"..."
It had been five minutes since I woke up now and my eyes were still locked on the lavish too-much white ceiling above.
So it wasn't a dream after all.
No, it actually felt like stupid that I even thought it was a dream.
Rather whatever life I had been in that life and world called Earth, felt like a dream instead.
But no dream could bring out so many details.
It felt too real and now it was carved into my head, so deeply that it wasn't possible to even think otherwise than it was reality.
Raising myself upright I looked around the room.
My eyes caught sight of the red curtains, the marble floors and all the gold and furnitures around.
This was my bedroom in my royal quarters.
I had been sleeping and walking up there every days since I was born to my eighteen years old now.
"How the hell did this even happen?" I muttered raising my hand and clenching my face.
Was my whole life inside a Game?
This felt like very insulting.
There had to be some explications because I refused to believe the man I was in that world, Daniel just entered that game like swallowed it.
I know that it was a plot of a lot of novels but it felt too weird to be real.
Yeah, this couldn't be just a game world.
This was real.
Helios was real.
I grew up all my life here.
Yet it was eerily similar to that world inside that Game and the settings.
These women, my wives I had seen yesterday.
I recognized all of them, part of them as girls I had met in my life and others through that Game video scenes.
Obviously they looked like game characters whereas they were real right now but by the features I could easily connect the dots between the character and the real ones.
And they were definitely not npc.
Like me, they were made of flesh and blood.
"This damn hurts…" The more I thought about it, the stronger the headache.
Maybe because I was trying to sort out the memories of two people.
"Lumiel!"
The door swung open at that tome with enough force that made me flinch a little.
It was my Mother.
"Dear God! Mother…you scared the hell out of me…" I sighed.
"How are you, my sweet boy! I have been so scared!" She immediately sat on the bed besides me and pulled me into a warm embrace.
Her unique fragrance and motherly warmth immediately started having its effect as I felt the headache felt less painful.
If only in my past life I had also her…
Not like it mattered.
"I am fine, Mother," I said patting her back. "More importantly what happened after I so…miserably passed out during my own coronation ceremony?"
Wait, holy shit, did I really fainted on the day I was crowned King?
Like is there any spell to make me forget that memories to spare me the embarrassment of facing everyone later?
My father was a strong King, a capable and confident one. After his death, I was supposed to show that I was strong enough, to prove everyone that I was plenty capable of filling the void he would leave. Instead I had crumpled down.
Well, to be truth, no one would be really surprised by it.
If anything, my evaluation might have dropped to the negative after what happened.
I was really quite a pathetic sight even before after all.
A scaredy-cat, overwhelmed by the expectations given to me by my father and the nobles.
I feared the day I would be crowned as King because I felt incompetent compared to my father and his encouraging words only worsened my self-deprecation actually.
Damn no wonder I got myself assassinated even before the gamester starts?
Well, my assassination was planned by that evil organization of the Black Sun but I almost wanted to say that I get that some nobles chose to betray me not willing to entrust the Kingdom's fate to a fatty like me.
"It was yesterday, sweetheart, do not worry about it anymore. The most important thing is that you are fine," my Dear mother as always protective and supportive of me said offering me a gentle smile that could heal any wounds.
I really appreciated her honesty but I think she knew as well how serious this was and I warned my stance by my pathetic display yesterday.
But who could blame here?
I looked at her haggard face, the dark rings under her eyes, and the lines around her mouth.
She had always been so strong.
Seeing her diminished and grieving like this barely able to hold herself together, I felt my chest tightening.
Reaching out I cupped her cheeks like she used to do to reassure me.
"Everything will turn out fine, Mother," I smiled. "I promise."
Her eyes went immediately moisten with unshed tears. She nodded slightly and stroked my hair.
"Rest as long as you need, I will call for a physician immediately."
I nodded.
I watched her leave until she left closing the door behind.
Sorry, Mother but the physian will have to wait a bit.
I pulled away the white bed sheet and pushed myself of the bed if not rolled myself off the bed.
Holy cow.
Because of Daniel's memories, I nearly forgot I was holy fat, well not that much but shabby.
This was what depression and self-loathing to a man.
"This really sucks…"
I envied my body from Earth now.
I was going to get myself assassinated and I was hella fat.
I couldn't even run away even knowing the future.
This was pathetic to be honest.
I sat on the bed's edge and fell into a deep contemplation.
"I can't die."
Father, my father left me his Kingdom and Crown.
He left me Mother and Lenora.
I need to stay alive for them.
I needed to prevent Helios from falling in the hands of that creepy organization as well.
And the first step to do that was to prove myself worthy of the throne.
And there was one solution to close the gap and show it to everyone actually.
The Ritual of the Sun.
The First Awakening Ritual that every Heir would go to awaken their bloodline and the power of the Sun.
It was a dangerous and potentially deadly ritual which was why I didn't do it even do it when I turned sixteen and avoided it until now.
Thankfully my father hadn't forced me knowing how fragile I was. I was too weak minded to go through that ritual and he knew I would most certainly die if I attempted it.
I doubted as well my previous self would have succeeded it either but now I had Daniel's memories.
Confidence was literally his thing and now mine.
"I will do it," I decided standing up.
And I was going to do it now.
There couldn't be any better timing.
Before my mother could come back and stop me thinking I turned insane.