I remembered exactly how the first day of school in my life went. I walked into the room filled with toys and a whiteboard with a bunch of colorful magnets attached. It was the activities we were supposed to do today. The today noticed me and wrote down my name onto a namelist and didn't say anything more.
There were two kids sitting on the floor, one eating a banana. These were the two people I first interacted with outside of my family. Trying to prove something, kid me took out my own banana and ate it in one big bite. I don't know what 7 year old me was trying to accomplish, maybe assert dominance? But the kid wasn't impressed at all and just continued eating his fruit normally.
Kid me always wanted to prove that I was good. Like how my parents taught me. Never to cry. Never to scream. To always be nice to other people. I wanted to show the teachers that I was interested that I loved the subjects they taught. You could say I was one of those "know-it-all" kids that would always put their hand to answer a teacher's question. Or one of those kids who would tell a teacher that they are wrong.
Because of that some people disliked me. But some found me amusing enough to hang out with me. The first friend I ever made in school was this dude, let's call him MM. MM and I connected in a way I had never I thought was possible. We ate together, we played together, we would wander the school yards on recess together talking about video games. We even played this game where he and I pretended to be inside a game. I would become a monster and when he slayed me, he would earn EXP and new abilities. It was like one of those MMORPs and it was incrediblely silly when I was on all my fours jumping up and down like a maniac as he slashed me with a stick pretending it to be a great sword.
Life was fun and there wasn't anything to worry about. Because of me spending hours on my tablet, I happened to stumble upon Youtube channels like Kurgezagt and Buzzfeed. These Youtube channels helped to improve my knowledge of the world and the science behind it. And as for my english it was all thanks to minecraft youtubers like Ssundee, DanTDM and Popularmmos. Everyday when I came home I would rush to my tablet and open youtube to watch these youtubers play minecraft.
It was a ritual, everyday I would chime in to "lucky block challenge" or "Zombie apocalypse in minecraft".
I remember learning how to say "what the heck" and when I repeated that sentence in front of my dad, he wasn't amused at all and asked me where I had learned it. I told him that I had been watching videos. He then gave a look before continuing eating his food.
And then, my mom gave birth to my first brother. Let's call him Lip. When Lip was born it made me wonder where he came from. I always taught that babies came from the armpit of a woman. That's what my mom told me atleast. But when she changed it to that she found me in dumpster out on the streets. So I thought that she had also created him from her armpit.
Lip was a silly baby. Me and my cousin who lived with me at the time would mess around with my brother. Putting paperboats on his head and trying to carry him when our arms with thin as twigs. This one time Lip crawled under the dining table and laid a massive shit on the rug. I remember the size of that shit being the same size as his head and my poor father had to crawl under the table to pick it up.
But then, as you already know, kids get into fights for the stupidest of reasons. I don't even remember why but one day me and my cousin got into an altercation. I picked up a bottle of mosquito repellent and sprayed it into his eyes. He immediately started screaming covering his eyes and then I bit him like a vampire until he was screeching and his body was shaking as if he was having a seizure.
This habit of biting people whenever I got into a fight continued. I would bite people if they took my stuff. I would bite peple if I didn't like them.