"The potion's been bought... and the bandages, and the takeout..." Ars went ahead, checking the necessary things.
Today, Shimo went to the lord's city to collect his reward for defeating the Hero Eater. After receiving payment from Mister Paul, Ars and I strolled the streets, preparing for tomorrow's dungeon expedition.
Somehow, it seemed like a very long time had passed since I last went shopping alone with Ars like this.
Ars seemed to notice too; he'd combed his hair a little and was dressed in neat, unwrinkled clothes.
But why? Even the sight of him like this, just the two of us, didn't make my heart beat as fast as it used to.
Maybe it was because I saw Shimo this morning?
On the way to the lord's city, Shimo changed into a formal suit, tossing his usually casually flowing hair to one side.
The moment I saw him, I felt as if my soul had been stolen.
The expensive suit clung to Shimo's muscular, tall body; despite his imposing face, he radiated refined elegance. When I saw his face, when he tossed his bangs… my heart pounded, and a wave of excitement washed over me.
Shimo now clearly looked more like a terrifying monster than a human being… Why did I feel that way?
"Liz, you look tired. Why don't you rest a bit before you go?"
Just as I was mentally replaying Shimo's image in my head, Ars pointed to a tea room a little further down and said:
I agreed and went into the tea room, sat down across from Ars, ordered drinks, and waited. For some reason, left alone with Ars, I couldn't think of anything to say.
...This feeling of unease couldn't have been caused solely by Shimo, whom I saw today. Perhaps it was...
"Liz, it's five days until your birthday... Do you want anything yet?"
By the way, it's five days until my birthday. I'm saying goodbye to adolescence and celebrating my first birthday in my twenties.
Even though it's such a significant birthday, the earrings Shimo gave me already seemed like a generous gift.
At first, this luxury was a bit of a burden... But after trying them on in front of the mirror in my room, I fell in love with them more and more, realizing I didn't need anything else.
"I don't need anything special right now, so it's fine. I'm happy with everything, you can choose whatever you like."
"Mmm." "Well then..." Ars replied vaguely, blushing slightly.
Has he already chosen something? Ars seemed to have definitely chosen. In the past, everything I tried to hide was immediately revealed.
I looked at Ars, remembering the past... and suddenly a feeling of guilt overwhelmed me.
Just a few months ago, I hadn't even considered anyone but Ars... how did I end up in this relationship with Shimo?
I lost my virginity under the influence of alcohol... and now I'm eagerly awaiting the opportunity to satisfy the physical needs I should have denied myself.
When Ars and I taste the forbidden fruit for the first time in the future... how will he react to seeing that I'm no longer a virgin?
Of course, I've heard that even inexperienced adventurers sometimes experience accidental ruptures of their hymens.
And naive Ars would probably believe me if I said so.
I should feel guilty... for doing something that, if exposed, would completely ruin my relationship with Ars... but somehow the guilt isn't so strong.
Instead, a strange, itching sensation emanates from the depths of my heart, causing a tingling sensation in the pit of my stomach.
This feeling... isn't simply because using a condom will allow me to remain unnoticed.
The fact is, I secretly enjoy the pleasure of intercourse with this enormous member. And because of this pleasure, I'm increasingly drawn to Shimo.
At first, I simply thought he was an ugly monster... but now, every time I look at Shimo, I have the illusion that I see an extraordinary male, far superior to ordinary people.
If I don't stop now... I feel... I'll end up in an irreversible situation... but I can't escape. The pleasure of this brutal rape is too great.
I'm sorry, Ars... When the opportunity arises, I'll definitely break off relations with Shimo... and come back to you... So... give me a little more time... please, don't mind...
...... I made this resolution yesterday, but a few hours later I broke it and indulged in Shimo's penis again.
On the third floor of Shimo's apartment, as he caressed my buttocks, all thoughts of Ars disappeared; my thoughts were occupied only with the idea of having sex with Kok... I didn't even wash my face before we did it.
What's more, today I even initiated a kiss with Shimo, like lovers, hiding it from Ars.
Why? I firmly resolved to control my desires, but as soon as I see Shimo, these thoughts immediately vanish, my mind is filled only with thoughts of the evil Rooster, and my body heats up, as if I were in heat.
I never thought I was such a depraved woman... I'm even a little afraid of my own depravity.
Coming soon Shimo is coming to wake me up and give in to my sexual desires. If I really want to stop, I should stop now. If I don't stop now, I'll probably be lost in this pleasure forever.
"Liz."
"...Hmm..."...Just once—it's no big deal, right?
Since I'd already agreed to prepare, if I refused, Shimo's lust would become unbearable.
I even brought condoms... just this once... Stopping resisting as soon as Shimo called me, I eagerly grabbed my purse of condoms and followed him.
Escaping my lover to have an affair was like playing a prank on my parents—exciting and thrilling at the same time.
Lisette. She's completely crazy.
I mentally cursed myself as I opened my purse to get the condoms. But... the condoms that were supposed to be there weren't.
This is so awkward.
What should I do?
I finally managed to have sex, but I realized I didn't bring condoms.
Even without condoms... should I perform oral sex on him?
Sure, the thought of using my mouth on Shimo's penis was incredibly arousing... But the thought of being able to satisfy my daily need with oral sex alone was so wasteful.
What about using a contraceptive spell just once?
I shouldn't take the whole Ether connection thing too seriously... but Shimo, who'd heard condoms didn't exist, made a terrifying suggestion that left me doubtful.
"How about we go through the back door?" The back... door?
Um... anus?
Using this place to defecate?
I vaguely remembered that such a method of sexual intercourse existed... but didn't only perverts do it?
Using such a shameful place for sex?
I shook my head, finding it absurd, but Shimo told me it could be even more arousing than regular sex.
How absurd. Regular sex is already intoxicating and extremely dangerous. And what next...? Hearing this, the burden and fear of sex in a shameful cave gradually subsided, but my interest soared.
How pleasant would that be?
Even regular sex eventually rendered me unconscious. Could there be a greater pleasure than that?
...Okay.
Anyway, there are no condoms, so this is the only option.
I can't do it directly.
Hmm.
There's no other way.
Subconsciously, I accepted this absurd explanation, even resorting to methods I'd never used before, methods described only in books of magic. Then, blushing, I willingly leaned toward Shimo.
And Shimo, as if he'd been expecting it, stroked and licked my anus, causing me both shame and pleasure.
Even though I offered myself voluntarily, another person touching my anus was too shameful and humiliating... In this shame, I couldn't even think about what I was doing until a sudden pain brought me back to my senses.
"Huff... huff... ugh...!" It hurt so much.
Difficulty breathing, causing suffocation.
What's going on?
Is Shimo's penis inside my anus?
The excruciating pain, as if tearing me apart, was unbearable... and yet, despite this, a strange, inexplicable pleasure remained... and this pleasure intensified with every movement of Shimo... At some point, the pain disappeared, leaving only a spreading pleasure.
Moreover, as Shimo's penis gradually penetrated deep into my rectum, I experienced intense pleasure, as if my anus had become a sexual organ, and my head began to spin.
At the very moment I plunged into this dizzying bliss of anal violence, Shimo whispered in my ear.
"This is Lisbeth's first time... and all of this belongs to me, doesn't it?" The moment I heard these words, time seemed to stand still, the pleasure suddenly ceased, and my heart began to pound wildly.
My first time... all of this?
With my hands and mouth... my vagina... and my anus... huh?
All this?
Ars and I had never really kissed, let alone made love... but all those first times were with Shimo?
Whatever happens with Ars in the future... it will all just be memories of what I experienced with Shimo... right?
An indescribable dizziness ran through my body.
But strangely enough... as the dizziness spread, I experienced something akin to an orgasm.
What is this feeling? Why is Ars's face so blurry in my memory? I thought that since it had come to this, perhaps I should let go of thoughts of Ars and just enjoy life.
Ars didn't know I was having an affair behind his back. Even if I married Ars in the future, he probably couldn't imagine what I had experienced, having Shimo's huge and ferocious member penetrate every orifice of my body.
For some reason... this fact gave me immense pleasure.
"Liz. When I sort out my desires... try treating me like a lover, how about that?"
When Shimo whispered this in my ear, this time I was overcome with emotion.
Atilo felt a completely different kind of dizziness.
Beloved? Shimo... mine? Because of Ars, this beloved, even the thought of whom caused me pain... hearing it from Shimo's lips... I was overwhelmed with joy.
I... Shimo's lover... The moment I satisfy my sexual desire... I can become this man's woman.
Thinking about this, I completely freed myself from doubt and guilt.
"...Hmm♡Okay...♡This is just a setup...♡Since we're doing this, let's enjoy it...♡" That's right.
This is just a place to satisfy sexual desire once a day.
No need to hesitate, no need to feel guilty.
During that period, I was nothing more than a lover and a woman to Shimo.
I kiss my lover standing before me, thus expressing my love.
Lost in the pleasure he was giving me, I let out a wild cry, experiencing a feminine bliss I'd never felt before.
........ Coming to my senses... My stomach swelled with Shimo's sperm, my body enveloped in a blissful, pleasant aftertaste.
Looking at Shimo hugging me, I felt an overwhelming joy, my heart pounding.
This man in front of me is my beloved, for whom I gave everything. Thinking about it... I was so happy I almost burst into tears.
When I stood up after the kiss, my legs suddenly buckled with happiness, I blushed and showed Shimo... but he delightedly showed me his magnificent erection.
He even enjoyed this shameful sight: sperm flowed from my anus as I fell... Although I was incredibly embarrassed, I also experienced a mild orgasm from intense pleasure.
After Shimo cleaned me up, he carried me back to the boss's room.
It was quite a distance to the boss's room, but it was easy; this body truly made me feel the superiority that comes with being a man.
This wonderful body will be my lover's body every day during our sexual encounters... Heh-heh. For some reason, I felt incredibly happy.
After that, I climbed into my sleeping bag, and after a gentle kiss and goodnight from Shimo, I sank into a lingering happiness that enveloped my entire body.
Although the swelling had subsided significantly, my stomach was still slightly swollen from Shimo's semen. I gently stroked my belly and began to think about the future.
"Although I don't know how long this will last... hmm." Although I felt sorry for Ars, at least I shouldn't have been thinking about him when I was struggling with my sexual desires. Once a day… when I struggled with my sexual desires… I was Shimo's lover. Completely freed from the guilt I felt towards Ars, I fell asleep feeling happy.