Patrick and Dawn lay in bed, her head planted firmly on his chest and leg sprawled across his. A light whistle could be heard as she breathed.
Patrick held her with both arms. The event's of the the twenty four hours were racing through his mind. How easy it was to escape, their motorcycle ride and how aggressive Dawn was with him . What was it with that motorcycle that made Dawn so excited , he thought to himself. Then there was the time they had spent together. Her warm body shifted against his . He was thirsty and hungry, but didnt want to move, he didnt want this to end.
Then he had a vision of his demise, his neck breaking when the trap door was sprong. Falling to an inevitable end. This made his heartbeat rise , and Dawn noticed it.
Is everything alright? she cooed. Just having bad thoughts ,Patrick said. About what? She said as she turned her head to meet his eyes.
Patrick smiled and kissed her forehead. Its nothing, trying to ease her concerns. There gonna hang you? Isn't that right she said frankly. This took Patrick by surprise. He didn't know how to start a conversation with her about this and here she just blurted it right out, as if it was the same as asking for directions. He signed deeply and responded, I believe so , not much to do to change that. Dawn scrambled to her knees grabbing his left hand with both of hers.
We could run away! Somewhere were they can never find us, just you and me. Start a new life , a life together far , far, from this horrible war. Her words were wild with desperation. Patrick smiled, didnt say anything for a minute. He just looked at her , her long blond bed head hair, her soft supple lips , freckles,her button nose and them radar ears. As she wisked her hair behind them both . To clear her face and look him straight in the eye. Patrick, chuckling , you make that sound so easy , as if we are going to the store for groceries and a bottle of wine. But it isn't that easy, I killed an officer, I have no remorse for this but i have to face the consequences of it. No matter what they are. There is no place on this earth where they wont look for me, no amout of time or distance can save me from my actions. Not even if God himself granted me a solution, these men would wage war on God and drag me back , just to see me hang. Dawn looked at him in surprise. What , he grunted. Nothing, nothing its just thats the most i ever heard you say in on time , its mostly, whats for dinner or , can you wipe my butt , Dawn? They both burst out laughing. Oh come on now ,Patrick defended, I can wipe my own butt now, want to see? She giggled, no , no i can imagine it just fine. Patrick scooted himself up on the bed, and Dawn lay her head on his lap , he began to twirl her golden hair between his fingers. I cant say what the future holds , my love, all I can say, is right now at this moment, im the happiest I ever been, let's just try to enjoy what we have now and worry about the future when it gets here. What you say, love.
Dawn wrapped her arms around his legs and squeezed very hard. You just called me love twice! In a low voice. Still twirling her hair , sure why not, I think im in love with you, personally I never been in love so I cant say for sure what it feels like , but if it feels like I would cross the deepest ocean, climb the highest mountain just to be next to you , well then I guess its love.
Dawn began to cry , sobbing in his lap . Patrick patted her head. Think of it this way , love, at least youll have me forever. What do you mean. She said wiping her tears and nose on the blanket. Ther are so many farhers , brothers, sons , husbands and lovers. Lost forever because of this war. They well never return home. All there family gets is a letter from the government, saying thank you for your loved ones ultimate sacrifice,for his nation. He is buried somewhere under another thousand dead loved ones. , do they really say that Dawn asked with shocked voice. Patrick laughed, no , no I was being ... being angry . But they should say that because its the truth , or that they couldn't find even a part of there loved ones to even return to them , because there isn't anything left. Just a name, a fucking name that says so and so died in this battle. What im trying to say Dawn , I can write a will , giving you the right to me , my body forever. Then when all is said and done you can burry me here out back or in the front under that wonderful tree. You well have me for ever . Thats far more then all those poor mothers and sisters and wife's well get. Better then just a pice of papper from someone , whomever says thanks, for your sacrifice. Don't you think? This held in the air for a long moment. For the first time , Dawn had released the this boy , no man , had been thinking about more then just pudden and rice. He had deep , deep thoughts and feeling on life and death , ones she never even concerned over or considered as an option. All those boys and men , gone forever. Nothing could bring them back. To have nothing of your son , or father to burry and give respect to , made her cry . Very hard.
Patrick hugged her very tightly, I knew you would understand, you French ladies are are so resonable compared to British women. Dawn , snaped back , oh you have so much experience with women now ? Do you , smart ass? Patrick tried to backpeddle, oh no thats not.. Dawn stopped him , I know what you mean silly boy. I just wanted to make you squirm. So easy you are, she said muffled through the blanket she had her head buried in , on his lap. Tiss, was Patrick's only response. He thought to himself , better quit now when ahead. The he said well im no doctor but we have had sex ten times , so im pretty sure i knocked up up , unless you have some way of stopping it? Dawn , sprang up , looking at Patrick this didnt even cross her mind , she began to panic, a million different thoughts ran in her mind. A noticeable look of fear was on her face. Then Patrick said , we can do it one more time to make sure , you can even stand on your head after to get the best chance? This snaped Dawn out of her spiraling anxiety, her eyes narrowed and lips puckered to the right, funny man she said. So funny I forgot to laugh. All im saying is I want be with you forever, I know I cannot, but this one way . Think about it, youll have me and maybe a little boy or even a girl. Maybe of both of us. Then you can plant me in the back yard or the front and water me once awhile, tell story's to our baby about how funny i am. This made Dawn upset she jumped off Patrick and , looked at him angrily, you're so morbid. It scares me sometimes, like when they gased us and you were waving your hands around. Judy and I got very scared over that. We couldn't see how anything like that , ... so horrific could make anyone so , so crazy. The way you were eating too. Patrick laughed, I have lived with death in by back pocket for so long , Dawn, it dosent seem real anymore. I dont realize how it looks to others around me and I dont really care. Truth is i am a dead man , no way out of it. A dead man in love with you, and im only thinking of how best to make it easier for you when im gone. So you can have something of me forever, more then just a pice of paper and a thank you. Dawn took every word to heart, then walked back to Patrick, sat on his lap , grab his head and holding it tight against her bear chest. She said, then you better make me a girl , because I have no idea how to rise a boy. She kissed him and they made passionate love one more time.