I will tell you all this someday just not today so let me write it down for now till I get the courage or wits to finally face you....
How do you even manage to think leave alone say that I will forget you.
If only you knew dear Davin's girlfriend.
You once asked me what love to me is.
Can I come clean and say that it was a word that was and still is but a mystery to me
I have never experienced it before to claim l know it
I have never seen it to make me a witness
All I have experienced is the ones gone so wrong that it terrifies.so awful that the mere thought that once upon a time it claimed the name love is just too scary.
So yes I have witnessed one far from what you all call love .
I asked myself more than once if it was even worth all of the heartaches ,the headaches.
The pains uncomprehandable ,the agony alarming and the lies never ending.
Why do people even allow it to blossom in the first place.
Develop such a monstrosity and have the balls to call it love
I hated that word all my life , despised the term tremendously.
I was told ,asked ,and acclaimed to have my walls to high my heart too shielded my feelings too cold but all I could think of was how low it was and how it was not yet enough.
Was it love or just a curse , a looming doom or just a stupidity on another level.
Was it an affection or an infection all I know it had one thing in common ,,, sickness, madness and evil.
But now.
But you.
My dear drug ,
You are maddening
You are crazy
But worse I am crazy and crazier,am willing to die knowing I have now experienced the thing I mostly despised.
Am captivated
I have never been happier.
And all for one
You
My Cara.