Honestly, i don't know how you survived this far, but you're strong, the strongest girl I've ever met.
These things are never easy to talk about. I don't blame you.
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Now standing before your grave, i can't help but cry.
I should have never left you alone, i should have been there, i should have tried harder.
I regret it, I'm sorry.
You left quietly... Same way you came,
I should have done better.
I'm sorry... I didn't know, i never knew.
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HER
I've worked hard, life isn't easy for me.
I've tried, I'm getting tired.
I met someone, he stayed, he wasn't like them, he didn't hurt me.
I didn't trust him at first, i couldn't but i later did.
He was a true friend, he became someone closer to the family i wish i had.
Soon i got attached, i felt like i couldn't live without him.
I wished he would stay for long, but he didn't.
I don't blame him though, maybe i became too much.
With him, i finally felt happy, comfortable and safe.
He was my safe place, but also a final prove that i was never meant to be happy, because it seems any good thing i get will be snatched away.
I believe,somewhere at the end, there were many good people, I'm grateful for having someone who sees me as an important person for once, someone who cares.
As i finally closed my eyes, i wished him happiness.
If there was a next life, i wish never to be born.