Chapter 133: A Throat Full of Tears and a Home Drowned in Estrangement
Poisonous Solitude and the Cruel Comparison
That night, darkness draped itself over the courtyard like a heavy, suffocating shroud. Diyari sat on the cold floor in a corner of the room, his back pressed against the very wall where Rina used to hang her paintings of love. His hands were trembling—not from the biting chill of the air, but from the searing agony festering within his chest. He felt as though he had no one left in the universe. Even Rina, who was a literal piece of his soul, now looked upon him with the vacant stare of a total stranger.
From his lonely corner, he could hear Rina's voice drifting down from the high branches of the tree as she spoke to the child. She praised the infant with a tenderness that cut Diyari to the bone. "You are so pure," she whispered, "so different from your father. You are not like him—consumed by a selfish love. You will be the light of the world."
These words tore Diyari into a thousand pieces. Rina had praise for everyone and everything except for him. It was as if he had become a black stain upon their existence. A bitter jealousy boiled in his heart—not out of malice, but out of a desperate hunger for the affection the child received so freely, while he remained starved for a single merciful glance.
Diyari: (Voice broken, whispering to the heavens) "Why? Why must I always be the sacrifice? I gave everything, and now I don't even have a place in my own home. Rina praises the world, she praises the angels, but for me, she only has the dagger of her cold words. Why is this loneliness so suffocating?"
A Dialogue of Pain at the Peak of Despair
Diyari could no longer endure the silence. He stood up and stumbled to the foot of the tree. He cried out toward the branches, his voice thick with the tears he had been swallowing for hours.
Diyari: "Rina! Come down! Please, for one second, listen to me as a human being, not as a comrade! Do you know how lonely I am? Do you know how my heart shatters like glass when you praise the world while ignoring me? I am here! I am the same man you once told 'the world is empty without you'! Why is your world so full now that I am the only thing extra in it?"
Rina descended gracefully from the tree, her wings shimmering like shards of ice. She looked at Diyari with a coldness so profound it made him feel as though he had ceased to exist.
Rina: "Diyari, why do you act so childishly? Your loneliness is not my concern. I have a grand mission on my shoulders. If you feel broken, it is because you have expectations of me. I have nothing to give you—no praise, no compassion, no love. You say you are jealous of your own child? That is a sign of how small you are. The child is the future; you are merely a blood-soaked past I wish to forget."
The Shattering of a Soul and the Guardian's Vow
In a fit of desperation and inner agony, Diyari tore at his own shirt. "A blood-soaked past? That blood was mine, shed to protect you! Rina, the world broke me, and now you... you were my last hope, and you say I am nothing? I am like a man who has been lost for five years, waiting for a return that never comes! I am suffocating in this house!"
He collapsed onto the ground, right at Rina's feet, weeping with a depth that seemed to make the very forest tremble. He didn't want to be strong anymore; he just wanted someone to tell him he mattered. But Rina only watched him in silence, as if he were a stone blocking her path. She turned and went inside, telling him to learn to be alone if he wished to stay.
Diyari remained outside as a light rain began to fall, washing the blood from his wounds but failing to douse the fire in his heart. He plunged his red sword into the earth and sat before the door like a faithful guardian.
Diyari: (A whisper full of hope and pain) "Rina... you can close the doors, you can pretend you don't know me, but our love is like the roots of an ancient tree. You can cut it at the surface, but beneath the earth, we are still intertwined. I will not leave. If it takes a thousand years, I will be here until the day your eyes recognize their 'Diyari' once again."
Written by: Dlin_myth