Chapter 2 : "Faisle Ki Subha"
Raat bahut Bhari Thi. main Chhat par Leta hua tha aur Aasman ko dekh raha tha. Taare the, Hawa Thi, lekin Neend Nahi thi. chapter 1 ke end par Jo Faisla Maine Khud Se Kiya Tha Vahi baar-baar dimag Me ghoom Raha Tha. Sapna dekhna ek baat hoti hai...
aur use Sapne ke liye Khud Ko Badalna, bilkul doosri.
Us Raat mujhe samajh aa gaya tha ab Peeche hatne ka option Nahi bacha. Subah Aankh Thodi jaldi khul. Gayi. Ghar abhi so raha tha maa kitchen me nahi thi, Pitaji ki khansi ki awaaz bhi nahi aa rahi thi. sirf Ghadi Ki Tik-Tik Aur meri Saansein.
main uthkar Aangan Me aa Gaya.wahi purana aangan, wahi Zameen wahi deewarein...
lekin main waisa nhi tha. Maine dheere se khud se kaha, "Bus sochne ka time khatam... ab karne ka time hai".
• Pehla Kadam, Pehli Drr :
Bina kisi ko bataye Main Ghar Se Nikal Pada. isliye Nahi ki mujhe sharam aa rahi thi, balki isliye Mujhe Dar tha Agar bol diya aur fail Ho Gaya, To Khud Se Najar Kaise milaunga? aur Gaon Se Shahar jaane wali bus mein Baitha. bus Bhari hui thi. Koi Naukri ki baat kar raha tha. Koi mehngai ko kos raha tha, Koi Apne future se pareshan tha. aur Main?
Khidki Se Bahar dekh raha tha. Sadak ke har Mod lag raha tha jaise zindagi poochh rahi ho sach mein taiyaar hai kya?" Shehar Pahunchte hi Bheed, Shor aur Tez Chalti zindagi ne Mujhe gher liya. main thoda sa ghabra Gaya. Gaon Ka Ladka tha, Itni Bheed ka Aadat Nahi. phir Bhi, Kadam Nahi Roke. main us coaching center ke bahar Khada Tha Jiske baare me Sab bolte the "yahin se Vardi Nikalti Hai board per likha tha.
• Selectionguaranteed (conditions apply) :
Main andar Gaya.
counter per Baitha Banda Bina Mujhe Dekhe bola,
" form bharna hai"?
aur "Ji", Maine Kaha.
usne please batayi. number sunte hai mera Pairon Ke Niche Se zameen khisak Gayi itne paise...
Mere Liye almost Namumkin.
maine form Dekha phir apni Jeb Bande ne mujhe Dekha aur Thoda Sa muskura ke bola, "Bina investment ke result Nahi Milta bhai Main Kuchh bola Bina Bahar aa Gaya.
• Khud Se Takkar :
Bahar dhoop tez Thi lekin Dil usse Bhi Jyada Jal Raha Tha. Main Footpath per Baith Gaya. Aaj pahli bar samajh gaya sirf jazba Kaafi Nahi. Hota dimaag Mein Ek Awaaz aayi Chhod Dega, Tere Bus ka Nahin lekin Usi Awaaz Ke Niche Ek Aur Awaaz Thi to tu bhi agar Chhod Dega to, phir kya hai Rah Jaayega.? main uth khada Hua. coaching Nani to kya? Raasta Aur Bhi Hoga.
• Library Aur Nayi Shuruaat :
Main Seedhe Ek purani Si government library Gaya. Chhoti building kam Log, aur bilkul Shaanti. yah Mujhe Pahli bar laga ki Shayad yah Jagah Meri Hai Main Ek uthai pahle page khola per simple the lekin unmen Dam Tha ghante ka pata hi nahin Chala kab Subah dopahar Bani, Nahin Aaya Ghar lautte waqt thakaan Thi per mann Halka tha.
• Roz ki Jung :
Agla Kuch din ek hi Jaise guzre. Subah library, Shaam Chhote-mote kam dhoondhna, Raat padhai Ek Jagah kaam Mila bhi lekin Paisa Itna kam tha ki books Lena bhi Mushkil Ek Din Maalik Ne dant Diya zyada Soch mat, Jo bola Jaaye wo kar us din samajh gaya Sapne Har Jagah allowed Nahi Hote. main kaam Chhod Diya Ghar Aaya to Pitaji naaraz the, man chup. main room Mein Band Ho gaya.
• Tootne Ka Pal :
Us Raat sach me laga ki Shayad main galat hoon. books Saamne Padi Thi, lekin Aankhen Bhaari Thi, Khud se poocha, Sach me ho paayega kya? koi Jawab Nahi. Aaya bas wo Vardi Yaad Aayi main Utha book Kholi, aur padhna Shuru kar the Aansu Girte Rahe,per padhai Nahi Ruki.
• Umeed Ka Chehra :
Kuchh Din bad library Mein Ek aadami Mila simple kapde Sath Chehra usne poochha Kisi exam ki taiyari Vardi mein kahan vah Muskura Diya Main Bhi ISI Raste Se nikala hoon. use ek sentence Ne Mujhe Sambhal liya usne Kaha Akele ladna sabse Mushkil hota hai use Din Laga Shayad Bhagwan Ne Pahli Badal bhej di hai lekin mujhe nahin Pata Tha Ki Aane Wala Waqt Meri Sabse Badi Pariksha dene wala hai aur Shayad...
Meri zindagi ka sabse bada mod bhi.
To be continued...