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I could hear my heart beat along with my footsteps.
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It is surprisingly nervewracking.
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The house was pretty much the same. It was a bit more fresh in a sense though.
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I made eye contact with the cheap painting that my dad bought. My mom swears to throw it away, but she never did.
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I had a weird liking to it, always did.
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"Ha-na!!! What's taking you so long!"
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I turned my head.
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The house looks the same, but my mom looks different.
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She looks so young.
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"You still need to eat dinner, I know you're tired from the shoots, but you'd better eat first."
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It's such a familiar situation.
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I'm not sure how to react since the lines between dream and reality is increasingly blurring.
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"Yeah."
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Is this really real? Am I not in a dream? Am I alive?
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I took a seat and picked up my chopsticks.
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The sounds of chopsticks, plates and chewing filled the air. My mom liked to talk, but never during meal time.
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I chewed the rice slowly.
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It was strange, I could feel the texture of the rice and even taste the slight sweetness of it.
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My chopsticks reached for the kimchi*.
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It was spicy and sour.
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Oh no.
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Is this reality?
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It's not a dream.
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I chewed my food unfocusedly.
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My mom, with her bowl clean, finally spoke.
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"Your dad is going to be a little late tonight, he has overtime."
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"Ah..Really.....?"
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I remember my dad being away a lot during this time.
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It was just routine.
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"Are you alright? Did the director scold you?"
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"No, it's nothing like that, I'm fine."
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Totally fine
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I don't really know what to say to my mom.
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Am I supposed to tell her that her daughter is actually not really her daughter?
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Sounds like the words of a lunatic.
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"You...You sure you're okay?"
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"Yeah, I'm fine. I'm just.....a bit worried...I guess..."
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My mom gave me a questioning gaze.
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I lowered my eyes.
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"How about that drama?"
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"Huh??"
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"You did just fine, our neighbors said so too."
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Drama?
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What drama could I possibly be working on at this time?
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"What's with you?"
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Oh no
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"Yeah it's been quite difficult so far...Haha."
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"How could it be difficult? You're just acting like yourself there."
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Huh, what drama could this possibly be?
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What am I working on in November 200X?
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"It doesn't matter anyways, your parts in 'Revive' are done."
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Oh...It's that drama
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It's a crime-thriller, I think I played some kid that appeared for a few episodes.
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The director was quite strict and I was scolded quite often. The weight of feeling like a failure weighted on me as the shoot ends, at least it was like that, back then.
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"There is no time for that anyways, you need to prepare for Spring Breeze."
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Spring Breeze? What drama is that even?
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Even the title makes me not interested to watch it.
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"Ah...Really? Haha..."
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Whoever chose this drama has a horrible taste.
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"Memorize your lines well, I don't like it that much but you insisted on this drama."
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I take it back.
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After washing the dishes, I head back upstairs.
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I feel so tired.
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Is this a dream or not?
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Forget it, I should just sleep, I feel so exhausted mentally.
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But first, let me check out that script.
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It should be here somewhere...
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In one of the drawers, lay my copy of the scripts.
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The one for 'Revive' was in a particularly bad condition.
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There it is, 'Spring Breeze'.
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Reading the synopsis and details brought some memories back.
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Not surprised that I forgot about this, my part isn't that significant, and it's a mediocre drama in every sense.
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It's a public broadcasting daily drama from Channel K. It spans for 150 episodes, airing 5 episodes per week like most daily dramas.
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It's a romance and family drama that starts off lighthearted and started getting frustrating in the middle.
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In the end it just became some sort of weird thing.
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It was a bad but forgettable drama.
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Although some actors managed to have a big break later on, it's a drama that their fans don't really rewatch.
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Can't blame them, what type of crazy person would want to watch a 150 episode trash.
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In my previous life...Ah, it feels do weird to say that.
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Back then, I participated in this drama. My role was the younger sister of the female lead. She is annoying, immature, annoying, you get it.
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There is barely any character development on her side and she hardly gets any screentime too.
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I remember reading some comments cursing at my character.
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There was nothing too severe due to my lack of screentime, but it gave a huge impression on me since it was the first time I earned such strong reactions from the public.
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To sum it up, it is a bad role in a bad drama.
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It's settled already, so it'll be difficult to get out.
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Besides, it's not like I have much choice anyways.
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I flipped through the script.
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There must be more people watching daily dramas at this time period right?
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Maybe it won't be that bad.
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Why am I seriously thinking about this?
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This is not my biggest problem for now, at worst I will just repeat everything.
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The main problem is this weird time travel type of thing.
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What is this even supposed to be?
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A dream? Time travel? Alternate universe?
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My mind went back to some time travel dramas I watched recently.
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This is so confusing.
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I laid on my bed.
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As I closed my eyes, I wished that I would return to the present time.