๐๐ค๐ซ๐ ๐๐ฃ๐ ๐ก๐ค๐ซ๐
โขโโโโขโขโฆ โก โฆโขโขโโโโข
Is love blind and deaf? No. To me, love is the cruellest executioner of all.
I choose to silence this feeling, to drown it in the deepest chasm until it crumbles under the weight of silent gravity.
Yet the harder I press it down, the fiercer it rebels. This feeling wants to burst forth, to run and crash against your chest, shouting out every wound I've hidden away. But I knowโthis is nothing but a delusion in what they call a "perfect dream."
๐๐ฆ๐ณ๐ฉ๐ข๐ฑ๐ด ๐ช๐ง ๐ ๐ธ๐ฆ๐ณ๐ฆ ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ข๐ด๐ฌ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ด๐ต๐ข๐ณ๐ด...
๐๐ฃ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ต ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ณ ๐ฑ๐ญ๐ข๐ค๐ฆ ๐ช๐ฏ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ช๐ด ๐ฑ๐ฆ๐ณ๐ง๐ฆ๐ค๐ต ๐ฅ๐ณ๐ฆ๐ข๐ฎ...
Those lyrics mock me. I want to vanish into the thick of night, turn back time to a point where we never met at all. Because without that meeting, there would be no gaping hole in my chest when I see you holding her hand.
In my dreams, you are the axis of my world.
In reality? You belong only to someone else.
Should I fight to take you?
Should I shatter the happiness you so proudly display?
I could do it. Yet I fear the look on your faceโthe look of pure disgust the world usually reserves for someone cast as the villain.
I've read those novels, and I'm sick of them.
Why is the antagonist's struggle always branded as disgrace? The one who came first, who knew you when you were nobodyโso why is the "newcomer" hailed as the light?
The world calls her a "wretched woman," a "homewrecker," or a "relationship destroyer" simply for wanting to take back what should have been hers.
Why is the protagonist always pure, when they're the real thief? They're the one who slipped in and stole another's destiny!
But this is my cursed role. I will never win, for the author of this universe has already written a tragic end for me.
I was defeated even before the battle began. I surrender not because I am weak, but because I love you too much to become a monster in your eyes. I choose to fall apart alone rather than see you look at me with hatred.
A bitter truth I must swallow whole:
"๐๐ฃ ๐ฉ๐๐ ๐๐ฃ๐, ๐ฉ๐๐ ๐ค๐ก๐ ๐ฌ๐๐ก๐ ๐๐ก๐ฌ๐๐ฎ๐จ ๐๐ ๐ช๐ฉ๐ฉ๐๐ง๐ก๐ฎ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ฉ๐๐ ๐๐ฎ ๐ฉ๐๐ ๐ฃ๐๐ฌโ๐ฌ๐๐ค ๐๐ง๐๐ฃ๐๐จ ๐ก๐๐ช๐๐๐ฉ๐๐ง ๐ ๐๐๐ฃ ๐ฃ๐ค ๐ก๐ค๐ฃ๐๐๐ง ๐๐๐ซ๐."