As I begin to regain consciousness I could feel a pair of warm hands holding mine, A fuzzy and strange feeling still overwhelming my mind I still manage to weakly open my eyes to see Kadachi looking right at me. His worried yet sad expression told me he was here for a while.
"Your awake that's good!"
I hear another voice beside me and turn my head to see an older-looking man in a long white coat.
"I can tell you look a bit out of it right now but you'll soon feel normal after you wake up more."
I try to instinctively sit up but Kadachi forces me back down.
"Don't move your not well enough yet."
I look at him confused.
"What do you mean I feel fine?"
The Dr clears his throat and sits down on the edge of my bed as Kadachi lifts the bed up so I can sit up.
"Ms. Kairi you have a very weak heart due to the years of being mistreated. This condition is treatable but you need lots of rest, exercise, a good diet and try not to be in such intense situations for a while."
I look over at Kadachi who is looking away from me with a worried expression, yet he still holding my hand firmly, I smile softly and squeeze his hand in response.
"It's ok, we can overcome this no problem. I'm sure of this!"
Kadachi looks up at me in disbelief as the Dr chuckles while patting me on the back.
"See that's the spirit! Ok, I'll leave you to rest for a bit and ill be back later to check on you."
As soon as the Dr leaves Kadachi flicks my forehead.
"How can you be this positive when given this bad news?"
I turn my gaze towards the blanket and twiddled my fingers.
"Well you seemed so sad so I wanted to make you feel better...and what I said was true... I have so much I want to do now I don't want a heart problem to stop me ya know, so the only thing to do is to stay positive in this situation and push forward."
Just as I finish speaking I feel a pair of big arms wrap around me. Kirito places one hand on the back of my head and the other around my waist pulling me into a hug as he chuckles.
"You dummy...It's also ok to cry when your in pain and ask for help when you need it!"
Stunned by a crack in his voice and something wet hitting my neck It was like a rush of pain hit me and I place my arms around him to hug him back while trying to endure it.
(He wants me to know I can rely on him too. To cry on his shoulder if I need it. It's the sweetest thing I've ever heard, but then why...am I feeling pain...)
I lean my head on his shoulder.
(Maybe... it's because I have to face my trauma...but to do that ill have to tell him everything...)
It was then that I knew what I would have to do and I begin to relax into Kadachi's embrace.
Finally, I whisper back to him.
"Your right, I will tell you everything in a few days and then together we can work together to fix things."
Kadachi chuckles and pulls away a bit just to smash his soft lips onto mine. I immediately blush but kiss him back.
(He's been so worried about me this whole time and I selfishly kept a wall between us, it's time I break the wall down)
Just as we're about to pull apart to catch our breaths the door slides open without any warning and in walks Kaito with Zaki right behind him.
(Oh boy I wonder how Kadachi will react to Kaito...)
Kadachi stands up looking at Kaito with burning rage in his eyes. Kaito smirks and looks at me completely ignoring Kadachi's death glare.
"I came to give you the binder then we will be on our way, my contact information is on the front page in case you have any more questions."
(That's right, This binder might help with me moving forward.)
I silently nod as he places the binder on the nightstand next to me.
"I hope you get well, we will be on our way now."
Just as Kaito turns around Kadachi steps in front of him.
"Even if what you told me earlier is true I won't hesitate to kill you the next time you decide to pull something like this ever again!"
Kaito smirks and chuckles at Kadachi's threat while placing a hand onto his shoulder whispering something to him as he walks past him.
Kaito's eyes grew cold and murderous and before Kadachi could say another word a nurse walks in and starts to as him some questions.
(That's strange, I wonder what Kaito said to piss him off?)
(A few Weeks Later)
A few weeks pass of lots of rest which gave me plenty of time to read through the binder.
( A lot of the information brought back a lot of memories from when I was young of when my mother would tell me stories. A lot of the stories she told me correspond to what Kaito has put into this binder but why does my mind feel so jumbled it feels like I'm forgetting some important information...but what?)
I rub my head in frustration trying to piece everything together.
( Maybe I should start by recalling my earliest memory and go from there.)
As I try to focus on my thoughts I feel a pair of arms wrap around my waist and feel someone's warm breath hit my ear.
"And just what do you think you're doing up right now?"
(W-when did he get there!?)
His gentle yet coy voice startled me and he quickly picks me up.
"Back to bed for you!"
I quickly shake my head.
"N-No I'm ok I promise! I was just reading something."
Kadachi sighs looking annoyed.
"You can read in bed-"
Just as we reach the bed Kadachi sets me down and leans close to my face peering into my eyes.
"If you get up from this bed one more time I will punish you!"
I immediately blush and narrow my eyes while pouting.
(I think he's being serious, I better just agree...)
"Fine...but could you at least bring me the binder?"
Kadachi smirks and stands back up.
"And what will you do if I don't?"
I look at him closely realizing he looked a bit flustered.
(Is he drunk?)
Confused about his current state I stand up on the bed and place my hands on my hips.
"If you won't get it then ill just reach for it from here!"
Just then the power cuts out and the room goes pitch black.
"W-what happened?!"
I instantly try to feel for Kadachi.
"Kadachi where are you I can't see anything?"
I hear Kadachi clear his throat.
"I'm right here don't move or-"
Just as he says that I feel my foot slip off the bed.
"Ah!"
I try to brace for impact but instead, I feel only my foot hit the floor as Kadachi saves me from falling all the way.
"Are you ok? Did you get hurt?"
I sigh in relief.
"No I'm ok, what about you?"
"I'm ok too, I think the storms may have knocked the power out it should be safer to stay here rather than move around without a light."
(He's right, we may end up just getting hurt if we try to move. I can't even see my hands...)
We sit down onto the bed and Kadachi places a hand onto mine.
"Kairi?"
"Yes, Kadachi?"
"Are you happy? Do you feel safe here?"
I smile thinking about the question.
"Yes, you and your family has been so kind to me."
I feel Kadachi tense up a little.
"Then...Tell me Kairi, what do you want in life."
Startled by the question I stay silent for a moment before responding.
"To just live life to the fullest. Through all of the joy and sorrow, what I want in life is to just be free, have a job, family, and maybe a cat. Go on a few adventures and have a few thrills. What about you?"
I feel Kadachi inch closer as he places his burning hand onto my cheek to cup it. I could feel his hot breath hitting my face and the warmth of his body as he slowly fills the gap between us.
(Why is he getting so close all of a sudden.)
"Kairi...All I want in this life...Is you."
(W-what??)
Before I could say anything in response Kadachi places his lips onto mine while pushing me onto my back, I try to break free but he holds my hands above my head and slowly starts to kiss down my neck.
"Kadachi wait! Mmm-"
I feel his free hand grab my hip and instinctively feel my body react to his touch. A weird tingling sensation washes over my body as I feel my breath change my body begins to relax as my mind races.
"Kairi."
He whispers in my ear making my heart flutter even more.
"When we were just children all I ever wanted...Was you."
He kisses me gently and lets go of my hands, I feel something bulging through his sweatpants rub against me and instinctively let out a soft gasp.
(oh no how embarrassing did he just hear that?)
I feel him smirk in between our kiss and he does it again.
"Mm-ah Kadachi please…no more-"
I hear him chuckle.
"But your body says otherwise."
He thrusts against me and my body can't help but feel good, I let a few moans escape and feel him tense up.
"Kairi, you really are…so beautiful."
Just then I feel his hand slip into my pants and I instantly stiffen as he inserts his fingers.
"Ah, no more…Kadachi I can't take it!"
(W-what am I saying that's not what I meant!)
He chuckles and starts to move his fingers back and forth.
"Your so wet, Kairi I don't think I can hold back anymore."
(He leans his head onto my chest and I feel how hot he is.)
(He feels so hot, why is he so hot?!)
I quickly sit up and he sits up as well, I place my hand on his head.
(He has a high fever that's why he's acting so weird, I need to cool him off now!)
"Kadachi, you have a very high fever let's get you cooled off for now."
I feel him twitch at the fact of entering a cold shower.
"Will you come in with me?"
(He must be feeling terrible and if him of all people asks me to stay with him during a shower he must really feel bad.)
I grab his hand and smile.
"Of course!"
I stand up still holding his hand and help him up, we slowly make our way to the shower where I turn it on.
"It's on now I'll be right here since it's dark and we can't see anything you won't have to w-"
Before I could finish my sentence I'm pulled under cool water and shriek.
"Eek!! It's cold!!! Kadachi let me go my clothes are getting soaked!"
I feel his burning hot hands tug on my shirt.
"Then take them off, I'm cold too and I don't want to be alone right now it's not like I can see anyway!"
(B-but…at this rate, we will…)
I sigh.
(Why am I trying to escape…we're about to be married and we will do this eventually so why…why am I so afraid to be touched when I feel as if…I love him…why can't I allow myself to just enjoy this.)
I feel tears stream from my eyes out of frustration as I unbutton my shirt and let my clothes fall to the floor.
(A part of me wants this…so no matter how afraid I may be…I'll push myself to move forward starting here…I'll be more confident!)
"Kadachi…I…I love you…"
I feel him jump at my words or rather the crack in my voice as I said them. I feel his hand cup my cheek as his other hand wraps around my waist pulling me up against his naked body, I then feel his hot breath up against my ear which nearly made my legs melt.
"I love you too."
His warm lips hit mine and my back presses up against the wall as he delicately caresses my body.