"The Art of Feeling Left Out " is more than just a phrase—it's a deep experience that most of us encounter at some point in our lives. Isn't it surprising the we all feel so left out with people we are with almost all the time ..
It's a awkward silence/ a pause between the conversations, And yet no one notices, they never really noticed that i wasn't talking or i said something, being ignored, feeling left out !
The way they just never notice, or maybe i have only thought that i ment something to them, sometimes I think am I that boring or I just don't exist for them...
They make movie plans, house party, birthday party,cafe hang out and etc etc and never asked me , I will get to know that they went from their Instagram stories, posts' , What'sApp status, or snaps while scrolling and wondered why was I not invited, or to say why was I never invited...why wasn't i part of that memory..it feels like I am outside the house in a cold night and looking inside the window a warm room with full of people...
Just feels strange to know so many people yet got no one by my side , i always had a "huge friend circle" atleast that's what I thought but growing up i realised that It was just a " huge social circle" not a huge friend circle...
I was always so so insecure to make friends then after till now..and i always will . I hated to feel left out, feel different, not knowing the tea that everyone knows, not being part of their hang outs, their storys'.....
Thinking of them whole night, have a self doubt, feeling lonely:)
Even today sometimes I think about it whole night. Because of this i don't like to share my friends, siblings with anyone, I am always always so afraid of them being taken away from me , I Just, just never want to feel left out again as before...
Okay see you with another chapter next time :) Bye bye