~~Gideons POV~~
Gideon frowned and stood up. He walked around his desk to stand in front of her. His form towered over hers. He saw her shutter and thought it was from fear until her smelt her arousal again. He leaned back and crosses his arms in front of him.
" What do you want to know?" He asked finding himself curious as to what was going on in his mate's head. When he left her, she was perfectly find.
She chewed on her bottom lip nervously and played with hem of her shirt. It was distracting because all Gideon wanted to do was rip her shirt from her body. Last night he has woke up a maidservant to some and change her clothes. Emmeline was something different in his life and he found the he didn't know how to understand or speak to her.
Her gaze dropped a little so Gideon moved to place a finder under her chin, lifting her head up to look at him. Her eyes always seemed to take Gideons breath away. They were vulnerable and innocent and yet there was something deep about them .
"I know who you are " She whispered softly. "I've read about you in books."
Gideon didn't say anything. He wanted to know what his mate thought of him. She sighed and moved to fully face him. He found the urge to pull her close, afraid she will be too disgusted by him.
" You've killed so many people." She stated.
"To protect what is mine". He responded with the truth. He killed many and was a merciless Alpha. Fear was good in his eyes. Fear means no one will attempt to harm what was his.
" You frighten me." She admitted and his heart stopped beating. " You are everyone's worst nightmare and the power that surrounds you is intimidating."
He saw her swallow hard before he spoke. "Then that leaves the question of, Do you want me as your mate?"
It felt as if time has stopped. Gideon didn't know if he wanted to hear the truth or not, but he knew either way, he was going to keep her. She was his and he wasn't going to let her go even if she didn't want him.
"I do." She breathed "But I need to know..."
He arched his eyebrow. Inside he was relieved she wanted to be his mate but he knows there was something more swirling around in his mate's little head. A part of him was not patient and wanted to shake his mate until she told him what was going on in her mind, but her knew if her snapped, she would retreat. He wanted nothing more that to make this work, but Gideon knew he wasn't the most handsome man in the world. His body was covered in scars and so was his face. It would be hard for his mate to accept him.
"What is it that you want to know, Em?" He asked using her nickname. Her breath bitched a little.
"I'm a virgin." She spit out. He blinked and his lip twitched a little. He knew his mate was a virgin. He can smell it from her. The briney scent of being intact.
"You're asking if I am one too." He stated.
She nodded and Gideon sighed. His answer will tear his mate's heart. He knew it but couldn't find it in him to lie to her.
" I'm not a virgin, Em." He said
Her face fell and the corners of her lips tipped downward. She was upset and he could feel it rolling off of her in waves. He exalted and rubbed his face. He didn't know how to handle this. He slept with women because it calmed him down. Hell, he was thirty-two years old. She must understand that he couldn't wait that long. His wolf would have went crazy before they even met but those women where just that. They were there to calm him and that was it. They meant nothing to him because most of them were repulsed by the deep scar on his face.