Hii... My name is Izza. I'm from Cocui Family, family that have relationship with government. It's easy to me for making criminal without getting arrested because my families connection but i don't do it because i wanna impress my baddie.. I mean, my girlfriend, Elisa.
I'm in relationship with her not because i love her, but because she is the children of government so my parents wants me to get her. It's easy for me cause i'm the popular boy in school among girls and always got many attention from TK until now, Middle School. I always got what i want, everything i want it, i got it, it's that really simple that everyone envy about me, xd.
When Christmas, Birthday, Valentines, white Valentines, etc i always got gifts from many people, girl nor guy aka gay. I'm accepting people's gifts because I'm so generous lol. Even tho it's useless for me because i have everything. Many gifts are got in a trash because they are cheaps and ew, that's irritate my luxury body.
I really don't like gay, they like a shit, stupit and so disgusting, like they never tried girls before, so stupid. Yeah, i'm really homophobic and i don't really want have gay friends because it's itching me out.
My life is really better, i'm always happy because i got what I want and it's made my years. my parents really love me when i do what i told, and it's easy peasy. I don't need anything else when i got everything.
Even the boys is envying me, but they still need me so i don't really got bullied for that, but rather i'm the bully one, it's was my blessings. Kamisama is in my side because I have no problem at all.
But when I go to high school, everything is change. Everything turns black to me. My personality is changing, my life is losing and crushing, i feels so crazy. I really don't know why it happened but it's really make me mad.... Something is burning in my heart, it's hurt... It's really hurt... I really don't want it but i need to keep that one and become my slave when I need. And i really don't want that one to close to someone else rather than me, i can't accept that and I'll do anything for that.
I keeping it secret because i have girlfriend and my parents, i really can't do anything. This is the first time that i really don't appreciate my life when it turn of pure love, it's deep inside of me and i know exactly what it is and i really can't lie.
I feel so stupid of this thing can happen, like.... I'm homophobic. Why can i fall in love with the gay that i hate the most? It's unbelievable of me. I really hate myself after that but I really can't let it slide, i don't wanna lose him, it's complicated.
It's soo complicated because i and him having partners. I can't really keep him but if i need to kill people, i would love to sacrifice. if that's the only way to have him, I will do anything even killing my girlfriend, killing my parents, killing the government, killing alls, nor killing myself, I would love to.