"So that's how it is huh"
He said while looking up at the night sky his thought unknown.
"Argh well if that how it is then I will have to play along with it" with that said he look down at the bearlike creature from below which is staring at him with hint of excitement.
"Hmm, so tell me what are you excited for"?
He asked in a loud voice. But the bearlike creature just continues to look at him intently.
"Well, it doesn't really matter, well now my chance of surviving has risen to about ten percent".
Shad Darc couldn't really explain it, but he is now having a feeling that his chance of survival has now risen to ten percent probably it has to do the new feeling which is strangely boosting his overall confidence in a weird way.
He let out a low breath and asked one of his mental personalities considering the fact he considers himself to have mental disorder and one it is personality and identity disorder.
"oh, you will indeed survive if you want too" answered one his identity who seems to look like lonely king sitting on plain dark wooden throne atop a floating darkness without any special adornment to him he wears no crown nor does he wear any expensive kingly wears but rather a simple dark blue kingly wear with no special design on it. But for some reason he considers himself a king.
"Yeah, if only you truly want to survive, then surely you would".
Answered a second personality of his who sees himself as an observer. He also floats atop the emptiness but unlike the king like identity he sits on no throne, nor does he wear any kingly wears but rather wears plain dark purple martial wear that it almost looks black sits with folded legs like someone was meditating in an empty white space.
"Well by my own calculations you should have about fifty percent survival rate thanks to the new feeling that is, and also if you should enter the zone. Said the last identity who his standing in the emptiness between the white and black void.
He wears plain grey plain trousers with scars of different kinds tattooing his upper body. His head looking down while he carefully rubs his chin with his left hand as if in serious contemplation.
They all look like him except for the last identity who seems have grey short hair instead of black, apart from it every else is the same 5'9 feet in height with a well-defined slim athletic body as a sign of his intense training and his light brown skin cover with tattoo like scars and an acceptable amount of beauty to him.
All of this took place in his mental space because they are not actually real but at the same time they all feel like his true self it is weird kind of situation.
"Is that so"? He asked the pondering identity
"Of course, or do you doubt"?
"No, not really I just want to be sure"
"Well that aside how am I supposed to really make sense of this new feeling, because it feels alive to me"
There was silent for a while well considering the fact that he is actually talking to himself in his mind.
"Well, I think you should sit down and meditate on the new feeling even deeper than before that way you would come out with a proper answer" said the lonely king identity.
The meditating personality smiles a little then said.
"So you are you are refusing to accept the possibilities of what is happing right now or should I say you don't want to accept the possibilities that you might not actually be on earth anymore, well it does really matter just as said reflect even more on the new feeling and you might find an intriguing answer.
The contemplator personality said nothing but instead continue to ponder on some unknown things as uninteresting in their discussion.
"This really sucks talking to myself really"
After the little grumbly he decided to do as his inner voice said.
Calming his mind and steadying his breathing he began to reflect on the new feeling even deeper than before. Unlike the strange feeling which seems more distant to him this new feeling feels closer to him in some strange way he cannot yet understand.
But that isn't his problem right now. His problem now is to find a way to escape the bearlike creature waiting for him to get down.
With that he concentrated with a newfound motive of survival.
Earlier on he was able to infer that this new feeling contains what he will term as spiritual energy made manifest to the material world.
Another thing is that it seems to clear his mind and strengthen him somehow.
It is just as the meditating identity has said he is being skeptical about accepting the possibilities of what might have actually happen to him.
'Is it truly like that have I magical left earth to an unknown world or is this some kind of scheme from the organization'.
'Well, I will have to survive to know which its is'.
All this happened while reflecting on the new feeling.
At a certain point he begins to become even closer to the new feeling like a breakthrough, the closer he gets the more doubts he has if he is truly still on Earth or some unknown world.
As he gets even closer to the new feeling, he instinctively begins to know how to relate with the new feeling more like it was telling him how to interact with it.
He instinctively begins to channel the feeling to his mind and heart that is he is making it so that he can access the feeling at any time without having to go into deep meditation.
By making his mind to recognize it and his heart to accept it began to harmonize it with is body in the sense that even his body can recognize it instinctively without much concentration.
This was only possible because firstly his entire being instantly accept the new feeling as if it has always been a part of him something lost and now found.
Secondly, due to the rigorous training he had undergone as a special oops of the Shadow organization, all the intense and unnatural exercise not meant for an average human the mental training, and also the knowledge of how the human bodies sometimes work and last but not the least his uniqueness as human.
Well, it is nothing special nor is it really unique, it is just that the rate at which he adapts to stress, environment, people and places is extremely high compared to other humans.
He can't say why it is so, but his adaption rate is extremely high that is both mentally, physically and emotionally.
With these conditions he was able to push to the second layer of the new feeling. Upon the second layer he came to give the new feeling a name which he called a feeling of flow.
He called it a feeling of flow because at this point, he no longer feels the new feeling as a mere sensation but also as a flow of essence.
The essence itself is that of energy real energy flowing around him.
He was unable feel this flow earlier before because his understanding and knowledge of the new feeling was low. Though at the first layer he was able to infer the basic of what the feeling was that is he knew it was associated with energy and spirituality but that was all though he knew of this he couldn't really feel the flow around him.
But now he seems to be getting a better hang on what this feeling is.
And with this he no longer refers to the strange and new feeling as such but instead with a new name he instantly came up with.
"The feeling of flow"
Within this Feeling of flow, he divided the flow feeling into two. The flow of energy and the flow of spirituality.
'I see so the flow of spirituality is somehow related to the strange feeling I first felt, and the flow of energy is tied to the new feeling he later felt'
'I can't really understand the flow of spirituality except for that it is somehow link to one inner self or world maybe. But one thing is certain the strange feeling is somehow connected to it, well better focus on understanding the flow of energy first'
Afterwards he slowly opens his eyes which slightly looks sharper than before.
He looks down once again at the bearlike creature his thoughts unknown.
This time around the bearlike creature seems to be eager and restless. Shad Darc only let out a sly grin and said in a calm and collected tune only audible to him.
"Oh, so you have become even hungrier just wait a little longer".