Js life in general - Sun, 29 March 2026
1. Friday was a mess. I am an absolute, uncontrollable crying machine. I cry 24/7 without a reasonable cause, and it's always in lessons! With everyone looking and walking on eggshells around me. What is up with me? Why do I cry without a cause? Why do I just suddenly feel tears prickle at the corner of my eyes when I'm in the middle of concentrating? What's wrong with me? During fourth period - Geography - I just suddenly felt tears in my eyes when everything was fine, the table was laughing, everyone was chill. BUT I JUST HAD TO RUIN THE PERFECT PEACE BY BEING AN ABSOLUTE F ING MESS I AM!!! Like WTH?? Have you ever suddenly started balling up out of the blue, Blue? (Ha, get it? Blue blue?)
2. I think that I don't like Joel anymore. No, I know that I don't like Joel anymore. The evidence is clear: I look at him and feel... nothing. Even after staring him straight in the eye, no need to look away(but I do anyways), no need to worry about how I look when I feel his gaze on me, no need to care about how I act. He feels like a stranger to me; I feel absolutely nothing! But then again, it could also be possible that...
I can't recall what I was trying to write. It's been months; sorry bout it.
Me logging off at 22:26. (But months later...) Byeee👋🏾