This year wasn't easy yet it wasn't hard either
It was painful because I got addicted to someone
And the withdrawal hurt most
To start with I was foolishly in love that it blinded me
So much so that I endulged in your destructive habits
And got addicted to the pain
The feeling of blood dripping from my wrist gave me sense of peace
It made me feel closer to you, closer to my destruction
You made me promise not to do it again but I broke that promise the way you broke all of yours
But we continued like a happy little duo
Yet we weren't happy, we were sad, depressed and anxious
We were a toxic drug to each other
Something that wasn't meant to be
Now I'm ending this year without you the person I loved most
The person who brought my joy and the most unbearable pain
The person who wiped my tears during the day yet made me shed rivers at night
The person I got addicted to that was bad for my mental health
I'm leaving you behind and it's not something I'll regret
It's something I'll look back upon maybe if I don't forget