One of my worst weaknesses is to be emotionally hurt and broken. I really hate the feeling so much that I can't even survive it at all. It is too hard to bare with even though I have never experienced it, since I have never been in relationship and I will never want or ever even dream of been in relationship.
Why will I ever love,trust, protect a man who will eventually break my heart?
No matter how he claims to love you, it is not enough to not hurt you in the future. Men are never perfect like fictional men in Korean dramas and romantic novels.
Reality men don't treat women like how fictional men treat their women.
So why will I ever date while knowing I will never have the prefect man that will be able to handle my heart with love and care when I give it him?
I know that it is so lovely and beautiful to be in love and be loved, and I honestly really want to experience it so badly but i am afraid of the consequences to keep me away from it. No matter how prefect your love story is with a happy ending, there most be heartbreak in between your chapters in your story, Which I can't handle at all.
So I just gave up and vowed to always stay single for life because that is the only way to save my heart from any pain.
I am now living a peaceful life in my room balcony enjoying the lovely weather as I am listening to the audiobook to one of my favorite romance novel I am currently reading.
I am literally living my best time here that I can spend the rest of my life here and never get bored at all. How peaceful the weather and the view is which is our beautiful house garden. Nothing can heal me and make me happy than to spend my time here and do the things that I love so much while is watching Korean dramas and reading lovely romance novels.
And sometimes when I am tired of watching and reading fictional love which can never have, I will go to another place that have very beautiful view and vibes to create whatever I love I want for myself in my imagination. Yes it might so ridiculous but to me it really helps my recover.
Suddenly, Mr.Oliver - my father's secretary - stands tall in front of me, making me jump a little from my sit.
Mr.Oliver is in his mid-fifties but we'l built and he looks younger in his black suit.
I paused the audiobook and move away my headphones from my ear.
"I am sorry, Miss. I didn't mean to enter without your permission but I kept knocking but you didn't answer so I got worried" he says with a polite smile.
"No, it's fine" I said nicely returning the kindness "What brings you here on a work day?"
"Your father wants to see you now" he replies.
And that is when I realized that my father is also here in Los Angeles because there is no way Mr. Oliver will be here when father is not.
My father lives in New York and only comes to visit me after making a big decision that will destroy my life. The last time I saw him was five years ago when forced me in studying politics in university just to follow his foot steps, which made me resent him so much because I have always dreamed to be an romance author but he crushed it with the tip of his foot within a second.
And I am hundred percent sure that his is doing the same thing and will actually make it even worst this time around. I just have a feeling that I am completely doomed this time, I won't even say let's hope it should be a good news this time but that will just be lying to myself in the worst way because my father is never good news, he is make of bad news.
"What does he want?" I ask,
"He have something very important to inform you" he replied politely.
"Can you tell me what is it?"
"I'm sorry but you will have to hear it from him" he refused politely.
"Can you at least give me a hint?" I said, silently pleading.
"I'm sorry" he gives me an apologic look.
I sigh and said "Okey, I will be there"
"Okey but hurry up, he is waiting in his home office" and walks out of my balcony and bedroom, closing the door behind him.
I am really not ready for whatever disaster he will make in my life now but I will have to meet him now even though it will ruin my life.
I walked out of my bedroom and head to my father's home office which actually doesn't have any porpose since he hardly use it.
I nervously knocked the door of the office waiting for him to give me permission to come into his hell.
"Come in" my father calls out from the other side of the door.
I take a deep breath and stepped in, closing the door with my complete freedom behind me.
"Have a sit" he said without even sparing me a glance as he points out the sit opposite Mr Oliver on the meeting table.
I anxiously took the sit "What is the important thing you want to tell me?" I asked skipping any unsincere greetings. Whick I also know he doesn't want and silently thanking me for it.
"You will be going with me back to New York in the next five hours" he demands "So pack whatever you need within this hours, we can't be late"
My eyes wides as I looked at him in disbelieve. What on earth is he planning?
"Why for?" my voice breaks with fear of whatever the answer is even though I don't want to show any weakness.
"You will be marrying Landon Harper" he and answers coldly.
That is when my world crumbles.