Jab mene es duniya mein janam liya tha
Mera janam ek middle class family me hua, khne ko toh bahot bhdi family hai meri, mere papa ke 4 bhai the, unke bache bhi the , ek bde parivar me Mera janam hua tha, lekin fir bhi jb bhi jarurat hui hai koi apna kaam nhi aaya kisi ne thik hi kha hai apne sirf khne ke apne hote hai unse jyada apne toh neighbors hote hai ,jb Mera janam hua tb mere se phle mere parents ko ek beti or thi yani ki meri bhdi bhen mere papa politician ke sath rhte the achi khasi power thi unke pass but sache or kind hearted hone ki vajah se unke pass etna paisa nhi tha jitna ki mere uncles ke pass tha , mere bhn ke birth ke baad jb ghr me pta chla ki meri mummy pregnant hai toh ,ghr mein meri dadi ,dada or sbhi family members ko yhi ummed thi ki ek beti enko phle se hi hai ab ek beta or ho jaye toh enki bhi family complete ho jayegi but Mera janam hua ,koi khush nhi hua mere paida hone pe , sb khte ki eske papa toh ek beti ka kharcha nhi utha skhte ab toh enko dusri or beti ho gyi eska kharcha kaise uthayenge ye , mere papa ki Tarah Mera dada ji bhi bahot ache the khte hai ki maa- baap ke liye apna hr bacha Barbara hota hai, mere papa ko beti hui hai ye sun ke mere dada jii ko shock lga sochne lge ki unka beta apni ek or beti ko kaise palega , ye soch unke dimagh se nikl hi nhi payi or mere janam ke 6 mahine baad unki death ho gyi . Esme meri overthinking khti hai ki "kya unke Marne ki vajah m hu, agr mere jagah beta hua hota toh kya vo kuch saal or ji jate ". Meri soch khti hai ki betiyan toh apne nasib ka leke jati hai , jinke ghr betiyan hoti hai vo kbhi bhuke nhi sote. M sochti hun ki m ku unki dusri beti hui m phle bhi ho skhti thi "kya Mere dadi jii ki death mere Karam me likhi jayegi " agr m unki phle beti hoti toh sayad unki death meri vajah se nhi hui hoti.
Jb m 3 saal ki hui, mere cousins mere se sbhi bhde the sbhi private school me jate the meri bhdi bhn vo bhi unke sath private school mein jati thi , jb meri bari aayi school Jane ki toh ek bethak hui mere ghr mein mere school me Jane ke topic pe . Mere dadi khti mere papa se ki ab apni dono betiyon ko sarkari school me pdhao kunki tum etne capable nhi ho etne paise nhi hai thumare pass ki tum apne bhaiyon ki Tarah apne bacho ko private school me pdhao . Ye sun ke papa ko bahot bura lga ,papa dadi se khte hai ki mana ki private school ki fees jyada hoti hai but m apni betiyon ke future ke sath koi compromise nhi krunga ,fir dadi khti hai ki sarkari school me bhi ache teachers hote hai , sb kuch free me hota hai , or konsa tune enko pdha likha ke job krani hai jo enke pdhai pe etna kharcha krega , vese bhi ye toh praya dhan hai ek na ek din apne ghr ki ho jayengi . Javab me Papa khte hai ki agr aaj m kisi achi sarkari job pe nhi hun toh hi aap mujhe ye batein kh rhi hai agr m bhi bhaiyon ki Tarah sarkari job pe hota toh aap kabhi mujhe ye nhi khti ki tu apni betiyon ko sarkari school me pdha , or fir papa ne apna faisla suna diya ki meri betiyan private school me hi pdhenge apne cousins ke sath. Papa ka faisla sun ke dadi ko bahot bura lga ye sun ke unke bete ne unki baat nhi mani , dadi papa se kaffi time tak naraz rhi sayad se ye soch ke ki unke narazgi se papa faisla badal denge . Esme meri overthinking khti hai ki "dadi or papa ke bech kha suni hui meri vajah se " agr mera janam na hua hota toh na mujhe pdhane pe unki baat hoti or na papa ko bura lgta dadi ki batein sun ke "
at the end Mera or meri bhn ka admission usi private school me hua jisme mere cousins jate the.
Jb m 1st class me hui, ....