Although she had strong objections to Faen's private life, Akali kept telling herself that she would never bow her head. The only reason she didn't choose to leave right now was simply because Faen was stronger than her, and he was nominally her master, and so on.
But now, when Faen truly wanted to have a serious talk with her about this matter, Akali fell into a bout of silence, not knowing how to answer Faen's words.
The current her should refuse, right? And then stay far away from Faen, so she could return to her old life.
Even if she wasn't understood, or accepted by her peers in the Kinkou Order, at the very least, she would still be an independent person...
Thinking this, Akali suddenly felt an inexplicable sense of conflict and reluctance in her heart.
No one wanted to return to a place where no one could understand them.
With these thoughts in mind, Akali was still very clear about her bottom line—no matter what, she absolutely could not turn into someone like Xayah!
The mere thought of getting fucked by Faen just once and becoming so thoroughly corrupted that she would offer up all her sisters, and even want to send her own mother to Faen's bed to serve him, be humiliated, and get pregnant to bear his daughters together, made Akali's stomach churn.
Reaching this thought, Akali felt her mind clear up a lot. Taking a deep breath, she looked at Faen and said:
"I... I do indeed have strong feelings for you. Mmhmm, I think you can more or less feel it yourself. But I absolutely cannot accept turning into someone like Xayah! No matter what, it is absolutely impossible!"
Hearing Akali's firm words and feeling her resolute gaze, Faen sighed rather helplessly and said, "No, no, no, you've misunderstood one thing. It wasn't me who made Xayah like that; it was Xayah who made that choice herself."
"..." To this, Akali didn't speak. She just looked at Faen quietly, her facial expression screaming disbelief.
After all, the Xayah from just now was truly, thoroughly depraved. Those willing, degrading, and filthy words made even the current Akali feel a chill in her heart just thinking about them. Under these circumstances, a few simple words from Faen were nowhere near enough to dispel the doubts in Akali's heart.
In response, Faen extended a finger, offering a few more drops of the Joy Factor, looked at Akali, and said, "If you don't believe me, you can try it yourself."
Hearing this, Akali curled her lip and snorted coldly, "Who knows if you spiked this with something else?"
Although she said this, after a moment of silence, Akali still leaned her head forward and opened her delicate little mouth.
Although she had strong objections to Faen's private life, having been together for so long, there was still some basic trust between them.
Setting everything else aside, Akali was at least very clear that with Faen's abilities, it really wouldn't be that difficult if he truly wanted to completely brainwash her.
As a disciple of the Kinkou Order, Akali knew very well just how massive the gap was between Faen's status in the spiritual realm and her own. It was no exaggeration to say that the gap was even larger than the one between herself and a dog.
Under these circumstances, since she couldn't resist anyway, she might as well see what other tricks this guy had up his sleeve.
As his finger pushed deep into her oral cavity, the sensation of a foreign object entering made Akali feel a slight discomfort. But even so, Akali didn't say anything more; she just silently endured this strange sensation.
Although Akali felt she was acting extremely aloof, in reality, anyone with eyes could clearly see the blush surfacing on her face, as well as her hands—fidgeting at a loss from inner nervousness, not knowing where to rest, hanging by her sides one moment, resting on her hips the next, and then crossing over her chest.
When Faen finished smearing it, Akali immediately closed her mouth. Although her action was decisive, anyone could clearly see the flash of reluctance and craving that appeared in Akali's eyes as she watched Faen withdraw his hand.
However, Akali quickly forced herself to calm down. After stretching her body a bit, she hummed, "Isn't this no different? I feel perfectly fine, you know?"
"Then think again about what I just told you, and try to make a choice," Faen said.
Hearing Faen's words, Akali frowned slightly, then briefly recalled the question Faen had asked her.
And just as Akali began to think about this matter—or rather, the very moment she started thinking—Akali felt a massive surge of emotions welling up in her heart.
Most of these emotions were tied to various memories. The memories of following Faen to Fae'lor to rescue Syndra; the scenes where, when the other members of the Kinkou Order, and even Shen, expressed incomprehension and disapproval of her ideals, and when everyone denied her, Faen stood up and spoke out righteously on her behalf.
And the surprise, the pleasant shock, and the joy of having someone stand on her side, speak up for her, and explain the reasons for the very first time.
Akali was a person with a very aloof personality; she wouldn't actively maintain friendships, whether with fellow disciples or friends. Or rather, Akali was naturally bad at socializing.
Under these circumstances, Akali's emotional perception also suffered from a severe delay—meaning she wouldn't feel much at the time, but would feel immense regret afterward.
And now, what Faen was doing was very simple: he was excavating those emotions from Akali's heart, making her realize once again that she wasn't actually completely oblivious to all of this.
She had just gotten used to having nothing, and had given up on perceiving what she already had.
And now, making her feel those joys she had generated in the past was exactly Faen's goal.
"Whether it's emotions or memories, although both can be forcibly twisted through the power of the spiritual realm, I have never liked such crude methods, because they make a person lose their most precious individuality."
Looking at Akali, who was tightly tensing her face to prevent herself from showing any timidity or sorrow, Faen said unhurriedly, "But Akali, you are a very dense child—not in battle, but in life. Some things you only realize the preciousness of, and the reluctance to lose, after they are gone. So what I am doing now is merely revitalizing your memories of the past."
"As a practitioner of the Kinkou Order's Way of Pruning, I believe you can feel the difference between memory revitalization and memory distortion."
Hearing Faen's words, Akali's lips trembled twice, and she muttered stubbornly, "T-Then... I still couldn't possibly turn into a depraved mess like Xayah."
Hearing Akali's stubborn reply, Faen didn't mind. Instead, he stepped right up to Akali and pressed his hard crotch directly against her chest.