My daily memories...
Sardiyon ka mousam chal hai, Lekin aaj or dino se bhot jyada thand hai, aaj kohra barish ki tarha pad rha hai aisa lagta hai mano badal aaj Khushi ki vjha se baras rahe hai, pholon or podho par padi huyi dhund bhot pyari lag rhi hai mano jaise sare sare phool podhe ne aaj kapde pehn liye ho.... Aaj jab maine subha uth kar apne din ki pheli saans li, tho mousam mein kohre ki smell mano meri puri body ko thand se utha rhi thi..... Es sard mousam mein heater ki garm hawayein meri sanso ko rahat de rhi hai... Lekin pani ka haal kuch aisa hai jaise ki barf pighal rha ho, or hatho mein pani lene par hatho ka sunn hona aaj ehsaas hua hai ki jo army soldiers humri safety k liye har roj har pal aksar barf mein rah kar duty karte hai unka kya haal hota hoga,.... Mai har roj apni life se kuch naya sekhne ki kosis karti hun, har roj zindagi se jitna sikhne ki kosis karte hai hum utna hi hum ulazate chale jate hai lekin zindagi samz nhi aati, bss hum har roj jiye jaa rhe hai....
Maine zindagi se kuch khaas kabhi nhi sikha lekin meri zindagi ne muze choti si umar mein bhot tazurbe diye hai, yahi vjha hai ki meri umar se badi meri soch hai kyunki ynha log jaise dekhte hai vaise hote nhi or jo hote hai vo kbhi vo dekhate hi nhi... Mai ynha apni zindagi ki kahani btaye hun ye sab Jo mai likh rhi hun vo sirf words nhi hai Balki meri zindagi hai .... Jo maine jee hai jo maine samzi hai ,
Tho mai apni zindagi ki kitab suru karti hun, 2004 jab meri maa muze es duniya mein le kar aayi, meri maa ne pehli baar mehsoos kiya ki maa banna kya hai, jab mai es duniya mein aayi thi, ek nanhi si pari jaisi gudiya si bachi, ek dar dudh jaisi hori, abnoos ki lakdi ki tarah bilkul kale baal, chote- chote hath paon, sab khush thy sirf meri Nani ko chod kar kyunki vo ro rhi thi ye soch kar ki ladki huyi hai. Lekin mera or sara parivar bhot khus, sab pyar krte thy restedar or pados k log bhi bhot pyar se rakte thy. Mai bhot hasti thi bhot khil- khilati thi. Dhire dhire mai badi hone lagi sab kuch acha chal rha tha lekin ek din kuch aisa hua ki mai ek dam chup ho gyi, meri zindagi mein sab kuch ek dam badal gya jo kuch phele acha lagta tha ab vo sab muze koi khusi nhi deta tha... Bhot time lga muze ye sab samzne mein, lekin kabhi kisi ko bol k keh hi nhi payi ki mai thik nhi hun....