Since then, I've started hoping for the arrival of the grim reaper, wishing for death to come sooner.
Yes, I no longer have the thought of wanting to die after Gu Zhilan; I want to die immediately, right now! But I don't even have the strength to do so.
When I heard them discussing sending me to the police station for a reward, there was finally a glimmer of hope in my world!
Great, I can finally die, I can finally be free, I can finally say goodbye to this life worse than death.
But when I arrived in the capital from Z Province, I still didn't die as I wished. After wandering around, I went back to C Province, back to the old place where Zhaodi has begged for many years.
And there is where my struggle for life and inability to seek death began,
I will never understand why I've worked so hard to protect everything I have, yet Heaven treats me this way?
Was I wrong? I just wanted to protect this hard-earned family, where did I go wrong?
