I can no longer see the point in talking to professionals in this worldline. Why would I do that when every time they do, they just don't know what to do or say.
Even if I get the help I need fromna therapist, I am all alone. Sometimes I wonder if I should transmigrate into the world of ORV.
At least let me die in a peaceful way so my soul can travel somewhere in which TWSA exists and I can become the main character. That book is the only thing that gave me my salvation when no one else did.