...Nevermind, please let me wake up soon, I hate being in this hellish isolation.
Well, that's the only news for now, I'll wait more and hope that something good happens soo-
Woosh!
...?!
What was that?! I felt a force pulling me downward!
C-Crap! Was I being transported in a plane and it suddenly malfunctioned and started falling?!
Am I dying for real this time?
As I thought of that, the force pulling me downward started getting stronger.
It felt like I was falling from a pad.
I don't want to die...!
I still want to talk to Mom, Dad and... My Sister!
As I thought of that, I felt myself crash. It kept going for a few seconds before I felt myself completely stop.
And I... Was unharmed. I could still properly feel my body just fine.
What just happened?
Just as I thought of that, just like a chick's egg breaking, I heard something slowly break around me.
And then... It broke.
And I opened my eyes.
For the first time in so long, I saw something.
I was met with a vast black sky with a countless amount of stars in it.
It was very beautiful.
Due to me being mesmerized of the night sky, I unconsciously let out a soft gasp of astonishment.
"...Gwaah."
A soft voice, a baby's voice.
And that broke my trance and an uncomfortable feeling replaced my mesmerized self. I then started looking around for that baby's voice frantically but I couldn't see it.
But that was when I caught sight of something else.
My hand... Or should've been my hand, it was a very small hand.
An infant's hand.
And in a distance, a city that looked complimented the view... But that wasn't what I thought, what I thought was that it's infrastructure was something that definitely didn't exist on earth.
And that was when everything clicked inside of me.
I wasn't in a coma nor did I live through after being stabbed.
I died.
And then I...
I reincarnated.
Somewhere that's not on earth.
Somewhere very far away from the only thing that fueled me to keep going despite the amount of time I almost lost it.
My family.
My friends.
I... Was never going to reunite with them ever again.
Then I finally realized something.
I truly died.
When I died, deep inside me, I didn't really believe it, after all I still had consciousness despite dying so I held some hope especially when my body started functioning again. But now that I am faced with the harsh truth...
...That was when I felt something finally break inside me.
And consequently, for the first time in months... Years...
I cried.
"Waahh!!"
I didn't care about my surroundings. I didn't care about anything at all.
Under the night sky, I cried my heart out, a deep anguished feeling in my heart.
Ahh... Damn it all...