Amory's POV
Storming out of the school was not a good idea, it was never one, because outside was not better unless I was going for a suicide drive that will end with Velda's car crashed and beaten up and at the end of the day taken to a junkyard.
The tempting idea crossed my mind for a second but I shut it down, I don't want anything that will make me cross ways with my Mom, I have been actively avoiding her since I almost shattered the glass vase on her head, I wasn't afraid of her or anything, I just didn't want any kind of conversation with her whatsoever.
I was still on my way to my car when I saw Carmen and she immediately stopped to wave at me before she came to me with her backpack wrapped tightly on her back.
" Hey Amory where are you going" she asked as soon as she was standing at arms length with me
" Out, I'm too cranky to be in school today" I say simply
" Ugh... What happened this time around " she asked
" I'm too cranky to talk about it"
" You have been cranky for like three days now, what is going on" she asked looking concerned again
" Nothing, I'm leaving "
"Just so you know, your Mom has been calling and trying to reach you, she might be at your apartment right now because she called me not quite long"
That made me pause and turn around.
Outside school is not an option after hearing this news. She can easily find me if I'm outside school but she won't come here, at least I'm sure of that one.
And that is how I turned around and walked with my best friend back to school and subsequently to class.
I'm going to just ignore whatever is not suiting in my sight and act as if it does not exist. I'm going to ignore Kale and the new girl I haven't seen before as much as I can, I mean it shouldn't be hard right???
It was. It was hard.
I thought I knew myself very well at least to the extent of knowing what I can do and can't do or even the ability to say I'll do something and do that exact thing. I trusted myself to a very large extent but right now I couldn't say the same, I was losing my patience very fast.
I was fine when kale was not talking to me, just being on my own but I just realized I couldn't keep it to myself any longer watching him with another girl act like they have been long married and finally reunited and can't get their hands off each other, she was holding his hands, their arms was linked, she was touching his face, even his hair, though kale never initiated any voluntary touch, he didn't reject hers either.
The mere thought was gnawing in me, I couldn't interfere and I couldn't look away either.
" Ugh.. Amory, I think it's better you go talk to him rather than staring creepily at them" I heard Carmen say but my eyes were still fixed on the duo as they got their food and went to sit down at their usual table.
" What? " I said Finally tearing my eyes aware from them to look at her
" I'm saying it's better you talk to him if you want to do so badly"
I glared at her. "what?, I mean you have been giving them deadly stare since today, I'm just saying you can just say hi to him and tell him you want to keep being friends with him"
I was listening to Carmen and the only thing that registered in my head is speaking to Kale again, however it comes, so I quickly nodded
" Okay, let's go over to their table then " Carmen was surprised at my sudden agreement with argument, I was far too gone to explain
" Really, you're going to be friends with him again?". She asked just to be sure
" Isn't that what you advised me to do now"
She nodded in happiness and followed me, I was already on my way to the table with even thinking it twice and then stopped halfway at the commotion in the table and gritted my teeth as I watched Kale's hands around her waist as he tried to steady her from falling from tripping on her own fucking feet.
My eyes were fixed on his veiny arms as it moved around her waist to help her finally sit down. I should probably turn around and walk away from this scene with my head held high like I didn't care about him or the blonde fairy beside him, I couldn't even diss her in my mind because she was pretty, undeniably so, with such an innocent character that I can't even compete with.
But then again it's Amory, I'm not an innocent nature goddess, I was an enchantress and I own up to it, just like Cleopatra, that was me, nothing about me was innocent and giving up on Kale
too early was a mistake because the truth is I'm not tired of him yet, matter of fact, I was still yet to experience the sugar rush that came with him, just the thought of those arms around me was already making me high and I'm going to right my wrong now.
I sat down at the table and it seemed like the tension had thickened but I couldn't care less. My eyes were fixed on him, his eyes were on me for a moment before he looked down.
That just annoyed me, because my eye was on him the entire time, now he couldn't bear to look at my face.
I shrugged off my shoe and stretched my legs until it made contact with his leg, letting my feet trace it up and down and watching his reaction.
The last time I did this to him, he asked me not to do it again but here I am doing that exact same thing and watching him squirm in his seat.
At least I can still elicit this kind of reaction from him and that was enough for me.
He suddenly shot up to his feet and said he was going to the bathroom, leaving hastily without looking back.
That was my cue and I followed him out, I was walking and I was well aware of the girl that was walking behind me, that didn't deter me, rather I walked into the bathroom stall.
Kale was washing his face and stopped to look up as he heard the bathroom open, his eyes widened in surprise as he watched me approach him.
" Hey, Amory what are you doing here"
Before my own brain processed what I was doing, my hand connected with the back of his head and pulled until my lips covered his.
I was kissing kale and it felt good. I wanted to make the blonde girl he has been playing with today feel maybe a fraction of what I have been feeling since today started.
So I circled my hands around his head and pushed my lips on his, his lips were so soft and I couldn't help but jerk forward, he wasn't kissing me back but he's lips trembled against mine and a shiver coursed through me, and I tightened my hands around his head, the feeling was something I wanted to stay with me forever, I was close to kale, too close, I was doused in his cologne, everything that came with him, those incredible soft lips was between my lips and did it make me squeeze my toes together.
My mind was becoming hazy and my hand loosened around his neck but then
He kissed me back, and the groan was imminent, eliciting from him or me, I don't know but my hazy head was suddenly cleared and a spark ignited in my head, along with every nervous system in my being, they all came alive and suddenly I could feel every slight touch of his, every pull and push, his hard body against mine.
One of his hand came around my neck and the other around my waist and then he slanted his lips against mine and kissed me crazy, like a starved man his lips devoured mine and I could only tighten my hands on his hair and pulled but that seemed to spur him on because that groan elicited from his throat again and he pushed me against the wall, his two hands was now around my neck and took my lower lips between his lips and sucked and I moaned, I was shivering, Every path of me was lighted up, and the man in front of me was someone I didn't recognize any longer, he wasn't stopping not even to take air which we were clearly losing with our lips smudged together, I wasn't complaining either, I don't know what will happen if he pulls away, maybe he will finally come back to his senses and go back to his pretty blonde, so I couldn't pull away.
But then again good feeling don't still last, because we were Interrupted by the familiar voice behind us
" Ugh... I really don't want to interrupt this golden moment before my eyes but then, people are already lined up in the bathroom and not really happy that it's locked "
That was the breaking point because kale stilled as the voice of the blonde rang through the room and he pulled away slowly and I watched his eyes slowly open and stare directly into my eyes, I expected him to freak out or push me aside or at least find an excuse to his pretty blonde but he didn't move an inch from me, his breath was heavy as his eyes moved to my lips that was still a bit wet and his hand moved to swipe it around my lips, subsequently cleaning it with his thumps, he swallowed at the sight and finally spoke
" I'm sorry Amory, I .. I didn't mean to ugh... do that"
I was staring at him as his eyes was now unfocused, eyes darting around my face and his hands leaving every path of me that it held and did I hate it, I opened my mouth to speak but I was interrupted
" Did anybody hear what I just said, seriously they're gonna break this bathroom very soon, if you don't come out"
That finally made us pull away from each other, and even though I wanted to still stay with him, I didn't want to see him explain why he kissed me and how much of a mistake it was was, I didn't need anybody to tell me he regretted, his face was full of guilt, so I stepped out of his presence and stormed out of the bathroom.
I did what I wanted, that's all that matters and the tingle on my lips hasn't left, so I still need to go and reminisce about it for the remainder of today, I'll think about the consequences later on.
I walked into the cafeteria but Carmen was no longer there. I took my bag and turned around only to be met by Kale who was standing at the entrance of the cafeteria with his hands in his pocket.
" Can I talk to you for a second Amory"
He asked his gaze fixed on me, I wanted to say no and take a run for it, but this is Kale asking for my audience, which means I'll have his undivided attention, something I have come to crave over time, I can't even remember when this all started but that doesn't matter so I nod immediately he finished speaking and he left directing me to follow him and we walked to the spot under the tree I always sit on.
" I was serious when I apologized in the bathroom, I'm really sorry..."
I took a deep breath and I asked
" Why, why are you apologizing"
" For kissing you like that, it wasn't planned, I just"
" I kissed you first" I said as a matter of fact
" Yeah, but I shouldn't have kissed you back like that at least not without asking for permission first, for that I'm sorry "
I watched his hollow eyes look at me and I couldn't help but chuckle, so he didn't regret kissing me but not asking for permission before doing it
" And I also want to apologize in advance for what I might do I in the future, I know you said you didn't want me as a friend or anything else but then you went ahead and kissed me, I don't think I can stay away anymore"
Okay that was unexpected.
But he continued, this time he stepped closer to me.
" I'm not going to stay away from you and I'm not staying as your friend either my desire to remain as your friend died when you kissed me at the bathroom"
He finished and stepped away, when I didn't say anything he apologized again and left me there speechless and my brain hazed.