18 saal ki umar… aur itna pressure?"
Kabhi kabhi lagta hai ki main bas thak gayi hoon… bina kuch kiye hi.
18 saal ki hui hoon main… log kehte hai yeh age enjoy karne ki hoti hai.
Par meri life me "enjoy" naam ki cheez shayad kabhi thi hi nahi.
Ghar me roz ek hi baat hoti hai…
"Mummy bolti hai – papa akele itna sab karte hai… ab tujhe bhi samajhna padega."
Samajhna?
Kya samjhu main?
Raat ko jab sab so jaate hai… tab meri asli life start hoti hai.
Sochna… bas sochna.
Itna sochti hoon ki neend bhi mujhse door bhaag jaati hai.
Kabhi lagta hai main galat hoon…
Kabhi lagta hai duniya.
"Mujhe kaam karna chahiye…"
"Mujhe paise kamaane chahiye…"
"Tabhi sabko lagega main kuch hoon…"
Par phir ek awaaz andar se aati hai—
"Kya main ready hoon?"
New laptop liya…
Khush hone ki jagah ek naya pressure aa gaya
"Ab isse kuch kama ke dikhao…"
Kabhi kabhi lagta hai…
Agar main ladka hoti… ya mera bhai hota…
Toh shayad expectations alag hoti?
Ya shayad… main hi weak hoon.
Par ek baat hai…
Main toot rahi hoon… par khatam nahi hui hoon.
Shayad meri story abhi start hui hai…
Par mujhe nahi pata tha… meri life me ek aisa insaan aane wala hai jo sab kuch change kar dega.
Agar aapko meri story relate ho rahi hai… to vote aur comment zarur kare ❤️