Three o'clock in the morning. Jimmy sat at his desk above Morrison's butcher shop, surrounded by the evidence of catastrophic failure.
The blood had stopped seeping hours ago—Morrison finished for the night, his blade cleaned and stored, the shop below dark and silent. But the stain remained on Jimmy's ceiling, darker now after months of accumulation.
A permanent mark that no amount of scrubbing would remove.
Papers covered every surface of his office. Not organized like before, not precisely filed and categorized. Just scattered documentation of eighteen months building perfect systems that were now collapsing under their own weight.
His whiskey bottle sat on the desk, half-empty. Or half-full—Jimmy couldn't remember which perspective was supposed to be optimistic. The glass beside it held two fingers of amber liquid he'd poured an hour ago and hadn't touched.
The cigarette in his ashtray had burned down to ash without him smoking it, just another forgotten thing in office full of forgotten things.
He'd achieved everything Tommy had hired him to achieve. Proven intelligence was better than violence. Become indispensable strategist whose brilliant plans solved impossible problems.
And tonight Dr. Helen Foster was fighting for life in hospital because his brilliant planning had made her a target.
Jimmy pulled out his notebook—the same notebook that had documented every operation, every manipulation, every perfect outcome achieved through strategic deception. He turned to a fresh page and began writing, not plans but inventory.
Cataloging the damage with the same meticulous attention he'd once brought to planning operations.
Taking Inventory:
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Ada Shelby
Best friend who believed she'd maintained principles despite family pressure. Woman who'd stood for something she thought mattered, fought for values she believed were hers.
Reality: Jimmy had manipulated every choice. Made her "heroic resistance" serve Shelby interests while she believed she was fighting against them. Given her clear conscience by denying her reality.
Protected her through violation she'd never recognized until Eleanor's documentation made it unavoidable.
Current Status: Won't speak to him. Won't look at him. Her exile creates security gap—no Reform Club intelligence, no progressive movement insights, no bridge between Shelby operations and legitimate political organizing.
The system that depended on her can't function without her.
Can it be fixed? No. Trust destroyed can't be manipulated back into existence. Forgiveness can't be strategically engineered. Some things stay broken.
The Real Cost: Ada will never know if her friendship with Jimmy was genuine or just strategic positioning. Will never trust her own judgment again because the person who violated her was person she trusted most.
Every principle she believed she maintained was actually performance in puppet show Jimmy scripted.
Jimmy's hand shook as he wrote. Not from exhaustion—from genuine emotion breaking through strategic analysis for first time in months.
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Mrs. Elowen Price
Surrogate mother who asked for simple presence. Woman who'd taken him in after Mary's death, given him family when he had none, loved him unconditionally despite knowing exactly what he was becoming.
What she asked for: Just sit with me. Be present without plotting. Remember how to be human instead of strategist.
What Jimmy provided: Strategic analysis of her treatment options. Plans for optimal recovery. Logistics coordination for care she didn't want. Everything except what she actually needed.
Current Status: Recovering in hospital. Disappointed in what he's become. Still loves him but can't connect with him because he's forgotten how to connect with anyone.
Can it be fixed? Unknown. Mrs. Price offered conditional blessing—if he keeps trying to be human, she'll keep loving him. But trying requires skills he's optimized away.
Presence requires silencing strategic thinking that's become his entire consciousness.
The Real Cost: He's losing the last person who loved him for who he was rather than what he could achieve. When Mrs. Price looks at him now, she sees brilliant strategist instead of the boy who used to sit in her kitchen and just talk.
That boy is gone. Maybe permanently.
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Martin Webb
Teacher Jimmy recruited for political manipulation. Man with genuine principles and authentic desire to help working families. Someone who actually meant the idealistic things he said about public service.
What Jimmy did: Educated him in strategic deception while calling it political realism. Positioned him for maximum impact while making him visible target. Used his genuine care for working families as weapon while claiming to protect him.
Current Status: Serving as councilman, helping Birmingham families despite complicated Shelby connections. Voting independently within parameters Jimmy established.
Facing IRA death threat because Jimmy made him symbol of Shelby political expansion.
The Complication: Webb's genuine courage creates variables Jimmy can't control. Real human choice introduces chaos into perfect systems. To protect him requires trusting people Jimmy hasn't manipulated, coordinating with allies he doesn't control, accepting outcomes he can't guarantee.
Can it be fixed? Unknown. Webb demands protection that respects his autonomy. Jimmy doesn't know how to protect someone who refuses to be positioned strategically.
The problem requires trust Jimmy destroyed and human connection he eliminated.
The Real Cost: Webb will never know if his independence is real or just managed illusion. Every vote he casts, every principle he maintains—is it genuine or guided?
Jimmy's manipulation was so complete that Webb can't trust his own choices anymore.
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Dr. Helen Foster
Former suffragette. Experienced organizer. Genuine believer in progressive reform. Woman who trusted Jimmy's campaign because she thought it was legitimate rather than Shelby operation.
What Jimmy did: Hired her for legitimacy. Positioned her prominently in Webb's campaign. Made her visible face of progressive reform attached to Shelby political expansion.
Never told her she was asset in criminal operation. Never asked if she consented to that role.
Current Status: Critical condition in hospital. Fighting for life after IRA bombing. Extensive injuries that may kill her or leave her permanently damaged.
Can it be fixed? No. Damage is done. She's paying price for involvement she never truly consented to. Third-order consequence Jimmy never calculated because he was too focused on political impact to consider human cost.
The Real Cost: Foster believed she was helping Birmingham families through legitimate politics. Actually, she was unwitting participant in Shelby criminal expansion.
Her idealism was weaponized without her knowledge. Her genuine care for working families was deployed as strategic asset. And now she might die because Jimmy positioned her for maximum visibility without considering maximum vulnerability.
Jimmy's hand stopped writing. He couldn't continue. Foster's injury made the abstract specific, the theoretical concrete. She had name, face, dreams, beliefs—all destroyed because he'd treated her as variable to be deployed.
He poured fresh whiskey, this time drinking it. The burn didn't help. Nothing helped. The cost was visible and he couldn't look away.
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Billy Kitchen
Man Jimmy saved through strategic mercy. Traitor given second chance that was actually recruitment. Someone grateful for life who gradually recognized that gratitude was managed emotion serving strategic purpose.
What Billy figured out: Every person Jimmy "helps" becomes piece on his board. The helping is genuine but never only helping. Always strategic purpose beneath the mercy. Always calculation behind the compassion.
What Billy offers: Genuine partnership where Jimmy doesn't control outcomes. Help protecting Webb conditional on Jimmy surrendering the very methods that make him valuable.
Current Status: Waiting to see if Jimmy can actually work with someone who refuses to be managed. Offering trust that terrifies Jimmy because trust requires vulnerability he's eliminated as weakness.
Can it be fixed? Maybe. If Jimmy learns to coordinate without controlling. If he accepts genuine human unpredictability instead of managed compliance. If he surrenders certainty for messy cooperation.
The Real Cost: Billy represents everyone Jimmy "saved" while making them assets. His mercy was always strategic positioning. His protection was always recruitment.
Even his most decent acts were contaminated by manipulation.
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Thomas Shelby
Authority figure who hired Jimmy for strategic thinking. Man who enabled and rewarded Jimmy's transformation into brilliant manipulator. Leader who taught him that intelligence could achieve what violence couldn't.
What Tommy wanted: Strategist who thought three moves ahead. Someone who solved problems through intelligence rather than brutality. Political expansion through legitimate channels.
What Tommy got: Everything he wanted. Perfect political operations. Sustainable influence over council. Section D neutralized. Problems solved through strategic brilliance rather than violence.
What Tommy rejected: Perfect plan to protect Webb through manipulation. Chose crude honesty over elegant deception. Demanded truth instead of managed reality.
Current Status: Lost faith in methods he enabled. Recognizing that perfect manipulation creates brittle systems. Forcing Jimmy to work differently despite not knowing if Jimmy can.
Can it be fixed? Unknown. Tommy still values Jimmy's intelligence but questions his methods. Wants strategist who can tell truth instead of managing perception. Demands sustainable relationships over brittle control.
The Real Cost: Authority who taught Jimmy that manipulation was valuable now telling him manipulation isn't acceptable. Everything Jimmy became to serve Tommy is now insufficient.
His entire value proposition questioned by person who created that value proposition.
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Polly Gray
Greek chorus who saw everything. Woman who watched Jimmy's transformation with increasing horror. Family matriarch who named what he was becoming when everyone else was impressed by his effectiveness.
What Polly said from the beginning: Perfect systems fail catastrophically when they fail. You're optimizing away every human element that makes you decent. Eventually you become exactly what you're pretending to be.
What Jimmy thought: She didn't understand. Couldn't see that manipulation was protection. That strategic thinking was superior to messy human emotion. That intelligence without empathy was efficiency rather than cruelty.
What Polly was actually saying: You're destroying yourself and everyone around you. Your brilliance is becoming your catastrophe. When the collapse comes, you'll have eliminated every human element necessary to survive it.
Current Status: Watching Jimmy finally recognize what she warned about. No satisfaction in being right. Just sad recognition that some lessons can only be learned through devastation.
The Real Cost: Polly knew all along. Warned him repeatedly. He dismissed her wisdom as failure to understand strategic thinking.
Now he sees she understood better than he did—that intelligence without humanity isn't genius, just cruelty dressed in prettier language.
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Section D / Captain Shaw
Government intelligence operation Jimmy neutralized through mutual assured destruction. Professional opponents who recognized they'd been outplayed by sophisticated operators.
What Jimmy achieved: Complete victory. Section D ceased active operations against Shelbys. Monitoring without interference. Stalemate through mutually assured destruction.
Strategic assessment: Perfect outcome. Enemy neutralized without violence. Sustainable détente achieved through documentation of illegal activities.
Actual outcome: Another perfect manipulation that required treating Ada as unknowing asset. Another brilliant plan built on violation of someone who never consented to involvement.
The Real Cost: Even his greatest strategic victories were built on manipulation of people he claimed to care about. The method contaminated the achievement.
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Jimmy set down his pen, reviewing what he'd written. The pattern was undeniable, mathematical in its consistency:
Every success required manipulation.
Every manipulation created new complications.
Every complication required more manipulation.
Perfect systems generating catastrophic failures.
He'd built machine that required constant input to maintain. And the input was human trust he'd systematically destroyed through strategic deception.
The terrible realization settled over him with crushing weight:
He couldn't solve this problem through intelligence.
Because HE was the problem.
His brilliant manipulation had created situation requiring solutions he couldn't provide. His strategic thinking had eliminated human elements now necessary for resolution.
His perfect systems had generated the catastrophe he was supposed to prevent.
Intelligence without empathy. Strategy without conscience. Victory without meaning.
He was trapped in cage of his own making. The brilliant fixer who could solve any problem had become unsolvable problem himself.
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Jimmy stood, pacing his cramped office, mind racing through his transformation.
Book 1: The Beginning
Joined Shelbys seeking revenge for Mary's death. Proved intelligence could beat violence through elegant solutions rather than brutal force. Found family and belonging after years of isolation.
Helped people genuinely—Beatrice Murphy, Billy Kitchen, others who needed someone clever enough to solve problems the system couldn't or wouldn't address.
Had principles then. Refused to kill. Wouldn't harm children. Used his brilliance for protection rather than exploitation. Connected genuinely with Ada, Mrs. Price, Polly.
Still human despite working for criminals.
That person felt like stranger now. Someone naive and inefficient who'd been optimized away.
Book 2: The Transformation
Promoted to Chief Strategist. Given authority and resources to prove what intelligence could achieve. The election became his masterpiece—Webb in office, Ada's betrayal managed, Section D neutralized, Tommy's political expansion succeeding.
Perfect operation executed through perfect manipulation. Everyone believing their own version of reality while Jimmy controlled the truth.
Ada proud of her resistance while serving purposes she opposed. Webb believing he maintained independence while operating within parameters Jimmy established. Section D thinking they opposed Shelbys while Jimmy used them to validate operations.
Brilliance without limits. Strategic thinking without constraints. Achievement after achievement proving intelligence was superior to violence.
And slowly, gradually, imperceptibly—becoming exactly what Polly warned about. The performance becoming identity. The mask becoming face. The strategic thinking becoming entire consciousness.
Book 3: The Reckoning
Six months of perfect operations. Everything controlled, everyone managed, total strategic domination. The machine running flawlessly, producing optimal outcomes, proving that intelligence could solve any problem.
Until the problems required solutions intelligence couldn't provide. Until the perfect systems encountered genuine human courage and real unpredictability and authentic emotion.
Until manipulation met resistance it couldn't overcome because the resistance was honest rather than strategic.
Ada's discovery. Mrs. Price's impossible request. Webb's genuine choice. Billy's conditional help. Tommy's rejection of perfect planning. Foster's injury making cost specific rather than theoretical.
Everything unraveling simultaneously because perfect systems fail catastrophically when they fail.
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The central question of the trilogy emerged with brutal clarity:
Can someone who's sacrificed humanity to prove intellectual superiority ever recover that humanity?
Or are some transformations permanent?
Jimmy had no answer. He'd never faced problem he couldn't think his way through. Never encountered challenge that intelligence couldn't solve. Never admitted genuine uncertainty about his own capability.
But this problem required not thinking. Required being vulnerable, trusting others, accepting messiness, surrendering control. Everything he'd systematically eliminated.
Could humanity be recovered once sacrificed?
The question terrified him because he genuinely didn't know. And not knowing—actual uncertainty rather than strategic ambiguity—felt like death of everything that made him valuable.
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Polly's words returned with devastating accuracy: "Eventually you become exactly what you're pretending to be."
He'd pretended to be emotionless strategist to maintain distance from violent work. Performed coldness to protect himself from caring too much. Treated people like chess pieces as method rather than belief.
And now he was that person. The performance had become identity. The mask had become face. He couldn't turn off the strategic thinking anymore.
Couldn't see people as people rather than variables. Couldn't connect genuinely because genuine connection required vulnerability he'd trained himself to eliminate.
Mrs. Price's question haunted him: "Where did the boy who could just talk with me go?"
That person was gone. Dead. Buried under eighteen months of strategic manipulation and perfect planning and optimized inhumanity.
He couldn't bring that person back.
Innocence lost was lost forever. The naive young man who'd joined the Shelbys seeking revenge and found family—that person couldn't be recovered.
Too much knowledge acquired. Too many violations committed. Too many people hurt through brilliant planning that never considered human cost.
But maybe...
New thought emerging through the despair. Fragile and uncertain but present:
Maybe he couldn't return to innocence, but could become something different.
Not recovery of who he was. But attempt to become something better than what he'd become. Someone who understood what intelligence cost him.
Someone who chose humanity despite knowing how messy and inefficient it was. Someone who accepted permanent damage while trying anyway.
Not redemption. Attempt at recovery.
Not innocence. Choice of connection over control.
Not perfection. Acceptance of being damaged while trying to be better.
The distinction felt crucial. He couldn't undo Ada's devastation or Foster's injury or Mrs. Price's disappointment. Couldn't manipulate his way back to genuine relationships or strategic himself into deserving forgiveness.
But maybe—maybe—he could choose to try being human again. Knowing he'd fail frequently. Knowing it would be uncomfortable and inefficient. Knowing every day would require consciously choosing connection over control.
Knowing he'd never fully succeed but trying anyway because the alternative was dying alone surrounded by perfect systems and hollow victories.
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Jimmy made the hardest choice of the entire series.
He would try to recover humanity.
Not because it was strategically optimal. Not because it guaranteed better outcomes. Not because intelligence suggested it was correct path.
But because the alternative—isolated perfection, brilliant manipulation, strategic thinking without human connection—was death. Slower than bullet but just as final.
Death of everything that made life meaningful while maintaining biological functions.
He'd proven intelligence was better than violence. Now he needed to learn that humanity was better than pure intelligence.
The choice felt like death. Everything in him resisted. His entire identity was built on strategic thinking, perfect planning, control over variables. Surrendering that felt like surrendering himself.
But no alternative existed except the hollow existence he'd been living—brilliant and isolated, effective and alone, achieving everything while losing everyone.
Jimmy stood in his office as the first hints of dawn touched Birmingham's eastern sky. The decision was made. Now he had to figure out how to actually implement it.
How do you recover humanity you've systematically eliminated?
He didn't know. Couldn't plan it strategically. Couldn't design perfect approach for imperfect objective.
Maybe that was the point. Maybe recovery required accepting that he didn't know, couldn't control, had to trust other people to guide him because he'd lost the map himself.
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Jimmy pulled on his coat and left his office as dawn broke properly over Birmingham. The early April morning was cold but bright, spring asserting itself despite industrial resistance.
He walked through Small Heath's awakening streets. Factory whistles hadn't blown yet, but the neighborhood was stirring. Coal fires being started. Milk carts beginning rounds. Early workers heading to morning shifts.
Everything looked different in dawn light. The same streets he'd walked hundreds of times, but seeing them newly.
The brick houses weren't just housing units containing demographics. They were homes where actual families lived actual lives. The children weren't potential recruits or variables to analyze. They were children—individual humans with dreams and fears and futures he couldn't predict.
For first time in months, Jimmy wasn't mentally cataloging strategic opportunities or analyzing social patterns. Just seeing Birmingham as it actually was—complicated, messy, full of people living lives that had nothing to do with his operations.
The world was larger than his perfect systems. Reality more complex than his strategic calculations. People more than variables in equations he'd designed.
The recognition felt like waking from long dream. Or nightmare. Clarity emerging after months of strategic tunnel vision that treated everything as problem to be solved.
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Jimmy found himself at St. Mary's Cemetery without consciously choosing the destination. His feet had brought him here, muscle memory from years of visiting before Book 2's transformation.
He hadn't been here since the election. Six months avoiding the grave where his journey began because visiting Mary meant confronting what he'd become in pursuit of avenging her.
The cemetery was quiet in dawn light. Dew on grass, birds singing despite urban surroundings, morning sun filtering through sparse trees. Peace that felt foreign after months of constant strategic thinking.
Mary's grave looked smaller than he remembered. Simple headstone with her name and dates. No elaborate monument. Just marker acknowledging her existence and early death.
Jimmy stood looking at it, no internal dialogue, no strategic planning. Just presence with someone he'd loved who'd been dead for seven years.
Finally, he spoke aloud. Voice quiet in cemetery silence:
"I'm sorry for using your death to justify becoming someone you'd despise."
The words felt inadequate but honest. Mary would have hated what he'd become—the manipulation, the violation, the treatment of people as chess pieces.
She'd believed in decency, kindness, helping others genuinely. Would have been horrified by Ada's devastation and Foster's injury and strategic thinking that generated casualties without considering human cost.
"I'm going to try to be better. Don't know if I can. Don't know if trying is enough. But I'm going to try."
No response. Just morning birds and distant factory sounds. Mary had been gone too long to offer guidance. But standing here acknowledged where his journey started and what it had cost.
Jimmy left the cemetery as full sunrise broke. Walking back toward Small Heath feeling simultaneously lighter and heavier. Decision made, but implementation terrifying. Choice clear, but path uncertain.
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He returned to his office as morning light filled the cramped space. Blood had stopped seeping hours ago. Morrison would start work again soon, blade resuming its daily rhythm.
But for first time in months, Jimmy sat at his desk without immediately reaching for papers or pen. Just sat. In stillness. Present in the moment without planning three moves ahead.
The silence was uncomfortable. His mind wanted to strategize, plan, analyze. But he forced himself to just exist for moment without agenda or objective.
Five minutes of genuine stillness. No plotting. No calculating. Just being in space, breathing, experiencing present without immediately trying to shape future.
It was harder than any strategic operation he'd designed. More difficult than manipulating Ada or managing Webb or neutralizing Section D. Just existing without purpose for five minutes.
But he did it. Small victory. Uncomfortable but genuine.
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Jimmy picked up the phone, hands shaking slightly. He dialed number from memory—Billy Kitchen's contact in Glasgow.
Billy answered on third ring, voice alert despite early hour. "Thomas Bennett speaking."
"Billy. It's Jimmy Cartwright."
Brief pause. "Didn't expect to hear from you this early. Something wrong?"
"I need help." The words felt like confession. "Genuine help. No manipulation, no hidden agendas, no strategic positioning."
Another pause. Longer this time. Billy recognizing significance of request.
"What kind of help?"
"I don't know how to do this," Jimmy admitted. "Work with people I don't control. Protect Webb while respecting his autonomy. Coordinate cooperation without managing outcomes. I've eliminated every skill necessary for what I need to do."
"And you're calling me because...?"
"Because you offered help on condition I stop trying to manipulate you. And I'm accepting those conditions. Actually accepting them, not agreeing strategically while planning to control anyway."
Jimmy's voice was steady despite terror beneath words. "I don't know how to do this. But I'm willing to try."
Silence on the line. Jimmy could hear Billy breathing, processing request, deciding whether to believe this represented genuine change or just more sophisticated manipulation.
Finally: "That's all anyone can ask. Willingness to try."
Relief flooded through Jimmy, unexpected and overwhelming. "I'll be honest: I don't know if I can actually do it. Work without controlling. Trust without managing. Accept uncertainty without trying to eliminate it."
"Probably you'll fail sometimes," Billy said. "Catch yourself mid-manipulation, realize you're trying to manage outcomes you claimed to trust others with. That's fine. Failing while trying is better than succeeding through violation."
"When can you come to Birmingham?"
"Tomorrow. I'll bring Glasgow intelligence, coordinate with Danny on IRA movements. And Jimmy?" Billy's voice was gentle. "I'm proud of you. Making this call. Admitting you need help. That took more courage than anything you've done with strategic brilliance."
They ended the call. Jimmy sat holding the dead phone, experiencing something unfamiliar: hope.
Fragile hope. Uncertain hope. Hope contaminated by recognition of how thoroughly he'd damaged everything and everyone.
But hope nonetheless.
He'd chosen to try recovering humanity. Called for help without trying to control the helping. Admitted genuine uncertainty instead of performing strategic ambiguity.
Small steps. Insufficient steps. But steps in direction that wasn't complete isolation and strategic perfection.
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Morning sunlight filled his office completely now. Birmingham waking fully, Saturday routines beginning, normal life continuing despite Jimmy's crisis.
He sat at his desk, decision made, phone call completed, future uncertain.
For first time in eighteen months, James Cartwright didn't have a plan.
Just a choice: become more human or die alone.
He'd chosen humanity.
Now he had to learn how.
The blood would keep seeping through his ceiling. Morrison's work continuing below, violence always present beneath surface.
But maybe—maybe—Jimmy could learn that intelligence without humanity was just another form of violence. And that choosing connection over control, even when inefficient and uncertain, was actual strength rather than strategic weakness.
He didn't know if recovery was possible. Didn't know if damaged humanity could be repaired enough to function. Didn't know if people he'd hurt would ever trust him again.
But he was going to try.
Not because strategic analysis suggested success was probable. Not because perfect planning guaranteed optimal outcome. Not because intelligence indicated this was correct path.
But because trying was only alternative to dying isolated despite biological survival.
And dying isolated was what he'd been doing for months while calling it success.
Jimmy Cartwright, brilliant strategist and monster of his own making, sat in morning light and chose to try being human again.
Knowing he'd fail frequently.
Knowing it would be uncomfortable.
Knowing perfection was impossible.
But trying anyway.
Because attempted humanity, however imperfect, was better than perfect inhumanity.
The work continued. The problems remained. But Jimmy's approach would be different now.
Or at least, he'd try to make it different.
That was all anyone could ask.
And maybe—just maybe—it would be enough.