Selena POV
I met my mate. A vampire.
My whole life was a struggle.
Struggle to make my father at least once look at me like he is proud of me.
My father was the beta of my shadow moon pack. For the next beta he needed to have a son but got me instead. While giving birth to me, I took away my mom's life. He resents me to core for that. I'm fine
I'd do that too. Probably.
All my life, I lived like what he wanted. A son. His next successor to serve the alpha.
This Broad and chiseled chest, hard body muscles was not something I was born with. I did hardwork. I made it over time. All those times I resisted myself to succumb to the womanly temptations.
Always being the one to pick at.
The odd one out.
I knew my mate would not be someone loving me whatsoever.
A straight man won't want another man to him. Nothing in me is feminine. Men has desires they want to fulfill.
I could never give even a bit of myself to anyone.
But having a vampire as a mate, was even worse than having no mate at all.
All these years, after all the struggles I at least gained a look of approval from my father's eyes. When the last time he saw my appearance, I know he thought I could at least be considered for being the next beta.
Accepting a vampire as my mate, would bring that look of disappointment and grudge in my father's eye that I never in my life want to see again.
I made my mind.
I was going to reject this vampire mate.
But I didn't know it yet if I had the power to fight the mate bond.
Few days later
At Liliac Kingdom
Selena POV
Another day of my life, making sure the wellbeing of my mistress.
Mistress as in my best friend.
I remember the day we met. Unlike others she didn't thought I was weird or a freak. When she saw me, she sarcastically commented with no trace of malice.
I threw an insult right back at her.
She raised an eyebrow causing me to raise one as well.
A foolish grin spread on her face, I couldn't stop myself from smiling either.
We noded at each other and I knew that day, we both accepted each other as whatever we are.
As I thought back to those days I couldn't stop a little smile on my face. However that didn't lasted longer as soon I was encountered by those strange icy blue glacier like eyes staring intensly at me.
"Hello, mi amor" he spoke that mutherfucking husky and coarse voice of his.
What happens to my body when I hear the tone of his voice and see that look in his eyes, is indescribable. I want to throw something sharp and heavy at time but at the same time I'd like that something heavy to be me.
"I'm not your love." I spoke coldly and dismissively. The last thing I wanted was to talk to this amazing specimen of a men and let the mate bond pull us together.
"You are my mate mate, Selena." A surge of strong electricity passed through me when he called my name. No one has ever said my name with so much love and gentleness as if it would me physically if any word left unpronounced.
Wait, No Selena don't.
Think about Papa.
The rush of those memories, made my head clear clouded for lust and longings for my mate.
I need to reject him.
I must reject him.
"It will not matter soon since I'm going to reject you. I don't want a vampire as my mate. So, I Selena Hemming, the next beta of shadow moon pack reject-"
"Don't reject me just yet." The desperation and pain in his voice threw me off guard. Stopped in my tracks, bewildered I stared at him. My eyes stopped on his eyes, that screamed so much pain.
It hurted me physically to hurt my mate. He is my mate. There's no denying that.
But I have to reject him when the first thing I want is crisg his lips with mine.
God, help me. How long it will be before I finally gave into my desires for him..?