Queen of Atlantis Ghettos

Its mid February in the bluff an notorious rundown ghetto of Atlantis. Its pretty cold but with the heat partially deciding to come out my vents its ok . The pipes didn't freeze so i guessthst is a plus i was able to get a lukewarm shower in before i made some eggs toast with grape jelly seems to be my fav go to these days .I peek out the window blinds to see another day of kids outside no shoes on, some type of domestic dispute at the play ground, junkies just standing at the corner trying to sell anything hell I believe if they could they would sell their own skin.I chewed my food intently focused on the task i was about to have to do.I came out of my apartment dreading the 10 min walk to the smart bus stop. But until I found another car this will do. Oh I am getting way ahead of myself, my name is Serabi. I'm 33 no kids just recently dumped and still searching for the right thing to do for my life. And I can say some things lead me to this point but honestly it seem like I was always trying to do right by people just to get left when I needed them most. But the strong willed woman I am just won't let settle for anymore bull shii so when Keith told me about him finding someone who could satisfy him. I didn't blink twice just laughed and cooly walked away. I was mentally checked out on him months ago. When I was bout to wash clothes an there was an makeup stains on the neckline and base of a couple ofthem I didn't say anything just started leaving. Packing lil things of mine that was at his house. I always kept my lil hideaway in the ghetto just in case something happened. He begged and cried even and I only agreed if I got to keep it i guess since he didnt pay my bills or I never asked him for money. That it was lost or already rented out. He truly believed i needed him . Its my fault I wanted him to feel like a hero. But after all my loyalty and silence he still was careless and kept getting caught in lie after lie after lie . So I decided to move my stuff back out pieces at a time. I learned that staying was easier than trying to leave like when I told him I was leaving and casually scoffed at me and said and where will you go lil muffin let alone where could you go I wouldn't find you. He then grabbed me by my neck and slapped me so hard I saw stars. But I didn't yield i spat my blood in his face and YELLED FUCK YOU MAGGOT and shoved with all my might and he fell back into the wall I heard his skull crack.