I remember how it all started. I was only 4 and it was just me and my dad and we were the only family we had.
I wanted to help him so much just like how he helped me grow up to be the person I am.
He loved his wife more than anything in the world. He never re-married after she died, he only thought about her and me he told me many stories about her. I've always wished I could have met her, my father alway made her sound like if she were a god above us all.
She was a hunter a well know hunter that everyone envied. Not all hunters are good hunters I've learned that the hard way, I wished I had never awakened to be a hunter I could have disguised my awakening as a craftsman and been just like my father a creator.
Being a hunter wasn't bad the pay is amazing but I would have rather been a regular civilian than a monster like them.
Astor. . .
Remember that all beautiful things are not beautiful. From the colors the Ora, shape and feel mean nothing if their rotten and dirty from inside. You are not beautiful. Your far from it, I've always wished you took more from your mother than me. She loved anything and everything that was beautiful.
No-one ever dared go near her not even I, I've aways knew that i wasn't as beautiful as she was. How could I ever compare myself to her beauty. Her eyes, skin, hair, smile and even her fights were all beautiful nothing compares to the amount of power she had. I never knew what she saw in me a mear s class craftsman who's always covered with dirt, ash and trash who works for the company to build armer and weapons for the "heroes". I had nothing compared to her a hunter a hero to everyone, someone who sacrificed her life for others, people who never cared for her well being to which was the reason for her death.
I've begged them to save her too but they looked down on me like if I were trash. Saying
"why bother going in such a dangerous place for one person we can just replace them just like the others"
I'll never forget that day I wasn't allowed to enter that place because of them. I could've saved her my self if they only let me go in there, but they insisted pushed me out and closed the rift. I've made so many sacrifices for them I've gave them my time my strength my ability, but in the end they took all my creations my weapons destroyed my lab equipment that took years to create and in the end they tossed us aside like trash and that's not beautiful.
Astor I want you to remember that
the so called hunters that people see as heroes are just trash that haven't been put in their right places. It's rare to find a real precious gem in that.
Just like your mother.
Astor your my sole reason to live. And if I have to bend and brake the rules for you I will even if that means death.
While I worked for those wicked hunters I've noticed that most used swords and mana when they fight. I've written down every flaw and ways they died even the weapon that caused them there life, but they never bothered to read it. So when they kicked me out I took the book and created something beautiful with it. I call it "Project Plunko" It was something I was working on a secret project they decided to cancel. A room that only people that were allowed in by the creator could go in. A place of safety, horror, and emptiness I've made 3 different ones a safe place called "Sweet Home" a training room called "Elegance"one and a blank room called "Desire" all just for you to become strong in you own way. A way that no one has trained in a safe place that you could die in as well if you can't fight back properly my training ground for you my lil bunny.
A craftsman doesn't only make things for fights and protection but creates anything that could be thought and imagined about.
Astor my son you are not beautiful enough you need to polish yourself more.
I don't care what class you get I've already crate the best fitted weapon for you. Just never sacrifice yourself for other that don't see you like your mother.
Astor looked down at his hands
Dad. . .
Do I have to help others like mom did if I became a hunter?
I would rather make weapons just like you. I don't want to be forced to become a hunter if I awaken like mom.
. . .
Sadly we don't really have a choice if the world is in chaos all the time.
Just remember what I said not all hunters now there place, but there are some that are rare and beautiful.
I hope I can be a craftsman like you dad I've always loved watching and helping you out.
Father looked at me with a smile "Come here my lil bunny".
Don't call me that!! I don't like that I'm not a bunny!!!
Your mother always called you lil bunny before you were even born it's nothing new to you. She would be very upset if she heard you saying that you know she's sensitive just like you.
Astor looked up at his dad angry with a flushed face complaining.
Hehehe Let's go home buddy.
We'll have to wait like a week for your results anyway.
We got the results in 4 days. It turns out that I'm just like my mom a hunter a B class hunter lower than her. I was 14 when they told me they needed more hunters so I was forced to drop out of school and work for them. It was true what my father said about the hunters they were ugly and disgusting and looked "beautiful" in the outside.
My father tried pleading them to not let me go in the dungeons and rifts, but like always they never cared to lessen to him. There were times I hadn't seen my father for days and months. I had no one and felt like a machine working days and nights with out brakes.
The more time i spent in the dungeons the more I leveled up I went from a B level to A and than finally S grade meaning I was deployed to more dangerous missions than others older hunters at age 18. Instead of graduating like my classmates I was fighting for their lives and my what a fucked up system.
I had saved so many people during all this time and I've never once got a "thank you" from anyone. They instead complained about how I should have saved more people how I should had been faster how I shouldn't wast time looking around that time is precious. That it was my fault for all the people that died to take responsibility and apologize to the people for "my mistakes".
I was the only one working hard unlike my colleagues who just walked around saying "Astor got this he aways does" putting a 18 year old to do all there work.
How Disgusting
Later on I was called in to my superiors office to be told that my father has gone missing and that there were not enough information to find out that happened the day he disappeared. I wished and prayed for something to come up but nothing did, there was nothing. 2 years later he's still nowhere to be found.
There were times were I wished that I could just die while fighting so I could maybe return to the pass were I still was with my father, But time can't be rewind even if I wanted to I wished and hoped that I could some how turn back time or could have at least 1 wish but that's not possible. I have to live in the real world we're a lost is a lost and I can't do anything about it.
Maybe It would be best if I just disappear and people thought that I've died.
EIther way I did have to close the rift soon and see if there were any survivors in there
Well if I'm deciding on taking a break on my own I mite as well finish my job and check out if theirs anyone left in there.
In fact there was someone there, there were two young children in there they looked like a kindergarten student and a high schooler around the same age as me. They looked like siblings a older brother and a younger sister the only two that were left behind. They were lucky I found them one of them were in a completely covered in the the rebel luckily I decided to lessen around after finding the little girl. Who would have ever left a little kid by themselves.
I personally would be sad to if I had a sibling that that was left behind because someone couldn't bother to look under the rebel.
Being alone isn't really fun anyways. It's nice to see a pare.
There's about one hour still left to close the rift going back would take about 30 minutes leaving around 20 minutes to look for an mistake.
While making my way back I thought about how long I should take a break for 2-3 months just enough to be recharged for more after I returned. I had miss calculated the time I had left and I wasn't able to make it out on time but managed to get the last to kids out before the rift closed on it's self.
At least the kids got lucky they got out in time I was stuck in there trying to find a way to get out. When I remembered about the rooms my father made I never really thought about going in them but instead put all my money and valuables in there . I just couldn't trust anyone with my stuff after my father went missing o I hid and put all my things In the rooms my father created they were like pocket holes were only I could access them no one else could just like father said. Surprisingly time doesn't flow in the rooms they just stop kinda like in the rift were it's slower and faster in the real world.
I had food and water and a safe place to stay just like father said though I was still stuck in the rift. I always believed that the rifts and dungeons were connected so there shouldn't be only one opening to them I explored it for what felt like 5 months and found an exist and when i finally made it out the city looked completely different.
It looked like they had been well off with me in it.
Well at lest this time I mite be able to just to still take my break if I'm not found. I could always just say that I got lost or something. No one would care anyways.