"Congratulations!" Everyone cries
Everyone so happy and pleased with the new step in your life.
Me
Not me.
I am truly terrified.
Mainly due to the things that I've seen remind of abuses in the past.
They make my skin crawl with the way they speak to you.
They throw up red flags left and right that makes me cry for you.
Yet, you look so happy and content.
However, I feel that the person you know hides behind a mask of lies.
Everything they are; all the things they believe
Are 100 percent contrary to what you believe.
I can see the nothingness hiding behind the lines
That even in the photo a smile never reaches their eyes.
I am terrified for you;
Yet I can not say a word.
I can say nothing to you about the world.
Perhaps it is your youth and your craving for something of your own.
Yet something and others completely stay my words.
Why can I not say a word to you?
I question the honesty of our friendship in which I can speak none.
I question validity of the person I am.
I start to seperate from you because I can.
It is easier to distance than watch a future mistake
It is easier to not talk to you
Easier to just stay away.
Instead I just sit here being afraid for you.
Watching you be giddy, knowing they aren't good for you.
Yet you are so determined after only a few months
To permanently engross the two into one.
So I shake with fear, because they remind me of an abusive ex.
I can not support this
But I can not tell you that.