The so called world rulers didn't care that I was relatively exceptional, kind, and handsome, they threw me away for 2 years after giving me psychosis.
Since they don't want to date me as they push other boys on me.. they want me to believe that my powers are psychosis? That's how it normally is isn't it.
I'd be happy if they give me a good job, but they can't say they love me so I have to love them because they don't and I already tried loving them and felt as though they wouldn't give a damn if I died.
Maybe they don't like me talking like this. It seemed to me that they're happy whenever I'm sad or make a mistake that makes me feel hopeless. They just want me to believe that I'm simply mentally ill.
I thought they might consider what the love I gave to other males to be true and try to empathise if they liked me, but maybe they didn't. They probably only harass me because they want me to think I'm sick, not because they want me as I wanted to believe.
Did they notice me during that time when I tried learning magic to help others as I wandered around that raising ground of what once was for kings?
I thought they were scared to approach me because sometimes I seemed cool, distant, and like a prince. But really I needed love more than anyone maybe.. I tried to give what I needed the most to others only to be discarded. I tried to care for them by trying to help them with their confidences by loving those boys.. anyway the so called world rulers don't care about how I am because they want me to feel hopeless as I believe that I am only mentally ill.
Thank goodness I learnt the truth before they did any more to me. I guess they really don't care about whether they have me or not in any way because seeing me have intercourse with another boy might be enough for them. And they call themselves men? As for what a man is I believed only the courageous are kind.
Is that place still as powerful as it was before? Are the wizards there real?
The world rulers harass me everyday. Why? If they cared about the world, I would've been a better place.
..and for my next magic trick, it is that place again where kings and wizards are, where something happened