It's already Tuesday, May 6th. So far, nothing new or extraordinary has happened.
My only problem was that my practices in the theater club were going to be mandatory, but it's too easy, so I have plenty of free time.
Lately, I feel more attracted to Himari... I feel like if I keep this up, I'll end up falling in love. My hand slipped off the coffee machine, falling limp at my left side. This is bad. For a long time, I haven't known if I can allow myself something like that. Since that incident in high school, I decided not to fall in love again, but lying to myself won't do any good.
What am I supposed to do? She is too beautiful. What would happen if she decides to simply bring another man into the relationship? During my secondary school years, a worldwide law was passed allowing polyamorous relationships. It's not that they were so frowned upon before, but now they are very normal.
At first, I thought it wouldn't really affect me, but she proved me wrong. I remembered that girl with amber eyes again. I watched as the machine poured the last drops into the cup while feeling depressed. It's not that she destroyed my relationship with my family; she just finished it off. I grabbed my cup of coffee, but felt an indescribable disgust towards it. I slammed it hard against the table. Small cracks formed and a lot of coffee splashed, but I ignored it to go to the sofa and watch a few movies.
I spent the rest of Tuesday watching trashy movies and working. When I woke up on Wednesday, I got ready earlier than usual. Then I started walking towards the uni.
"I think love isn't for me," I thought as I walked. I've lived more than any other person, in a way; besides, I don't need emotional support to carry out hundreds of loops, so having a relationship is completely stupid.
With each thought, my heart raced along with my steps. I felt my brain filling with different thoughts and feelings; it wouldn't stop working. At one moment, while passing near an alley, I felt a pull, but instead of seeing anything else, my consciousness faded.
After what felt like a millennium, I could open my eyes. I could see out of the corner of my eye that the left side of my head had a large amount of blood. I tried to move, but soon realized I was tied hand and foot to a wooden chair. To my right, there was a table full of blood and some loose body parts.
I started trying to free myself from the bindings on my hands. Little by little, I managed to loosen them, but before I could break free, I heard footsteps; then a person appeared at the door.
"Hello. Are you comfortable?" His tone was grim; his face couldn't be seen due to the lack of light.
Soon he approached, grabbed a mallet, and shattered my ribs with a blow; then he began hitting my skull repeatedly until I died.
After a few moments, I returned. The save point was tampered with again, with me barely waking up. I tried to untie myself faster than before, which I didn't achieve, as he had tied me differently. Through attempts, I managed to perfect untying myself in the three different scenarios presented to me.
When I could untie myself consistently, I hopped towards the table. Upon arriving, I grabbed a katana, with which I cut the bindings on my feet. At that moment, the person who kidnapped me entered, so I lunged at him with the katana; but he reacted quickly, hitting me too hard in my stomach. Then he calmly went to the table and cut the tendons in my hands and feet. He tortured me to death.
Upon returning, I paled, but I recomposed myself to get the katana again; then I hid behind the table. When the kidnapper entered and saw the empty chair, his brow furrowed and he approached the table, where I stood and attacked him. He reacted fairly well, blocking with the mallet's handle, but it had no handguard; so I let the blade of my katana slide to cut three of his fingers.
Then I aimed a slash at his neck, but he blocked it using his other hand to hold a classic sword. I created distance between us with a small jump backwards, but he threw his sword at me; I could deflect it, but he threw another and another. One landed right in my throat; he just grabbed it to finish me off.
I went back in time. I began to ramble while freeing myself from the bindings. He isn't good at fighting with swords. I have a bit of experience, but not enough. What I must do is not let him get near the table.
When I could untie myself, I quickly went to the table with the katana, cut the bindings on my feet, and quickly went towards the door. Just as he was opening the door, I held my katana to give him a stab in the throat, which I achieved. After killing him, my hands went to his pockets, where I could find my phone. I unlocked it and turned on the data, only to see two simple messages from Himari:
"There's someone with a gun."
"Don't come to the uni."
After finishing reading them, I put my phone away and started running towards the uni. Few people would say "don't come"; it's impressive that she was able to write that, but thanks to my ability, going is the best and safest option.
While thinking, I crossed the street without looking; at that moment, a trailer ran me over completely. When I woke up, I saw myself back in the chair.
Damn it! I tried to untie myself again, but due to anger and being so agitated, I ended up failing. I began to get nervous; my pulse accelerated as I felt hysteria consuming me. I'm not going to achieve anything! I kicked the floor with my leg. Each time I died, I got angrier. Knowing I was wasting time while Himari could be being murdered made me nauseous; besides, the frustration of knowing I had already escaped perfectly consumed me.
In one attempt, I managed to untie myself. I quickly went for the katana and cut the rope on my legs to immediately stand guard. When the kidnapper arrived, I stabbed him in his throat, then in his pancreas, stomach, right and left lung, kidney, and, finally, in the heart. I didn't need even half of them, but I was so angry that I needed to vent my rage on someone. Immediately after, I ran towards the uni without even picking up my phone.
This time, as angry as I was, I paid attention to the traffic; even with the light green, I crossed only if no car was nearby. Soon I arrived at the uni. Knowing there was an armed murderer on the premises, I went to the shooting club. There were no guns there, but there were bows, arrows, and axes. Without hesitation, I grabbed two axes; I put one on my waist, while I held the other in my left hand.
When I finished preparing, I went to the main entrance of the uni. On the other side, I could hear screams and cries. I simulated the feeling that this place was safe and created a save point; then I opened the door. I entered carefully, but after taking two steps, my head exploded into a thousand pieces.
I went back to when I was holding the door handle. It was a clean shot directly to my head. I tried to enter again, but when I ran, I only covered a little more than three times the distance as before. I began trying to enter through other doors, but I didn't have enough time and Himari ended up dying, which activated the loop and left me holding the door handle.
When I knew my only option was to enter through the main door and try to survive in a direct one-on-one, I knew I was screwed. I entered the place again, ran in one direction, and when I saw he was aiming at me, I took a strong step to stop; then I faked going left to start running to the right, where I hid behind a metal pillar.
I felt great tension in my muscles. I began to think of something that would give me enough motivation to try more, since I had already made over 1,366 attempts. I took a deep breath and remembered that he killed Himari several times, but that made me so angry that I hit the metal beam with my axe, creating a deafening sound; to which the murderer reacted by covering his ears and lowering his guard.